Akuroku- Regret? No. Regret? Yes. (First come first serve)

[Kiitame]

{} ((Position FILLED. Thankyou c: ))
Here is the deal-

You.
Me.
Akuroku.
I'm Roxas.
You get to be Axel.
Post here real quick with a head up or pm me if you are joining.
Literacy.
Adjectives.
Correct Grammar/Punctuation.
Smiles.
Hugs.
At LEAST a paragraph a post... or else.
My ideals of a paragraph are 5-6 complete sentences.
I post first as Roxas, you jump yourself in.
Time frame is after Roxas leaves, and just as he comes back.
Axel said he loved him before, Roxas loved him too, Roxas forgot, is creeped the hell out by Axel, and Axel has been seeing Marluxia, Demyx, Xigbar, Zexion, and Larxene.
In other words- Axel was being a SLUT.
Did I mention Roxas keeps remembering small things?
Affairs.
Deceit.
Lies.
Love.
Pain.
And most of all...

Regret.


GOGOGOGO {}


Roxas fixed his hood. A room like a prison. He stared up, un-shaken by the eerily white room. His colored bedding and clothes slewn around, all black coats and outfits, made blotches like ink on the starch room. Surrounded with marble, everything etched. The flowers. The bottom of the bed. The table. You couldn't move anything- Only the dresser drawers. Roxas sat with almost perfect posture on his circular bed. At least they said it was his bed. He did not remember. He had been kidnapped by Axel.. Claiming to be an ally... a friend? No. No. Not any. They just wanted to use him.. His key.

Roxas had been sitting there hours now, the door locked from the outside. Occasionally there were footsteps... footsteps escalated into whispers which turned into talking, which soon became disfigured yells and shouts, speaking about "love" and "betrayal". From the speakers contexts, they were being betrayed by someone. Whoever was at the door at the moment, whoever was waiting for Roxas to step out and show himself. It struck Roxas as angering the upset and sad and angry voices thought THEY were betrayed, and they didn't fight for him. No one protected Roxas. It felt to Roxas that they didn't even want him back.


'Why did they bring me here, then?' Roxas asked himself, his spine straight with his head haunched over, staring at his lap, hands folded. 'I don't remember their names... If I even did really meet them...' Roxas felt quiet, almost cold. 'Quiet and Cold...' he wanted to lay down, rest his head, even move. He was un-sure what would happen, what would go on. He was scared something would happen if he slept- even for a moment. 'If they wanted me back, then they would have been in here, welcoming me. Unless they lied.' Roxas breathed, his eyes welling with tears. ' And they don't want me....' Roxas tried not to make a single sound, not one. Tears streamed down his face- staining his cheeks.

' I want to go home.' he thought, his hands shaking. ' I want to see Pence and Hayner and Olette and even Seifer and Rai.. Fuu... ViVi...' Roxas wiped his tears, the first time he had willingly moved in an hour. His mind raced, and as if to yell at it all to stop, he held his breath and wanted to scream. He pushed his head in a pillow, and did so. He screamed and screamed, a soft soft echo billowing his ears. ' Hopefully no one heard that.... ' he thought. To his horror, the door clicked, the knob slowly but surely turning. ' Oh no..... ' Roxas thought, quickly wiping his tears and shakily sitting up, acting as if he had been like this the entire time.



To Roxas's horror, it was Axel.

[Kiitame]

{} Anyone!?!?!? Come ON- No one can resist AkuRoku!! {}

[NozomiandOni]

((I'll join. Let me read it first))

[Kiitame]

{} ^^ Okay~ Very glad someone decided to join. {}

[NozomiandOni]

"Hey," Axel walked in. He carried his normal cool manner, "They want you upstiars. But it's so secretive that the big guy doesn't want anyone to know except for you and him," Axel leaned on the wall in a lazy fashon, "Well, what are you waiting for? C'mon Roxas; just like old times," his voice was slightly warmer at that last tid bit about old times. Perhpas something went down between the two; who knows for sure.

((I'm going to bed though. Sorry!))

