<3panic!atthedisco
11-10-2006, 10:37 PM
October 10th 2006
I toss and turn in my sleep, Screaming for help, but no one hears.
I sink deeper and deeper in my depression, putting up my walls to make, my friends think I'm happy.
I fall to the ground while fingers entwine themselves in my hair, yanking me back, hurting me.
I try to get up but I'm thrown back down, verbally beaten, but there is nothing, anyone can do to make me truly happy.
I need help really i do But i've never told anyone I've never looked anyone in the eye when i tell them what i did last night.
I pretend to be happy I try to seem real, even though I feel so fake and long for someone to know the real me. I know no one will ever find the real ME beneath all my depression.
BY CHELSEA AKA PANIC
October 9th 2006
Rip my heart out i know you want to
I have sat here many times watching you tell them you loved them
You told me that to and like a fool i believed you
Then you thrust me away when someone hotter come along
I dont know what you are aiming for
Maybe to see how many girls hearts you can collect?
I thought you were perfect but i geuss i was wrong
I cry into my pillow everynight thinking of how you had looked at me
and now you look at her that way
should i warn her of whats to come?
Or will she push my warnings aside thinking i want you back?
Anyone who knows me knows that isnt true
I feel cold and alone
And its your fault i am this way
BY CHELSEA AKA PANIC
11-4-06
Trees bend in the wind
Lightning flashes
Thunder booms oh so loud
I cuddle underneath my blankets
Staying very very warm
Thinking about you
I wonder if your crying
I wonder if your missing me
I wipe away my own tears
Wishing you were here to do it for me.
I wish you'd never moved away
That you'd come back to me
I know it'll never happen
I can still dream right?
BY CHELSEA AKA PANIC
10-10-06
I'm so broken and confused
So lonely and cold
I watch as all the happy people
pass righton by.
I look at them
Sorrow in my eyes
Not one looks down
For they do not care
Tears have worn a path
On my sorrow filled face
Why can no one hear my cries
As I thrash at things
No one but I can see?
Nightmares flood my dreams
Of past regrets, and evil yet to come
I crawl away and hide
To a place no one will fine me.
I will be safe here
Where no one can hurt me....
BY CHELSEA AKA PANIC
5-16-06
ALL FOR YOU
Sometimes I just need to get away
Leave everything behind
Your hurtful words
Your burning eyes
Your hatred for me
Running high.
You compare me to
Anything that has gone bad
Just because of a
Mistake that happened
Over a year ago.
I cry myself to sleep
Everynight this happens
Wishing on the only star
That I'd never wake up
And you'd once again be happy
This is all for you
Ya know?
BY CHELSEA AKA PANIC
5-14-06
YOUR NOT SO PERFECT
Your perfect
In many ways
You just dont know
I wish I could show you
Everything you've done for me
You've given me
Someone to believe
A shoulder to lean on
My world revovles
Around you.
But now your gone
Left me for her
I can barely contain my hurt
That's why I'm sitting here
Writing this poem
My dads cherished gun sitting
On my pillow.
Ready for me
To pull the trigger.
All of this
Is your fault
How can you live with yourself now
Knowing you caused and ended
My pain?
BY CHELSEA AKA PANIC
Ok there ya go there are SOME of my poems I have 57 left lol. These are all written this year in fact i will go put the dates on them now....ok there we go. Anyway if you are going to write these down please tell me, i dont like people stealing my work. It upsets me, i dont even know if these are good. lol but yeah leave some comments...........
Panic
I toss and turn in my sleep, Screaming for help, but no one hears.
I sink deeper and deeper in my depression, putting up my walls to make, my friends think I'm happy.
I fall to the ground while fingers entwine themselves in my hair, yanking me back, hurting me.
I try to get up but I'm thrown back down, verbally beaten, but there is nothing, anyone can do to make me truly happy.
I need help really i do But i've never told anyone I've never looked anyone in the eye when i tell them what i did last night.
I pretend to be happy I try to seem real, even though I feel so fake and long for someone to know the real me. I know no one will ever find the real ME beneath all my depression.
BY CHELSEA AKA PANIC
October 9th 2006
Rip my heart out i know you want to
I have sat here many times watching you tell them you loved them
You told me that to and like a fool i believed you
Then you thrust me away when someone hotter come along
I dont know what you are aiming for
Maybe to see how many girls hearts you can collect?
I thought you were perfect but i geuss i was wrong
I cry into my pillow everynight thinking of how you had looked at me
and now you look at her that way
should i warn her of whats to come?
Or will she push my warnings aside thinking i want you back?
Anyone who knows me knows that isnt true
I feel cold and alone
And its your fault i am this way
BY CHELSEA AKA PANIC
11-4-06
Trees bend in the wind
Lightning flashes
Thunder booms oh so loud
I cuddle underneath my blankets
Staying very very warm
Thinking about you
I wonder if your crying
I wonder if your missing me
I wipe away my own tears
Wishing you were here to do it for me.
I wish you'd never moved away
That you'd come back to me
I know it'll never happen
I can still dream right?
BY CHELSEA AKA PANIC
10-10-06
I'm so broken and confused
So lonely and cold
I watch as all the happy people
pass righton by.
I look at them
Sorrow in my eyes
Not one looks down
For they do not care
Tears have worn a path
On my sorrow filled face
Why can no one hear my cries
As I thrash at things
No one but I can see?
Nightmares flood my dreams
Of past regrets, and evil yet to come
I crawl away and hide
To a place no one will fine me.
I will be safe here
Where no one can hurt me....
BY CHELSEA AKA PANIC
5-16-06
ALL FOR YOU
Sometimes I just need to get away
Leave everything behind
Your hurtful words
Your burning eyes
Your hatred for me
Running high.
You compare me to
Anything that has gone bad
Just because of a
Mistake that happened
Over a year ago.
I cry myself to sleep
Everynight this happens
Wishing on the only star
That I'd never wake up
And you'd once again be happy
This is all for you
Ya know?
BY CHELSEA AKA PANIC
5-14-06
YOUR NOT SO PERFECT
Your perfect
In many ways
You just dont know
I wish I could show you
Everything you've done for me
You've given me
Someone to believe
A shoulder to lean on
My world revovles
Around you.
But now your gone
Left me for her
I can barely contain my hurt
That's why I'm sitting here
Writing this poem
My dads cherished gun sitting
On my pillow.
Ready for me
To pull the trigger.
All of this
Is your fault
How can you live with yourself now
Knowing you caused and ended
My pain?
BY CHELSEA AKA PANIC
Ok there ya go there are SOME of my poems I have 57 left lol. These are all written this year in fact i will go put the dates on them now....ok there we go. Anyway if you are going to write these down please tell me, i dont like people stealing my work. It upsets me, i dont even know if these are good. lol but yeah leave some comments...........
Panic