please help :(

[shadownthecorner]

ok i just found out that my grandfathers best freind just died (10pm yesterday)and as usual i feel guilty because i never really knew him. im trying not to cry because im in the living room and i dont want to cry in front of my mom(she never just lets me cry(she never helps) ) it seems like when a close person in the family dies i always see their ghost so i hope that i see him so i can talk to him unlike my uncle(that come later). i think i should just run away from home because as soon as i was born the family has had problems. now i finally understand why my grandmother always had something bad to say about me. i want to run away but i know somehow me being gone will only make things worse(probobly barey).i always tought that my life was so bad because i wasnt balanced or my grudges but this is messed up. why does this happen to me.if you think you know the answer please reply...now :( :( :( :(

[imhungry101]

dont run away, how close was this best friend of your grandparents??

[~HowToSaveALife~]

Aww don't run away, I would talk to a friend or your mother, or another family member

[millions knives666]

ok i just found out that my grandfathers best freind just died (10pm yesterday)and as usual i feel guilty because i never really knew him. im trying not to cry because im in the living room and i dont want to cry in front of my mom(she never just lets me cry(she never helps) ) it seems like when a close person in the family dies i always see their ghost so i hope that i see him so i can talk to him unlike my uncle(that come later). i think i should just run away from home because as soon as i was born the family has had problems. now i finally understand why my grandmother always had something bad to say about me. i want to run away but i know somehow me being gone will only make things worse(probobly barey).i always tought that my life was so bad because i wasnt balanced or my grudges but this is messed up. why does this happen to me.if you think you know the answer please reply...now :( :( :( :(

don't run away and don't blame yourself, i know you'll pull through.
feel free to pm me if u wish to discuss this further, i added u to my buddy list.

[Cliche of the day]

Aw no hun...dont run away....I have the same gift..its hard...but maybe you can talk to your grandfather about it?

[shadownthecorner]

Aw no hun...dont run away....I have the same gift..its hard...but maybe you can talk to your grandfather about it?
thanks millions knives666 and everyone else but im kinda fine now thanks though even though i didnt talk to most of you you still help