[Kiitame]

Roxas didn't look up. He clinched his teeth, and wanted to yell. "I'll go." he said, moving his head away from Axel. "But there were no old times. None of them." he stood up very silently, his hood shading his face like a shadow. "If I don't remember, they don't exist." he walked quickly away from him. Roxas didn't know these people, he didn't know why they knew him. ' Hes just calling me up because its a mix-up and he wants to apologize.' Roxas falsely re-assured himself. He knew that it wasn't a mistake- these people seemed to know more about him then he did. He was greeted with quiet, cold stares from a feminine looking male who was leaning near the door, a distinct sneer. Roxas walked a little ways till the figure left, then quickly headed back to the room. "Which way is it?" he asked, very embarrassed.

[NozomiandOni]

"Once you leave the room, you make a right turn," Axel explained, "Then you go up the stairs and the first door you see will be his," Axel then pointed to his head, "Got it memorized?" A typical line.

[Kiitame]

Roxas sneered, not saying a 'thank you' or even a 'whatever'. He decided not to acknowledge anyone in the castle. However, as soon as Roxas heard 'Got it memorized', her turned back around, and something clicked in his head. "You..." he said, unsure. "You used to say that all the time, and Larxene would make fun of you.." he breathed in, very confused. "Who is Larxene?" for some reason, something told Roxas that this was true- but he was dazed as to what. He stood there for a moment, almost mannequin like.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel walked up and poked Roxas' forehead. "You remember her, huh? No supurize there," Axel raised an eyebrow, "You better head to bossman before he gets impatient."

[Kiitame]

Roxas shook his head. "No, I don't- Thats my problem... I just know her name and that she used to make fun of you for saying that!!" he stammered, swatting Axel's hand away from him. "Whatever." with that, Roxas turned around, a frown on his face and he began to walk towards the door. 'I ought to be nicer to him, but everyone here is just... creepy.' thought Roxas, opening up the door with a gulp. All Roxas could see were chairs, and one was lower to the ground than others. "Sit." said a voice, deep and calm sounding. The entire meeting was The Superior explaining who Roxas was. He thought it was all phony, and heard nothing about his real friends. He was insanely confused, but everything he was told sounded true, and they felt true to Roxas- even though he didn't accept it.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel tossed a tenniss ball in the air. He wasn't too sure where it camefrom. But, he tossed it none the less. He'd wait for someone to give him something to do before doing it.

[Kiitame]

When the meeting ended, Roxas was extremely distraught. He learned Pence and Hayner and Olette weren't really his friends and that he belonged here, and he was a traitor. How could he be a traitor if he didn't remember them? He walked back to his room. He stopped at the door staring at Axel, and began to say something quietly. "Which one is the Graceful Assassin?" he asked, trying to remember a name. "Mar--Marluxi- Marluxia?" he asked, taking off his hood. "And.. I'm sorry... For being a jerk."

[NozomiandOni]

Axel shrugged, "Yeah. And it's ok," Axel cracked his neck, "So, what was that all about?"

[Kiitame]

{} Longer posts, if possible! {}

Roxas sighed. "Well, I am a traitor, I guess... He said something about killing me if I try it again... But I don't remember!" he sat down on his bed, staring in front of himself. "But whatever he said- It just sounded true... Like he wasn't a lair at all and it felt just true... Like a gut feeling." he was a little confused. "Still friends, I guess? Xemnas said that we went on lots of missions together and that we seemed to get along well..." he shrugged and tried to calm down from being so upset.

[NozomiandOni]

((I'll try... Also, you made it sound like this was an AxelxRoxas rp at the start. If that's not the case, I'll redo this poast.))

"Yeah. We were great friends at one point," Not too strong Axel... "Do ya mind if I sit with you?" Axel sat anyway. The things that had been done in this room could be consitered unforgivable by some. But Axel paid no mind to it, "So, what was your other life like? I mean; there was some form of happiness there, right? You obviouslsy miss it. I don't blame you for missing it; it sound like you had a good life there. A purpose. A real heart....." Axel looked at the ceiling. This was beyond Twilight Zone type material to him.

((and also I have to go. I'll be back in a few hours though))

[Kiitame]

{} It is an Axel x Roxas- I was a little wierd about it, sorry for confusion. And if you can't think of anything to put to make it longer, its okay ^^{}

Roxas sighed. "Well... I was always with these three people- Olette, Pence, and Hayner. They were to say the least my favorite people on my world... I miss it more than anything..." he quickly put his hand to his chest, alarmed at what Axel had said. "M- My heart?" he blinked several times, his eyes electric. "Its.. Its not beating... Why- Whats wrong with it?" he looked around quickly, then at Axel. "What happened? Am I dead?"

