life and death ...lets talk

[emochickisme15]

life ..wats the point ... jus to die and hate life while we live it ... that cant be all... suicide is so common... i see why... just end the pain of the world quicker...right??

[Doghund]

I'm afraid your going to have to elaborate. Maybe start with your story to get the ball rolling...

[emochickisme15]

well ya see i was abused and my world came crashing to the ground.. eveything i once knew to be pure was full of shame and filth.. i cant live in a worlld that is as creul as mine has been.....*sighs*

[~HowToSaveALife~]

Aww i'm so sorry to hear that you were abused :( That's something that no one sould have to go through :( Try talking to someone. But Don't kill yourself, do good in school and become a successful person who can help others who have been hurt like you. If you need to talk I'm here.
And no I'm very happy with my life :) I wouldn't ever commit suicide.

[emochickisme15]

yea um well i want to be a shrink so..yea i guess that goes wit wat ur saying but w.e

[~HowToSaveALife~]

yea um well i want to be a shrink so..yea i guess that goes wit wat ur saying but w.e
Well that's good. Do you want to specialize in childrens? adults? Or in general?

[emochickisme15]

not really sure yet...thinking bout truma cases w/ adolesence(spelt wrong) but idk

[Doghund]

Well thats a situation where you kill everyone and start over. ........
What I mean is that thats not your fault. You can't help what other people do, and you can't blame yourself. A good shrink and some close friend(s) will do alot to help.
For me, I did it all. I'm a self loather by noone elses fault. I like my personality, its my body, and not just cuz I'm fat! >:[ I could change that if I worked at it. You see, (since were getting all deep and personal) I'm a, well, to put it simply, in my head I'm a guy. It just feels like God made a big boo boo and put me in the wrong body. I like men, I just want to love one as another man.
Its just made things hard cuz that just not something you tell the world (in person), and problems spurring from it have made me consider suicide many times. I'm just too big of a chicken**** to acttuallt try it....
Talking about it over the net, amazingly, has helped. It helps you see that you truly arn't alone with your problem. You should try looking up online support groups. It could really help you.

[~HowToSaveALife~]

not really sure yet...thinking bout truma cases w/ adolesence(spelt wrong) but idk
Wow that sounds like it's going to be an interesting job. :) I've thought about going in like child phsycology

[emochickisme15]

nice...why?

[~HowToSaveALife~]

nice...why?
huh?? Are you talking about my post?

[emochickisme15]

huh?? Are you talking about my post?
yea.... wat else would i be talking bout????

[~HowToSaveALife~]

yea.... wat else would i be talking bout????
Wel the other guy posted. And nice what?

[emochickisme15]

Well thats a situation where you kill everyone and start over. ........
What I mean is that thats not your fault. You can't help what other people do, and you can't blame yourself. A good shrink and some close friend(s) will do alot to help.
For me, I did it all. I'm a self loather by noone elses fault. I like my personality, its my body, and not just cuz I'm fat! >:[ I could change that if I worked at it. You see, (since were getting all deep and personal) I'm a, well, to put it simply, in my head I'm a guy. It just feels like God made a big boo boo and put me in the wrong body. I like men, I just want to love one as another man.
Its just made things hard cuz that just not something you tell the world (in person), and problems spurring from it have made me consider suicide many times. I'm just too big of a chicken**** to acttuallt try it....
Talking about it over the net, amazingly, has helped. It helps you see that you truly arn't alone with your problem. You should try looking up online support groups. It could really help you. thanx for the advice and im really sry that ur in a case where you cant show people who you really are i ve been in situations where i have to hide who i really am and it sucks...but yea sry

[emochickisme15]

Wel the other guy posted. And nice what?
sry didnt see his post... nice that you want to be a shrink why did you desiced (spelt wrong) that?

[~HowToSaveALife~]

sry didnt see his post... nice that you want to be a shrink why did you desiced (spelt wrong) that?
Oh I see lol, boy i'm so easily confused. And yeah i'd like to be one but I think it might get a bit boring. and plus I want to become a radiologist :)

[emochickisme15]

Oh I see lol, boy i'm so easily confused. And yeah i'd like to be one but I think it might get a bit boring. and plus I want to become a radiologist :)god i feel dumb but wat is a radiologist???

[DarkStorm]

xrays, by the way if you feel that way about life, talk to me, im a philosopher.

