Suicide

[Crave]

WHo has ever thought about killing themselves..or thinks about it?

[Sweetie2393]

Do you Crave?

[Crave]

Do you Crave?
sometimes...

[Sweetie2393]

I dont think about suicide, i think about cutting but i never go through with it.

[Crave]

I dont think about suicide, i think about cutting but i never go through with it.
Oh, today I ound out that an ex friend of mine killed himself because of me..

[GREEN_DAYforever]

Wow. A few of my friends on here wanted to kill themselfs.

[Sweetie2393]

Oh, today I ound out that an ex friend of mine killed himself because of me..
Oh wow..*Hugs* if you dont mind me asking i want to know why?

[Crave]

Oh wow..*Hugs* if you dont mind me asking i want to know why?
Um he got my girlfriend pregnant..and I told him some mean things and I did some mean things.

[GREEN_DAYforever]

I'm just gonna leave.*slowly walks away*

[Sweetie2393]

Wow....did he come talk to you about it or did he just make the desion to die?

[Crave]

Wow....did he come talk to you about it or did he just make the desion to die?
He told me he would kill himself..and..I told him...

[Sweetie2393]

Oh.....none of my friends have done anything, only one of them used to cut.

[wiccagwen]

WHo has ever thought about killing themselves..or thinks about it?
tried it 3 times

[Crave]

Oh.....none of my friends have done anything, only one of them used to cut.
oh...........

[Sweetie2393]

Yeah.......

[Crave]

Yeah.......
Well life sucks and I cant wait till its over...

[Sweetie2393]

Yeah...my mom thinks im going to commit suicide thats why i have to go to the councerler at my school......

[Crave]

Yeah...my mom thinks im going to commit suicide thats why i have to go to the councerler at my school......
oh...but you wont right?

[Sweetie2393]

no...i cant even cut myself..you wont either right?

[Crave]

no...i cant even cut myself..you wont either right?
I dont even know..

[Sweetie2393]

Oh....i hope you dont though, cause i dont want to loose another friend.

[Crave]

Oh....i hope you dont though, cause i dont want to loose another friend.
That actually made me smile

[Sweetie2393]

Good......

[Crave]

Good......
Yea...good.

[Sweetie2393]

So..whats up besides all the bad stuf thats happened?

[Crave]

So..whats up besides all the bad stuf thats happened?
Nothing trying to listen to music

[Sweetie2393]

Oh am i bugging you, or is it something at home?

[Crave]

Oh am i bugging you, or is it something at home?
No its not u its that my friend lucinda keeps poking me.

[Sweetie2393]

Oh lol....yeah i have like four nine year olds running around my house....

[Crave]

Oh lol....yeah i have like four nine year olds running around my house....
lol im staying at her house cause my stepfather kicked me out...

[Sweetie2393]

Oh...wow your having a bad um..idk year maybe..

[Pink Angel]

WHo has ever thought about killing themselves..or thinks about it?
I did once or twice but that was it

[Crave]

Oh...wow your having a bad um..idk year maybe..
No just a bad life..

[Sweetie2393]

Oh, i wish i could make you feel better but i cant think of anything that would help.

[Crave]

Oh, i wish i could make you feel better but i cant think of anything that would help.
That helped...

[Sweetie2393]

oh, thats good then lol....oh i will brb i have to go eat.

[Crave]

oh, thats good then lol....oh i will brb i have to go eat.
alrite.....

[Sweetie2393]

Im back...its so boring and loud at my house right now.

[Crave]

Im back...its so boring and loud at my house right now.
oh loudness

[Sweetie2393]

yeah, im upstairs and i can hear my sister and her friend.

[Crave]

yeah, im upstairs and i can hear my sister and her friend.
Wow they must be really loud

[Sweetie2393]

yeah.......

[Crave]

yeah.......
I hate my life!!!

[Sweetie2393]

I know you do. And im sorry that you do.

[Crave]

I know you do. And im sorry that you do.
Its alrite..
Lets be happy lets all smile:D

[Sweetie2393]

lol, im not a smiling person.

[Crave]

lol, im not a smiling person.
oh ok then lets all.....I got nuthin

[Sweetie2393]

But ill smile i guess since you got nothing else :D

[Tracia]

Most of people here has had at least the thought, but most of them will never even accept it. I had that feeling back in junior high, but I never tried. What I used to do was cutting my arms and then hide the wounds under a tight watch to make them hurt. Later on highschool, life took away two friends and tore my family emotionally apart, I was so broken I didn't even want to die anymore, just kill somebody.
Life has gotten better now, but I don't really feel so much alive. I guess I did died at some point.

Neverhtless, Crave. Don't hate your life so much, just enough to fight and find a way to get the hell out of it. Which is exactly what I'm doing.

Don't get depressed for the actions of others, I have learned that influence is nothing, our words only put ink on their carved decitions. If your friend killed himself it wasn't because of what you did or said, it was because he was feeling too damn guilty about the wrong thing he did. Forgive him and forgive yourself, cos you're still here and that's gonna be the only thing you can actually do about it. If you could ask him if he'd do it again, he'd probably say no.

