{Everyone Please Read This}

[foxed_spirt]

This is not an 'I'm Leaving' thread.
I have practiced what I am going to say for about two days now in the mirror. In fact, I was acutally crying this morning thinking that I have to type this.

I have a lot to talk about today.
It's been keeping me up at night and has been bugging me a lot lately.

I just wish that the world here didn't change so much like it has.
I mean, I just want it to be like old times.
When me, Ryoken, Chaos, Snowie, Caoko, Neon and Kit would sit and roleplay something so chiche' for hours on end.
Now, we almost never talk.

I don't want any of this 'Naruto Highschool' crap. I just like the old, more serious roleplays like we used to have. I mean, Chaos didn't spend five hundred hours on a roleplay, then never reply to any messages I sent her like she does now.....

I mean, I used to play and talk to her and Caoko all the time. Now, it's just like I am just that 'Little Girl' on all the roleplays.
I want to be that girl whom everyone would laugh at and smile and would call 'Their Little Foxed'. I'm not that anymore.

I can only handle so much. I have a lot of good things, too.
I met Cody, the love of my life. Ninja, Hoshi, Mangos, Mellow, Lustie, and so many other great people.

But, now that so many people are leaving for collage, and vacations, and for hate, I mean, nothing is ever the same again. Dani is leaving, and it's hard for me to call her 'my sister'. I never talk to her.

Are you people busy? Or are you just inorging me? I can never tell. It's so very hard for me to call you 'friends' or 'family' now.

Aren't families supposed to stick together?
Aren't friends supposed to never each other's sides?

I can't tell anymore.

Now, my family is breaking up, here and at home, my friends at home hate me, and my father never wants to speak to me again, and even a new sister.
It's all to much for me to handle.

I can't handle this alone, but, it just feels like I am.
You say you are there for me, that I am your sister forever, and that I will always be your little Foxed, but.....


Please. This is so much for a little eleven year old girl to handle for herself.
You can sent me hate mail, and you can tell me I am being stupid, and that I am being over-dramadic.
I'm not stupid. I'm not a drama-queen.

I am Kiersten Ranee.
And you are my friends, my family.

[KitsuneNoKoi]

This is not an 'I'm Leaving' thread.
I have practiced what I am going to say for about two days now in the mirror. In fact, I was acutally crying this morning thinking that I have to type this.

I have a lot to talk about today.
It's been keeping me up at night and has been bugging me a lot lately.

I just wish that the world here didn't change so much like it has.
I mean, I just want it to be like old times.
When me, Ryoken, Chaos, Snowie, Caoko, Neon and Kit would sit and roleplay something so chiche' for hours on end.
Now, we almost never talk.

I don't want any of this 'Naruto Highschool' crap. I just like the old, more serious roleplays like we used to have. I mean, Chaos didn't spend five hundred hours on a roleplay, then never reply to any messages I sent her like she does now.....

I mean, I used to play and talk to her and Caoko all the time. Now, it's just like I am just that 'Little Girl' on all the roleplays.
I want to be that girl whom everyone would laugh at and smile and would call 'Their Little Foxed'. I'm not that anymore.

I can only handle so much. I have a lot of good things, too.
I met Cody, the love of my life. Ninja, Hoshi, Mangos, Mellow, Lustie, and so many other great people.

But, now that so many people are leaving for collage, and vacations, and for hate, I mean, nothing is ever the same again. Dani is leaving, and it's hard for me to call her 'my sister'. I never talk to her.

Are you people busy? Or are you just inorging me? I can never tell. It's so very hard for me to call you 'friends' or 'family' now.

Aren't families supposed to stick together?
Aren't friends supposed to never each other's sides?

I can't tell anymore.

Now, my family is breaking up, here and at home, my friends at home hate me, and my father never wants to speak to me again, and even a new sister.
It's all to much for me to handle.

I can't handle this alone, but, it just feels like I am.
You say you are there for me, that I am your sister forever, and that I will always be your little Foxed, but.....


Please. This is so much for a little eleven year old girl to handle for herself.
You can sent me hate mail, and you can tell me I am being stupid, and that I am being over-dramadic.
I'm not stupid. I'm not a drama-queen.

I am Kiersten Ranee.
And you are my friends, my family.


._.
I'm last...
Oh, well, I shall talk now...