[emochickisme15]

xrays, by the way if you feel that way about life, talk to me, im a philosopher.
well... i would if i had something to say.... but i dont so....yea

[Cliche of the day]

life ..wats the point ... jus to die and hate life while we live it ... that cant be all... suicide is so common... i see why... just end the pain of the world quicker...right??
yes.......i have tried a few times to end it.....im trying to stop carving though....eeks

[emochickisme15]

yes.......i have tried a few times to end it.....im trying to stop carving though....eeks
its a hard craving to stop though good luck

[DarkStorm]

you must join me, all of you pm me and i will show you the way.

[Cliche of the day]

eeks....yea....i stopped for a while then the boy that i loved turned into a differnt person entirelly,.........soooo yea

[Cliche of the day]

you must join me, all of you pm me and i will show you the way.
ummmmmmmmmm?

[DarkStorm]

just pm me, i can show you.

[emochickisme15]

you must join me, all of you pm me and i will show you the way.
i hope you mean IM and i dont have im so oh well

[Doghund]

thanx for the advice and im really sry that ur in a case where you cant show people who you really are i ve been in situations where i have to hide who i really am and it sucks...but yea sry
Thanks. It helps that I have no boobs and a semi deep voice ^-^;
Your problem is much greater though, please try to take care of yourself.

[DarkStorm]

no private message me. I can show you the way out of this place you call earth.

[emochickisme15]

eeks....yea....i stopped for a while then the boy that i loved turned into a differnt person entirelly,.........soooo yea
oh thats harsh kinda the same **** happened to me

[Cliche of the day]

just pm me, i can show you.
Show me what?

[emochickisme15]

Thanks. It helps that I have no boobs and a semi deep voice ^-^;
Your problem is much greater though, please try to take care of yourself.
thanx you seem like a really great person... im sure it will all work out 4 u

[DarkStorm]

I am a guy if you believe i am.
I am anything you want me to be and much, oh so much more.
Thus is the way of the Nihilist.

[emochickisme15]

no private message me. I can show you the way out of this place you call earth.
i ve already left.....

[Cliche of the day]

oh thats harsh kinda the same **** happened to me
Yup....i have serious trust issues *cliche comes from a messed up family* yea/....there is alottt of **** that happend this summer.......it was bad...

[emochickisme15]

Yup....i have serious trust issues *cliche comes from a messed up family* yea/....there is alottt of **** that happend this summer.......it was bad...
im sry if you need to talk im here

[DarkStorm]

I can show you things beyond your wildest dreams.
((And before any of you answer i know some of you have got pretty wild dreams.))

[Cliche of the day]

im sry if you need to talk im here
thanxa........

[Cliche of the day]

I can show you things beyond your wildest dreams.
((And before any of you answer i know some of you have got pretty wild dreams.))
What the hell r u talking 'bout?

[DarkStorm]

How old are you?
Dont get agressive... there is no such thing as agression.
There is no such thing as pain.
There is no such thing as love.

[Cliche of the day]

How old are you?
Dont get agressive... there is no such thing as agression.
There is no such thing as pain.
There is no such thing as love.
14 and i dont need you telling me that **** k ........bye

[DarkStorm]

you left before you were even born, how inferior...

[Cliche of the day]

you left before you were even born, how inferior...
EXUSE ME?!

[DarkStorm]

Ok i see that got you back lol
Well you should look our clan up
we are the Nihilist

[emochickisme15]

EXUSE ME?!
jus ignore him

[Cliche of the day]

jus ignore him
I plan too........phyco...jeez what the hell is his problem?

[emochickisme15]

I plan too........phyco...jeez what the hell is his problem?
dont know dont care

[DarkStorm]

no im afraid im not trying to be rude, this is what the nihilist believes in if you can understand it.
Eternal Nothingness.

[emochickisme15]

I plan too........phyco...jeez what the hell is his problem?
i gtg bye bye

[Cliche of the day]

i gtg bye bye
kk bai message me.

[DarkStorm]

im sorry if insulted you honestly.
i was merely trying to get a point across.
do people ignore you?
they ignore everyone, now takethat possibility and wonder, what if they cant actually here me?

[~HowToSaveALife~]

god i feel dumb but wat is a radiologist???
lol, they are the doctors that read the X-rays to see if you have a fracture, break hairline fracture, tumor, and other possible problems. And don't feel stupid, not a lot of people know, believe me i've been asked about 1,000 times. :) And it's always ok to ask.

[unloved_forever]

i voted on the poll....