{} Okay~ {}

[NozomiandOni]

"You're a Nobody. We are the shells of the Heartless. You know this better than anyone else," Axel wanted to run his fingers though Roxas' bangs so badly, "You know what Orginization XIII is? We are the XIII most powerfull Nobodies; and you are the 13th most powerfull member. Be proud of yourself."

[Kiitame]

Roxas blushed. "O... Oh... Well, Xemnas explained something like that to me. And so I'm number 13? The last one? The higher up you are the more powerful..? What number are you?" he asked, turning his head towards Axel. He was very curious about this, and he wanted to know more- no matter how much he shunned it. He un-zipped the top of his coat, over-heating.

[NozomiandOni]

"Me?" Axel pointed to himself, "I'm number VIII. Nothing all that facinating really," I missed you Roxas. I was still loyal to you in your time gone. Can't you see that in me? I still truely love you. Do you see that? I don't want you to be hurt. I want you to remember everything we did together....

[Kiitame]

Roxas smiled and nodded, then thought for a moment. "The-" he paused and bit his finger. "The Flurry Of Dancing Flames?" this was one of those things he just remembered, like it was on the tip of his tongue the entire time. "And.. I'm The Key Of Destiny...?" he nodded. "Thats right, isn't it?" he blinked several times and smiled at Axel.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel nodded, "Yes. That is exactly right. You're starting to catch on to what you've lost. That makes me happy."

((Sorry. That's all I have time to do. My mom is yelling at me to go to bed))

[Kiitame]

{} Okay~ Night! ^^ {}

Roxas smiled. "I... I keep remembering little things..." he blushed. "Thats good- right?"

[NozomiandOni]

"Yeah," Axel laid his hand on Roxas' hand, "That's very good. Soon, the peices will all line up and you'll have a past again. Well, you do have a past, but one that has all the peices put together," Axel smiled, Please let him not reject me. Please let him remember the love he had for me that then. "You're just as cute as I remember you to be. That's a plus side Roxas. Do you remeber anything else Roxas?"

[Kiitame]

Roxas smiled a little. "Yeah, like puzzle pieces..." Roxas's face became warm with the touch, and he suddenly felt a little uncomfortable. He slid his hand away a little, still keeping the tips in contact with Axels. He blushed fully, his face the color of Axels hair. Roxas turned his head away from Axel, slightly confused. 'What does he mean by that? Hes talking an awful lot about my past, as if trying to hint something... What was I to Axel...?'

[NozomiandOni]

"Well," Axel stood up, "I'll see you later then Roxas," he smiled and pointed at Roxas and then slid out of the room.
((Um... I'll play Saix, if that's ok with you....))
Saix was almost waiting for Axel to come out, "Your actions are meaningless Axel; you're trying to hard to get your old friend back."
"Say what you want. I'll still try to get him to remember."
"A love you denied?" Saix huffed, "I would almost say you had a heart for him Axel."
Axel broke at his words. He did have a heart, if not a literal one then a metiphorical one, for Roxas. But admiting it could turn the Order against the two, "I do not have a heart for Roxas," He denied.

[Kiitame]

Roxas nodded, watching Axel leave. He smiled a little when he left, finally he was able to be alone with these thoughts. "What was I to him..?" he said to himself, very softly. "What was I to Axel...?" he said this one even softer. All the sudden, Roxas shot up in his bed, an image flashed in his head. It was the two, sitting very close to each other on some kind of roof or something, seeming to be sharing an ice-cream. Roxas didn't quite understand, but it meant something. 'Close friends..?' he thought. 'More than friends...?'

{} Its fine that you play him, don't worry about it! I don't mind when the other characters are played~~ ^^ {}

[NozomiandOni]

"So you say," Saix walked away.
I wish that Roxas could know my feelings for him. He was the one I loved-the one I still love. Oh, Roxas, please. Just know that you are the one for me. Just know it. Please.

[Kiitame]

Roxas was very confused, staring at his feet. 'What am I to Axel...? Am I his friend his...' another imaged flashed, and this one was Roxas sitting near Axel, and Roxas was leaning on his shoulder-- Roxas didn't know what to make of it, so he stood up, pushing the door open, he stood in front of Axel, his voice confused, angry, and scared. "Whats going on!? What AM I TO YOU?" he said, looking at Axel, his gaze fixed. "I keep having flashed images, and I am so confused at what we are...."