I'm here for you, I just haven't been talking to you much because I feel like you just never really have been wanting to talk to me, honestly. So, there's my part as to why we haven't talked.(Aah! I miss the old days, too!)
If you want to tell me what's all going on, then feel free to. If you don't, then you can just ignore this.
If you want to PM me, then, that's fine, too. *hugs you tightly* I'm here for ya, sis. And, since I don't know what you're going through(Though, I dislike complaint threads most of the time) I shan't judge.
:]

[I_luv_u]

;_;
Well mi amore,I used to think families always stick together but when they grow up they just can't anymore.I have family probably all over the globe,same with friends.I will probably be on less as well since I'm going to high school soon but you can always still talk to my sissy ^.^ She's the same age (well almost) as you and she is a lot like me.
That's why you have to spend as much of time with people you care about whenever you can.
Uh...I'm not good at things like this but I'm trying for you Foxed :]
You can always talk to me,or my Zetsu-obsessed sister or any other friends you have on here.
Yep,yep.People must move on but you find more people,there are plenty of new comers each day.
That is all I have to say and I don't beleive I have said much.

[qwinsy]

so yer levin for a while

[foxed_spirt]

-_-
I just said this is NOT an 'I am Leaving Thread'. I would stay here if it was my last act in this pitiful world.

I'm here to say how much you all mean to me, but how confused and lost I am now.

[qwinsy]

arnt you the girl that i talked to befor

[foxed_spirt]

I don't know you.
I used to have an 'I am Leaving' thread. It's gone now.

[KitsuneNoKoi]

-_-
I just said this is NOT an 'I am Leaving Thread'. I would stay here if it was my last act in this pitiful world.

I'm here to say how much you all mean to me, but how confused and lost I am now.

Like I said, if you want to talk about it, then, you can talk to meeeeee!

[foxed_spirt]

I am crying now a bit.

Everything in this world is dark at sometime. But after darkness, and pain, comes happiness.

I guess you could say I am stuck in darkness and pain. I have been for about a year now.

I feel like I can't be freed.

[Snow_Angel_Kirei]

Aw, foxed....:( *hugs uber tightly*

I'm sorry if I haven't been a 'sister' to you like I said I would be. You're still my little Foxed no matter what happens. You're one of the first friends I had on here, and I'm sorry that things aren't like the old times (to tell you the truth...the old times were the best).

If you want to talk about anything (and I mean anything) I'm here for you okay? And I mean that. *hugs again* Love ya bunches, Foxed!

[foxed_spirt]

I love all you guys.

I'm sure you all love me. I hope......

[Snow_Angel_Kirei]

How could we not love you? You're fun and pretty goofy :]. And you're one of the best little sisters I know.

[foxed_spirt]

And you are one of the best big sisters I will ever have. I love you guys.....

[Chaos Angel]

... Z-Wow-zerz... o.o...
I-... Wowz... o.o...
Just-... Wow... o_o...
Things have changed...
Ha... I do spend about five hundred hours on a roleplay, don't I...?
Geez, foxed, I'm sorry.
I didn't know things were like that...
Or-... Z-wow...

[nooneshome]

This is not an 'I'm Leaving' thread.
I have practiced what I am going to say for about two days now in the mirror. In fact, I was acutally crying this morning thinking that I have to type this.

I have a lot to talk about today.
It's been keeping me up at night and has been bugging me a lot lately.

I just wish that the world here didn't change so much like it has.
I mean, I just want it to be like old times.
When me, Ryoken, Chaos, Snowie, Caoko, Neon and Kit would sit and roleplay something so chiche' for hours on end.
Now, we almost never talk.

I don't want any of this 'Naruto Highschool' crap. I just like the old, more serious roleplays like we used to have. I mean, Chaos didn't spend five hundred hours on a roleplay, then never reply to any messages I sent her like she does now.....

I mean, I used to play and talk to her and Caoko all the time. Now, it's just like I am just that 'Little Girl' on all the roleplays.
I want to be that girl whom everyone would laugh at and smile and would call 'Their Little Foxed'. I'm not that anymore.

I can only handle so much. I have a lot of good things, too.
I met Cody, the love of my life. Ninja, Hoshi, Mangos, Mellow, Lustie, and so many other great people.