BTW, I was surprised by your signature. I like it. What else is there to say about love?

[Sweetie2393]

brb i have to walk my brother to his friends house.....

[Crave]

But ill smile i guess since you got nothing else :D
Yay!!!!!!!!!!

[Sweetie2393]

Lol...oh im back, it freezing outside.

[Crave]

Lol...oh im back, it freezing outside.
Yea?Im nside and lucinda keeps on poking me!!!

[Sweetie2393]

Lol sry...oh i g2g for a bit i have to watch a movie or ill get grounded, my mom is weird......so ill brb

[Crave]

Lol sry...oh i g2g for a bit i have to watch a movie or ill get grounded, my mom is weird......so ill brb
lol interesting

[Sweetie2393]

yeah...she now said i can stay...*sighs* i hate it here.

[Armitage]

i have thought about it

[dragoneye]

Who hasn't thought of suicide. I have thought about for years. For some people it's healthy to think about and for others it isn't.

[Armitage]

i thought about both killind myself with a gun and knife

[Sweetie2393]

Thoses would hurt...i would take medicine...or something like that...idk i havent givin it much thought.

[CuteWhenYouScream]

I've attempted it numerous times.

I've tried various forms of self strangulation/hanging.
There was also the pills.


I'm over that now....I think. I consider it healthy for me, but many people freak out. I'm not the most significant person in my circle of friends, so I don't see why they should.

[emochickisme15]

I've attempted it numerous times.

I've tried various forms of self strangulation/hanging.
There was also the pills.


I'm over that now....I think. I consider it healthy for me, but many people freak out. I'm not the most significant person in my circle of friends, so I don't see why they should.
ive tried too... pills, cutting... its would be worth it if i died but i can never get that far

[DarkStorm]

yeah but then again none of this exists.

[Sweetie2393]

None of what exists?

[CuteWhenYouScream]

reality.


how do we know this is all real?

is it all a dream?

are we some lab experiment?

is our whole existance futile because our reality has been replaced?

[DarkStorm]

no i can show you the way,butyou will have to PM me.

[Sweetie2393]

oh......show they way to what?

[DarkStorm]

I can show you the truth.

[CuteWhenYouScream]

does the truth involve cult matters?

[unloved_forever]

WHo has ever thought about killing themselves..or thinks about it?
I do............

[emochickisme15]

I do............
all the time!

[unloved_forever]

all the time!
yeah, most of the time.
Have you ever actually tried to kill your self?

[Crave]

yeah, most of the time.
Have you ever actually tried to kill your self?
I've tried twice..

[unloved_forever]

I've tried twice..
I've tried, but then after I'm sometimes happy that I couldn't do it, but then later I get really depressed that I'm still alive.

[emochickisme15]

I dont think about suicide, i think about cutting but i never go through with it.
cutting really helps but i dont recomend it cuz its addicting..

[Crave]

I've tried, but then after I'm sometimes happy that I couldn't do it, but then later I get really depressed that I'm still alive.
Oh..but hell if your alive then you get to eat ice cream!!
@.@

[unloved_forever]

cutting really helps but i dont recomend it cuz its addicting..
really addicting!!!

[emochickisme15]

really addicting!!!
yea ive been doing it for about a year now

[unloved_forever]

yea ive been doing it for about a year now
I haven't for that long.
If you don't mind me asking, what made you want to start cutting in the first place?

[emochickisme15]

I haven't for that long.
If you don't mind me asking, what made you want to start cutting in the first place?
my step dad sexually abused me....*sighs*

[Sweetie2393]

wow.....im sorry *hugs*....i tried cutting but i can never seem to do it.

[emochickisme15]

wow.....im sorry *hugs*....i tried cutting but i can never seem to do it.
im not trying to kill myself (i mean ive done that too) im jus letting my frustration out

[unloved_forever]

my step dad sexually abused me....*sighs*
aww, poor you.

[emochickisme15]

aww, poor you.
thanx but im not looking for a pitty party but yea thanx

[unloved_forever]

wow.....im sorry *hugs*....i tried cutting but i can never seem to do it.
Theres no 'proper' way of doing it. But if it does to you, what you want it to do. Then it works. You don't have to be like violently bleeding everywhere.

[Sweetie2393]

Yeah i know what you mean...my mom makes me go to the school councerler so that i dont..

[Crave]

my step dad sexually abused me....*sighs*
oh...my stepfather tried to kill me once..

[emochickisme15]

Theres no 'proper' way of doing it. But if it does to you, what you want it to do. Then it works. You don't have to be like violently bleeding everywhere.
i think that for each individual there is a way or "look" that makes it most satisfying 4 you .... if you cut you jus have to find out wat that way is...

[emochickisme15]

oh...my stepfather tried to kill me once..
i tried to kill my step dad once lol

[unloved_forever]

i think that for each individual there is a way or "look" that makes it most satisfying 4 you .... if you cut you jus have to find out wat that way is...
yeah, thats what I ment, it just came out wrong when I said it.