[NozomiandOni]

Axel looked both ways and carefully nudged Roxas back into his room, locking the door, "You and I loved eachother," His voice got small, "But we only let those few know. Saix is one of those who believe that as Nobodies, emotions are comepletely obsolete. But some of us think that emoitoins are still there. A sort of sub-group. Like you and me, we can feel love. Xemnas can only feel happiness and anger though. Other than that he's emotionless. That's the case with most Nobodies. What put us apart form other member of Orginization XIII is that we felt more emotion than all other members. But, that's our secret together," He was being truely serious at this point; no 'got it memorized's were needed. But he did feel the want grow in him.

[Kiitame]

Roxas looked very stunned at this, he was new to everything- but now this? He looked at the floor, then straight at Axel again. He rushed toards him, wrapping his arms around him. "I'm sorry for being awful to you.." he said, tears in his eyes. He wasn't exactly sure why he was crying, but he was. In love? First he was told they couldn't feel, then its that he was in love... What had been going on? He didn't know, but he tried his best to love Axel back. "I'm so sorry.." this was sort of muffled but audible from the coat.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel rubbed his back and kissed his hair, "It'll be ok," He assured Roxas, "I still love you. And you've been though a lot today. Perhaps you should go to bed," Axel suggested, "And who knows; you may remember everything in the morning. We never will know though. Old regerts are never easy to erase. Everyone knows that," He continued to rub Roxas' back. Just say you love me too. Just say it. "I love you Roxas."

[Kiitame]

Roxas nodded, sniffling and wiping away his tears. "Okay, lets go to bed..." he was very sad to not be able to say 'i love you, too, Axel.' Roxas didn't even know the first thing about him anymore, and he didn't know him well enough to love him. He felt really bad not saying it, but it would be a lie if he did. Roxas liked Axel, but he didn't know. Roxas broke from the embrace slowly, taking off his coat and laying in his bed over the covers, curling up.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel knelt by Roxas' bed, "Do you want me to sleep with you tonight? I promise I won't do anything to you," He felt bumed that Roxas didn't say 'I love you too'. But some part of him understood that he had lost everything. He rubbed Roxas' face, "You're so cute," He got a cute smile on his face, "Especally when you get ths stubborn snare on your face. I could always get you to smile when you were in a bad mood, but when you left; there was nothing I could do to stop you. I'm so glad you came back Roxas. I really am."

[Kiitame]

Roxas smiled softly. "Yeah, I'd like that...." Roxas felt safer with the suggestion, and if they loved eachother- what was wrong with it? Nothing, thats what. Roxas just didn't want to feel alone- like no one was on his side. When Axel talked about him getting angry, and then Axel calming him, it was one of those things again that just felt true. It felt right, almost.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel nodded. He took off his own robe and climed over Roxas. He got under the covers and nesuled very close to him, putting an arm around Roxas. "You still smell the same," Axel closed his eyes and smelt his neck; then kissed the part where Roxas' neck met his shoulders. Axel rubbed Roxas' stomach area, "You still feel the same under my touch. I wish you could remember what went on between us."

[Kiitame]

Roxas sighed, blushing a little when Axel touched his stomach. He was extremely sad he didn't remember, and he felt terrible that Axel and him were in love, and he was causing Axel pain for not knowing. Roxas was sure that if they had hearts, he would be breaking Axels for not returning his love, but how could he possibly? It was a confusing ordeal, but Roxas cuddled up to Axel. "I wish I could remember, too...."

[NozomiandOni]

"Someday you will," Axel sounded convinced of it, "But for now, it's time for bed," Axel did almost want to cry, but the lack of heart prevented him from it, "You'll be here when I wake up, right Roxas?" He had a soothing, sleepy, but almost reasuring tone in his voice.

[Kiitame]

Roxas nodded, his eyes cast downward and his mind very worried. "Of course I'll be here when you wake up." he said, cuddling Axel. He turned and face him, his body small in comparison to Axels. "Why would I not be?" he was saddened by this question, as he wouldn't leave the person he evidentally loved. Roxas could see why he loved him, even if he didn't remember. Axel was strong, but still sweet, and very caring of him.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel smiled, "Becuase I would ask you that everynight and you just gave me the same answer that you would give me every night. But one night, I woke up and you weren't there. I went out to find you and caught you as you left," Axel griped Roxas tighter, "I never want to fight like that ever again," Axel remembered the after glow of the argument when Roxas was leaving.