But, now that so many people are leaving for collage, and vacations, and for hate, I mean, nothing is ever the same again. Dani is leaving, and it's hard for me to call her 'my sister'. I never talk to her.

Are you people busy? Or are you just inorging me? I can never tell. It's so very hard for me to call you 'friends' or 'family' now.

Aren't families supposed to stick together?
Aren't friends supposed to never each other's sides?

I can't tell anymore.

Now, my family is breaking up, here and at home, my friends at home hate me, and my father never wants to speak to me again, and even a new sister.
It's all to much for me to handle.

I can't handle this alone, but, it just feels like I am.
You say you are there for me, that I am your sister forever, and that I will always be your little Foxed, but.....


Please. This is so much for a little eleven year old girl to handle for herself.
You can sent me hate mail, and you can tell me I am being stupid, and that I am being over-dramadic.
I'm not stupid. I'm not a drama-queen.

I am Kiersten Ranee.
And you are my friends, my family.



Hey Foxed, I've Been DW friends with you since I started on DW. SOmetimes, THings change for the better. I aggre, Some of the New junk that people Posting like 'the naruto Highschool' or 'Anime mix' Are Really dumb. and The Better of the Role plays like your or mine, or and ones on here, Are just ignored. Along with that. I was eleven when my Parent split. I naver had to go there as much as you had, but, My friend or anyone didn't Really wanna talk to me Becesause, ' my Family was diffrent'. plus, Foxed, YOur NEVER the little girl over there to me. We're good friend, Practicly Sisters, Your some one, Everyone is someone.


PLUS! if ANYONE sends a Hate Reply or Hate mail to Foxed, I will Kick your @$$.

[foxed_spirt]

It may seem like it's just a bit changed, or nothing at all, but it's changed alot.

I'm just wishing I could spend more time with you like I used to.

[foxed_spirt]

My parents spilt when I was three..

[nooneshome]

It may seem like it's just a bit changed, or nothing at all, but it's changed alot.

I'm just wishing I could spend more time with you like I used to.

Yeah. What DID happen? Alot has changed. and so has a little.. Its kinda scary. I miss just me and you and mabey one other Person, Just talking about our favorite Times... i Miss that.

Another Piece of info need:

If depresed, get out of it.I was depressed the whole 11 and 12 years of my life. and you know what happend. my friends didnt want to be with be, my mom thought i was Psycho.i had to live my Last year in Elm-school Thinking that i was hated and alone... You dont want this to happen to you. Get some one to talk to, You'll feel better.

[foxed_spirt]

You want to know what's wrong?

I'll tell you.
My father won't talk to me since I told him I have a MySpace, and that I told him that I don't want to spend next weekend with him since I just spent the last three weekends away from home.

My new sister is coming, and I am worried.

My mama keeps leaving me home to sulk while she goes out.

And my stupid 'friends' keep ditching me.

[nooneshome]

No comment...


For once.. I have nothing to say... I'm Really Really Really Really Sorry......

But.. remember, you can PM about anything you need

[foxed_spirt]

I hate depression.

[nooneshome]

I hate depression.


Totally.. Depression, is, Dumb

[foxed_spirt]

Even though you are in it, you say your not, and that makes it worse, so.

I am in depression, people!

[Chaos Angel]

-sings- Cupcake Princess Ponieeeees

[Caoko]

Well, it's summer and I'm like, sleeping until two lately. And I'm just hanging out with people more.

I love you, but you've gotten a lot more.. depressed than when I first met you. Like, you've made threads about just being fully depressed, and I think it's just a call for attention. No one posts all of their problems online.
Hell, I didn't even tell my best friend that my grandpa died until a year later. Only my family knew, no one else did. I don't tell people about my problems unless they ask about. I especially don't make a whole damn thread complaining about them.
On this site, people seem to do that every day. I always thought you would be one of the people that would make threads to make people happier, not threads about being depressed.
I miss the old you. Sure, maybe the old Foxed will never come back, maybe I just have wishful thinking, but I miss the old, fun, happy-go-lucky Foxed that was rarely depressed.
Maybe things are bad for you right now, but things are bad for a lot of people and they smile about it.
Okay, your dad isn't talking to you because you have a myspace. That's the stupidest **** I have ever heard. If that's the reason he's not talking to you, then screw him. Honestly, it's just a myspace. It's just an account on a site. It's not like you're pregnant or something.
Honestly, if you're depressed about this, I don't know how long you'll last once you get older. **** happens. This stuff you're sad about ain't that bad. At all.
I've gone through a lot in my life, some **** still makes me cry, but I get over it, for the most part. I don't talk about it at all. My best friend doesn't know everything about me. I have this deep, dark, secret that I don't wanna tell anyone, because it hurts too much.
If you're posting this for the world to see, then you can't be that sad about it. I have never in my life posted a thread about how depressed I was. Ever. Because I deal with it. Because I'm not about to let it ruin my life. I'm not about to let some people or some **** keep me from progressing in my life and making myself a better person.