[emochickisme15]

yeah, thats what I ment, it just came out wrong when I said it.
i know wat u meant i was jus agreeing and adding on:p

[Crave]

i tried to kill my step dad once lol
lol he stabbed me in the chest and I smacked him with an iron..

[emochickisme15]

lol he stabbed me in the chest and I smacked him with an iron..
w/ an iron!!!!???? were you ironing or do you always carry one around?? lol but thats sucky... is he still married to your mom??

[unloved_forever]

i know wat u meant i was jus agreeing and adding on:p
Oh okay :)

[vinilar]

ive never tryed to kill myself because i dont have anything to make me kill myself but then again im 11

[emochickisme15]

Oh okay :)
in your sig. the slit you throat thing... i used that on a guy who broke my heart once .. it was pretty amazing

[unloved_forever]

ive never tryed to kill myself because i dont have anything to make me kill myself but then again im 11
Well I guess you're lucky then, but it might change when your older. I don't mean you'll kill yourself, but I never felt how I do now when I was 11.

[unloved_forever]

in your sig. the slit you throat thing... i used that on a guy who broke my heart once .. it was pretty amazing
Oh wow! That sounds pretty amazing!

[Crave]

w/ an iron!!!!???? were you ironing or do you always carry one around?? lol but thats sucky... is he still married to your mom??
Yea I was ironing. Lol yea he kicked me out the other day so im staying at my friend's house right now.

[emochickisme15]

Yea I was ironing. Lol yea he kicked me out the other day so im staying at my friend's house right now.
thats harsh at least you have afriend that will let you do that

[emochickisme15]

Oh wow! That sounds pretty amazing!
it was he felt like such a dick head!!!!

[Crave]

thats harsh at least you have afriend that will let you do that
Yea I know she just keeps poking me!

[unloved_forever]

it was he felt like such a dick head!!!!
lol. I wish I could have been there even though it was probably impossible for me to have been wherever you were.

[emochickisme15]

Yea I know she just keeps poking me!
um ok.... do you guys live in the us??? im not being creepy...lol.. jus wondering...lol

[emochickisme15]

lol. I wish I could have been there even though it was probably impossible for me to have been wherever you were.
yea the USA isnt quite walking distance from england...lol

[Crave]

um ok.... do you guys live in the us??? im not being creepy...lol.. jus wondering...lol
Yea we live in new york

[unloved_forever]

yea the USA isnt quite walking distance from england...lol
Wish it was :( It's a 9 hour flight from where I live in the UK to Florida.

[emochickisme15]

Yea we live in new york
nice but the red sox are better than the yankees (sp)

[emochickisme15]

Wish it was :( It's a 9 hour flight from where I live in the UK to Florida.
i wouldnt be able to sit still that long!!!

[Crave]

nice but the red sox are better than the yankees (sp)
The red sox suck i hate'em

[emochickisme15]

The red sox suck i hate'em
thats ok i dont really like them either .... i hate sports all toghether

[Crave]

thats ok i dont really like them either .... i hate sports all toghether
ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo:eek:

[emochickisme15]

ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo:eek:
well i gtg ttyl? bye

[unloved_forever]

i wouldnt be able to sit still that long!!!
It's really annoying! believe me!!

[Crave]

well i gtg ttyl? bye
ok bye bye

[unloved_forever]

well i gtg ttyl? bye
bye-bye ttyl!

[Crave]

bye-bye ttyl!
Nice siggy unloved.

[unloved_forever]

Nice siggy unloved.
Thanks :)
Yours is cool.

[Crave]

Thanks :)
Yours is cool.
Thanks.
Im a guy so does that make it weird that i like the message of my sigg?

[unloved_forever]

Thanks.
Im a guy so does that make it weird that i like the message of my sigg?
not at all!
sorry, I have to go now, bye-bye. <3

[Sweetie2393]

I dont think its weird....

[Crave]

:D I dont think its weird....
Oh ok.

[Crave]

not at all!
sorry, I have to go now, bye-bye. <3
oK bye bye

[ViNNiEsLiLBaBy]

Maybe a couple times!!! But I think everyone does, at least once!

[unloved_forever]

Maybe a couple times!!! But I think everyone does, at least once!
Not everyone but some people do alot more than others.

[Cliche of the day]

I have thought/Think/Tried

[DarkStorm]

You have no idea how worried i am for you

[veeanime]

A few times, but I never went through with it...too many reasons not to.

[LovableLovebug]

dont kill yourself dude

[sweetlyoblivious]

i think about suicide more then i breathe

[DarkStorm]

aww cmon im feeling like commiting it now...please i got out of it but your going to send me back to cutting again!

[sweetlyoblivious]

who me?? if i its me then im sorry wasnt tryin to send n e one back but like if you stopped then why read about other peoples issues?

[DarkStorm]

yeah but every time i do it its got to have some strange sexual ending, no idea why though.

[sweetlyoblivious]

b.c sex is amazing! n e thing sexual is amazing!!!! unless its the bad kind that ive been threw all to many times which leads up to part of the reason why im the way i am

[DarkStorm]

im a guy anyway im 16 and a goth.... never had it pm me if youve any questions about errmmm well anything?

[unloved_forever]

what are you guys talking bout?