~Flashback becuase I can~

"You're mind's made up?" Axel was standing in the plaza where Roxas passed him quickly.
"Why did the keyblade choose me?" Roxas asked, "I have to know."
Axel had lost it again, "You can't turn on the Originization! Get on their bad side and they'll destroy you!"
"No one would miss me," Roxas had forgotten about one person....
"That's not true....." Axel was hurt, "I would," He droped his shoulders as he relized that he had made a mistake at loosing it again.

~end of the becuase I could flashback~

[Kiitame]

{} *Fell over laughing at the into/outro of the flashback* {}

Roxas snuggled into Axel, his eyes wide. "I... I remember that night..." he blinked a few times, looking up at Axel. "I, I had been crying after I left, and I almost broke the keyblade.." he held his breath, thinking for a second. "Before the part you just said was blurry, and where I went and how I left I can't remember, except for going to Twilight Town..." Roxas tried his hardest to remember and scooted himself up closer to Axels eye level. "All I know is that I'm so sorry for leaving you, Axel." Roxas kissed him on his cheek, his own face turning pink.

[NozomiandOni]

((hey, we're at a breath holding part, might as well stimulate some laughter to make sure you're breathing lol))

"I forgive you. To tell you the truth, I started to cry and hid from the rest of the order for two days. I was so lost without you and all I wanted was for you to tell me it would be ok," Axel held Roxas in a protective pose, "Just next time you go, take me with you. No matter how much I protest, I never want you to be that far away again."

[Kiitame]

{} *Breathes, pregnancy style* BREATH IN, BREATH OUT! XD {}

Tears came to Roxas's eyes. "I will, I will!" he kissed Axel, feeling terrible about himself. 'How could I do that?' he asked himself, not even sure what the first choise for an answer would be. Roxas didn't know what exactly was going on, only that he was supposedly in love- and he belived that, but everything wwas moving so fast and everything was so new. He didn't care, however, and he lived in the moment for this one time.

[NozomiandOni]

((Is it a boy or a girl or an rpg? Lmao! When I make rps I sometimes feel like that.))

Axel rubbed Roxas' back more, "Roxas. Love is so confusing to me. But it makes sense when I'm with you. Please, don't feel bad. I know that you needed answers. I just hope that you found them," Axel closed his eyes. Song lyrics that were perhaps from his previous hearted life came to mind; Anata o dakishime nemuritai I want to fall asleep holding you. The phrase was apropriate. So, Axel hummed it.

(( song that Axel has stuck in head-> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PAIjepNg9jE ))

[Kiitame]

{} 8D Its a DARK THEMED! Wait is that Male or Female? xD {}

Roxas nodded. "Okay." he smiled at Axel, calming down. He smiled at Axel. Roxas felt safe in Axels arms, warm and safe. He had felt abandoned before, but now everything was going fine, even though he had no memory or knowledge of when they were in love, but he tried his hardest to remember.

~~Move out to the next room, because if you can have a flashback, i can do THIS!~~

Marluxia sneered at Larxene, his eyes ablaze. "What does me with Axel concern you?" Larxene smiled evily. "You know, everything in his ROOM." Marluxia blushed, his temper rising. "Well, we all know that you did it too." Larxene blushed back. "Fine!" she stammered. "We'll just see how Roxas takes this." before Larxene could leave, Marluxia reminded her. "Not yet, Larxene."

~~Zooms back in room, because I CAN. {} If you are lost, see the description where I bluntly say "Axel has been a SKANK." damn the bitter vengeance hookup D= {} ~~

{} Great song, by the way~ {}

[NozomiandOni]

((We aren't to sure yet. What kind of Dark Themed?))

Let him never know the deeds I have done that could hurt him. I've slept around so much Roxas. You were the one who could love me best. Just don't get to mad if you find out. I love you. How many times will I tell you this before you remember us? Before you regain your memory. But for now my beloved Roxas, I sleep with you in my arms. With this little speech going on in his head, Axel closed his eyes and fell asleep.

((thanks The dude in the big dress is the dude in my sig.))