[foxed_spirt]

I wanna be happy, Caoko, but I dunno.

I only have about two or three depression threads, I make them simply because I am a person who needs to tell people about it, and my mama just nods and gets into all this phyco stuff and then complains about how I want my hair like Dani's.

Don't you dare think that I don't wanna be happy-go-lucky.
I do. A lot. I just have a lot going on in my life, and my 'friends' in the real world are just making it worse when I do tell them, so I tell you people, since you are a lot better than the people at home.

This is NOT a cry for attention. This is so people know WHAT I feel, and HOW I feel, and hopefull WHY I am feeling like this, and so I can get help into FIXING it.

[Caoko]

All I've seen from you lately are threads about being depressed. Maybe I have bad eyesight or something, but I rarely see a thread with you being happy in it.
From what I've seen, you've had either a thread/roleplay about Naruto, or a poem/thread about being depressed.
Maybe you should get some new friends. I know how hard it is to get people to be friends with me, but it can happen. Find a different crowd than the one you hang out with.
Dollwizard isn't always gonna be here to help you solve your problems. And you are the only one that can help you. What we say may affect you or something, but it's up to you to actually make a ****ing change in your life.
I can understand being worried about a new little sister, but how is that making you depressed? I don't see how that could affect you negatively, unless she has some sort of medical problem, and you're worried about if she'll live through the pregnancy or not.
Whenever I'm depressed I rarely have anyone to help me with it. My dad works, my mom works, my brothers simply don't give a ****. I'm always sulking alone while my parents and my brothers are off doing whatever the **** they're doing.

[foxed_spirt]

It's a song, and it's about a girl who doesn't want to be labeled, thank you very much.

......
I have nothing to say, because you are right, but I do have a reason to be worried.
My sister is acutally gonna be pre-mature, probably. That's bad.

[KitsuneNoKoi]

Caoko, I think you're forgetting that everyone has a different way of coping. I mean, when I get kind of stressed, I talk to Lin. I don't keep it all in(it's not 'cause I like to complain, I just do stupid things when I'm all...stressed or whatever.)
Not only that, but you're mature and older than both of us, aren't you?
I mean...it's kind of unfair, ya know? Maybe it's just my view on the whole thing, but (sorry to say this, Foxed) she is only eleven, yes?... or were you twelve. I can't keep track of ages.
>.<

[Caoko]

Are you commenting about my saying, 'find a different crowd'? Because by that I just meant find a different crowd of friends. Not a different label group.

Yeah, if you said that, I wouldn't have gotten on you about that.
She'll be find. Even if you aren't religious, you should just pray so she'll be alright. Send happiness and good vibes, and just do anything you can so that the baby is in a good environment until birth. My brother was a pre-mature child, but, he's great. I mean, he has his kinks but everyone does. I guarentee she'll be fine. And if I'm wrong, then, feel free to shoot me or something. I've got a little niece, and I worry about her a lot because she doesn't live near me. My brother and his then girlfriend had a child, but they're not together anymore, so my brother lives here, and they live wherever they live. I worry about when she comes to visit, y'know, if she's gonna be okay on the ride here or not, and all of that.
It's natural to be worried, but, just try and stay calm and hope for the best with her.

[Caoko]

Caoko, I think you're forgetting that everyone has a different way of coping. I mean, when I get kind of stressed, I talk to Lin. I don't keep it all in(it's not 'cause I like to complain, I just do stupid things when I'm all...stressed or whatever.)
Not only that, but you're mature and older than both of us, aren't you?
I mean...it's kind of unfair, ya know? Maybe it's just my view on the whole thing, but (sorry to say this, Foxed) she is only eleven, yes?... or were you twelve. I can't keep track of ages.
>.<

Yes, everyone copes differently. I talk with my family about it. I don't keep it in, but I don't make a whole thread about it either.
Maybe, yes, because she's eleven (or twelve) she's just hormonal right now, maybe she's starting to get that special visitor once every month now, but this has been going on a while. All of her problems seem to have started a little while ago, and they've been the same for a while. They don't seem to go away with her, so, the people here must not be helping. She needs to just relax and find a way to help herself, maybe something will work then.

[foxed_spirt]

I'm eleven, and yes, I am having that stupid thing NOW.
IT MAKES ME DEPRESSED!!!!!

I do have a way of coping with things, and this is MY way.

[Caoko]

I'm eleven, and yes, I am having that stupid thing NOW.
IT MAKES ME DEPRESSED!!!!!

I do have a way of coping with things, and this is MY way.

Maybe it's because I'm a liar, a bastard, a son of a *****, or whatever, but, I personally don't see telling the whole world as a form of coping.
Maybe just telling some friends in private messages or whatever, that'd be fine.
But making like, more than one thread about it just doesn't seem right to me.

[KitsuneNoKoi]

Yes, everyone copes differently. I talk with my family about it. I don't keep it in, but I don't make a whole thread about it either.
Maybe, yes, because she's eleven (or twelve) she's just hormonal right now, maybe she's starting to get that special visitor once every month now, but this has been going on a while. All of her problems seem to have started a little while ago, and they've been the same for a while. They don't seem to go away with her, so, the people here must not be helping. She needs to just relax and find a way to help herself, maybe something will work then.

v.v
Oh, yes, blame the hormones...



Foxed, how about this solution before this causes an argument(My Spider Piggy Senses are tinging, I can just feel it!)
Whenever you feel like complaining, you come to me? I've been through a little and my parents are getting divorced, so, I can understand where you're coming from.
I'm sure you're at a point in your life where you feel like crap and think no one understands you, along with your problems, but, trust me, you can talk to me about it, 'kay?

[foxed_spirt]

K.

Caoko.....-_-
I'm not gonna call ya anything, my way is just different. May be bacuse my enitre family does this, may be cause that's the way I am, may be just because my stupid star sign. I don't know.

All I know is that I have eaten something, {My stupid peanut butter wouldn't open so I ate something else} and that I am feeling better.

[Caoko]

K.

Caoko.....-_-
I'm not gonna call ya anything, my way is just different. May be bacuse my enitre family does this, may be cause that's the way I am, may be just because my stupid star sign. I don't know.

All I know is that I have eaten something, {My stupid peanut butter wouldn't open so I ate something else} and that I am feeling better.

I just felt like calling myself ****ty names.
And I felt like the bad guy in this... thread, so, there you go.

Righty tighty, lefty loosey.
Yes, eating always helps. Eat. Be merry.

[foxed_spirt]

O_O
-laughs head off-
-duck tapes head back on-

-huggles chu-

[Caoko]

O_O
-laughs head off-
-duck tapes head back on-

-huggles chu-

Eugh, back off or I swear to god, I'll eat you.
I'm starving right now.
(Probably why I'm being *****y.)

Hey, look at that, I just opened my jar of peanut butter.

[foxed_spirt]

-dies-
I Can't open mine....T.T

[Neon]

To tell you the truth I miss the good'old days of EVERYTHING, but people get older, wiser, and do their own thing. You know I'll always be here. Right now, I'm just addicted to Ragnarok Online, and probably for a long time. But if you need someone to talk to I can give you my myspace, msn, or aim.
And I'm sorry how things are turning out.

[Chaos Angel]

To tell you the truth I miss the good'old days of EVERYTHING, but people get older, wiser, and do their own thing. You know I'll always be here. Right now, I'm just addicted to Ragnarok Online, and probably for a long time. But if you need someone to talk to I can give you my myspace, msn, or aim.
And I'm sorry how things are turning out.

Dude... I remember when you suddenly started joining all my roleplays.
XD
I liked it! Ha ha! X3

[foxed_spirt]

I remember when Dani, Neon, Casim and Ryoken would all join the same roleplay at the same time without knowing it....-_-