[Kiitame]

{} Seems to be romance/Dark themed. Interesting.... Its got a yaoi couple and a het one. Oh god, gender confusion. {}


It took Roxas very, very long to fall asleep, staying restless. The lights were on in the halls, and there were figures standing outside of the door, and faint whispers could be heard. Roxas thought things were fishy- but maybe they were normal, maybe this happened all the time. Due to what they were saying, it was a chance it wasn't routine for a member to leave- but on the other hand... Roxas fell asleep thinking of these things, just happy Axel was there to keep him safe.


{} Men in dresses are the best kind XD {}

[NozomiandOni]

((then I guess it would be female))

Um, super short poast, but next day?

((Oh yes. Espesally when they are straight))

[Kiitame]

{} XD Because only girls seem to like yaoi. Its official- the baby is female. {}

When Roxas awoke, he smiled to see Axel still sleeping there. The footsteps and the whispers had gone, and the room was light once again. Roxas was happy everything was going nicely, and that he wasn't hurt. Roxas kissed Axel on his cheek with a quiet, "Good morning." Roxas layed on his back next to Axel, waiting for him to wake up.

{} ESPECIALLY if they are straight. And if they have big hair, they get points. Like David Bowie. {}

[NozomiandOni]

((Does it keep you up at night?))

Axel's eyes opened to discover the awake Roxas in his arms. So cute. So queint. So perfect. Axel felt a little paranoid at the fact that Roxas may find out his dark secret. I would never hurt you like that on purpose, Roxas. I just wanted to fill the hole that grew when you left. If you find out forgive me. "How did you sleep, Roxas?"

((Or Mana.))

[Kiitame]

{} XD Yes, but all babies do that! {}

Roxas smiled. "You're awake." he sighed, turning toards Axel. "Fine... Its just something keeps bothering me. I don't know what, thought... Its just weird..." he smiled again, and tilted his head. "But I'm glad you are here, and I kept my promise, didn't I?"

{} Oooh. {}

[NozomiandOni]

((So? Still fun to ask.))

Axel smiled, "Yes. You did," Axel kissed Roxas' forehead, "And I was glad to get to spend one more night with you. I don't know about you Roxas, but I am very content right now. About everything too. Nothing will bring me down today. Unless the bossman has hard work for be, but I doubt it," Or unless an untold secret gets whispered around. Regardless of his dark thoughts, he held Roxas close; like how a ture lover would.

((>.< Yesh))

[Kiitame]

{} XD Good point! {}

Roxas blushed. He loved being held close by Axel, and he was really developing feelings for him, but he still couldn't say 'love'. It was a serious issue, especially if they didn't have hearts. He smiled, closing his eyes. "I love being around you." he said, and he was telling the truth. Axel was acting, almost strange. Like, paranoid. It was bothering Roxas last night, but he didn't really acknowledge it. He wanted to know more.

[NozomiandOni]

"I love the smell of your hair," Axel lowered his head and smelt his hair, "I missed you so much Roxas. You don't know how much. If I could tell you, your time in Twilight Town would seem almost waisted because the words would take so long to come up with."

((brb T.T))

[Kiitame]

Roxas smiled. "Once I remember." he said, closing his eyes. "Once I remember everything about you.. When I remember my time here... When I remember my feelings for you.." he smiled brighter. "I know I'll have missed you more. Much more." Roxas nuzzled into him, his worries washed away.

[NozomiandOni]

"I want to hear about your friends in the other town. You still have those memories, right?" Axel kissed Roxas' hair and rubbed his arm up and down Roxas' back. This is what the hearted called 'Heven', Axel thought. He rubbed his face into Roxas' hair and then relesed his face from the hair.

[Kiitame]

Roxas' smile turned into a frown. "Okay." he said. This was a hard topic for him, even though he remembered them crystal clear. "Well, there were Olette and Hayner and Pence. Hayner was the leader of the group, and he was always trying to be better than me." he smiled thinking of the struggle bat tournaments. "And Olette was the voice of reason- the one who balanced everything out, the one who didn't take sides." "Then there was Pence, and he was the funny guy- Usually finding something to talk about and make up rumors about.." his smile faded. "We had all only met just recently, but it was so much fun with them around, we had all become best friends- then..." the straight face was demoted to a frown. "They forgot about me. I.. I don't know how or why, they just did. The pictures that used to have me in them were the only the three of them." he snuggled into Axel, who made things seem better.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel comforted Roxas, "I'll travel to a world a get a camera. This way there will be pictures with you in them again," Axel promised. Only to Roxas he was ever and will ever be this nice to. Sort of like how Axel was the only one Roxas would ever warm up to, "We'll have all kinds of fun with this camera. Make funny faces, do impressions of Xemnas, and whatever other types of things you want to do with this camera."

[Kiitame]

Roxas smiled. "That would be fun, but thats not what I meant.." he sighed. "It means that all my memories, all everything I ever had.. My happy times with all my friends from Twilight Town.." his voice was softer. "Gone, just gone..." he tried not to cry. "But I'm so happy to make new memories with you." he turned his head, and gave Axel a kiss. "So happy."

[NozomiandOni]

Axel smiled and nipped playfully at Roxas' lip when Roxas gave him the gift of the kiss, "I want to kiss you like I used to. We used to say that we filled the missing heart with our kisses. It was never regular on who started the kiss. But when we started, we knew that it was going to be a full heart kiss," Axel toyed with a hair on the back of Roxas' head with his index finger and thumb, "When we where done, we'd just sit in whatever room we where in and cuddle. We hardly talked after kissing," Axel smiled at the fond memories.

[Kiitame]

Roxas giggled. "Then kiss me like we used to kiss. Help me remember." he said playfully, winking at Axel. He blushed a little, snuggling Axel. His head was right next to Axels, and looking right into his eyes. So soulful, but they had souls- right? Just not hearts. He was happy, and smiled brightly. He could say it soon. He could say he loved him. He knew why, too. They wouldn't be just tossed out words, they would be true- from his heart. Roxas knew it wouldn't be possible, but he could pretend.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel kissed Roxas' nose and his jawline, "Ready?" Axel had just teased Roxas in his favorite way. He felt that Roxas was more esteemed in his arms now. Roxas was finally ready for him. This made Axel relax a bit more, But he can still never know about the others who were there when he was gone.

[Kiitame]

Roxas giggled. "Stop teasing me, will you?" he smiled, and leaned in and kissed him- how he thought they used to. It was very sweet- very passionate. He took whatever emotions were in his mind at the moment and bottled them into a kiss, which he gave to Axel. A picture flashed in his mind of a moment so similar to this one, so close. He smiled at this memory, and realized so much from it. He loved Axel, he just wanted to say it when the time was right.

[NozomiandOni]

That's it Roxas, Axel slipped his toung into Roxas' mouth and moved it around a tad bit. Just like before Roxas. This is so much like before. I missed you. I'm glad to see you still have it in you to kiss me. This just has to be what the hearted call Heven. Axel pulled Roxas even closer to him and intertwined his legs with Roxas. I never want you to go again.

[Kiitame]

Roxas's face was pink, his eyes shut closed. Kissing Axel felt so good, so great. Axel was so sweet, and the best thing that had ever happened to Roxas. He was remembering so much.. almost everything. Why he left. What he had done. When he came here. Roxas was rushed with warmth, so much of it. The kiss seemed to last forever- and Roxas loved it. His was still drowsy, but was so alive when Axel kissed him. Roxas loved him, so, so much.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel pulled out, "How was that? Just like old times, right?" Axel smiled. Kissing Roxas was what he missed the most. Or at least that's what Axel thought. But now that he was thinking about it, Axel also had missed Roxas' personality. Roxas was a quiet stubbon lover. Axel was the loud obnoxious ever-changing lover. So perfect for eachother. Axel closed his eyes and gave Roxas an eskimo-style kiss.

[Kiitame]

Roxas smiled. "Yes..." he said, closing his eyes and cuddling Axel. He was remembering so much, and that made his happy. He decided he would tell Axel that he loves him tomorrow or tonight, depending. He was happy, finally happy. They were meant for eachother, and Roxas remembered that. He was actually happy to be back in the place no one seemed to like him- except for Axel, of course. All the other members he had seen had given him the cold shoulder.

[NozomiandOni]

"Are you hungry Roxas?" Axel felt his stomach grumble a litte and wondered if Roxas felt the same way. He looked a little past Roxas' shoulder at a bedside decoration; a blue lamp that was shaped like the moon and had a star near it. Axel wondered what his room in Twilight town was like. It was porbably not much bigger than this one; Roxas was never particular fond of spacy things. Regardless of Axel's wondering, he decided not to ask about Roxas' room at this point. Questions were unimportant at this point.

[Kiitame]

Roxas looked up. "Huh? Oh, yeah. I'm kinda hungry.. Haven't eaten today.." he smiled when Axel asked. He cared for him- this made his chest warm. He tilted his head, a stupid love struck smile on his face. "You wanna go eat?" he asked, getting up. "Because I'm game." he pulled on a pair of jeans, leaving his t-shirt on. He pulled on his coat and gloves afterwords.

[NozomiandOni]

"You're game?" Axel sat up and tilted his head, "What does that mean?" This lanuage confused Axel. Perhaps that's how he spoke around his Twilight town friends, but that was not a good way to talk to a Nobody. Axel sighed. So as long as Roxas didn't mean that he was game to be hunted, he could remain confused.

[Kiitame]

Roxas began to laugh. "You don't know what that means? Really?" he doubled over and the laughed turned into a giggle, a smile on his face. "I'll tell you then." he straightened back up, looking at Axel, trying his hardest not to laugh. He couldn't hold back a huge snort and a laugh. "I'm sorry, this is just hilarious." he said, taking a few deep breaths and stopping laughing. " 'I'm game' means that you are ready, you're up for whatever- you want to go. Usually used when you're going somewhere."

[NozomiandOni]

"Oh......" Axel looked at the ground and chucked at himself, "I guess I'm game as well? Or is there a spcific response that I have to give to 'I'm game'?" The fact that Axel was confused was a miricale but the fact that he was being so cute in his confused state was cute and miricale enough. "So um," Axel got dressed and looked to Roxas for further instruction.

[Kiitame]

Roxas giggled again. He walked over to Axel, wrapping his arms around his neck softly. He stood on his toes to reach him. "You are pretty cute when you get confused.." he gave him an eskimo kiss and smiled. "Shall we go, then?" he asked, walking with him to the hall. "Which way?" he asked, holding Axels hand.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel droped Roxas' hand, "Not out here," He whispered. Then, he came to normal tone, "It's down one level. I'll take you there," Axel gave a flirty wink to Roxas, letting Roxas know that he still loved him and started to walk to the direction of the stairs, "We've trained some of the low-ranking Nobodies how to cook. It's not that bad really."

[Kiitame]

Roxas nodded. "Oh... Cool.." he was a little sad Axel let go of his hand, but when he winked at him, he knew everything was fine. He walked with him, badly wanting to hold his hand. Holding his hand did nothing, but it felt safer. Roxas smiled to himself, and then became serious when they entered the room. He wanted it to appear as if everything was back to normal. He was sadly mistaken when Marluxia stood up and left the room, Xigbar narrowed his eyes at him, and Larxene began to generate sparks.

[NozomiandOni]

Saix looked off to the side lazily. It was hard to tell weather or not he was upsetish like the rest or not.
Axel scratched the back of his head and fixed the bit of hair that was "messed up". If you could say that Axel's hair could ever BE messed up. Nobody opens their mouth. ESPECALLY about how I betrayed Roxas when he was gone. Roxas, just know that I love you no matter what and regardless of who I slept with. Ok?

[Kiitame]

Roxas sat down with a plat of food- it was grey. He was very quiet as he ate, and kind of jumpy. Obviously, the others didn't like him, and this made him a little on edge. Larxene walked over to Marluxia, who was sulking. They whispered something to eachother, their eyes shifty. They were doing something, or something was wrong. Roxas finished his food up relatively quickly, then sat next to Axel, leaning on him.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel put a caucious eye on the two. Keep on talking amoungst yourselves. Just don't say a word to Roxas. Axel's body, on the other hand, told Roxas that he was indeed in love with him. It said this by wrapping an arm around Roxas and leaning on him as well.
Saix observed everyone silently.

[Kiitame]

Roxas snuggled Axel, happy he was there. "Do you want to go back upstairs?" he asked, his voice a whisper. He wanted to know what was going on, but he wanted to be alone with Axel. No voices in the hallways, no footsteps, nothing. Just quiet.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel nodded, "Yes, let's go back to the room," Axel didn't want Roxas to know about everything he'd done when Roxas was gone. It was too much for Axel to think about. But knowing Roxas, we'll get into that room and, bang! Let the questioning start.
Saix sighed as he got up and left the room.

[Kiitame]

Marluxia and Larxene watched Roxas and Axel leave. "What a little brat." Marluxia whispered to Larxene. "All lovery-dovey with Axel, and he's not even looking at us." Mareluxia was whining. Larxene cut him off. "I'll make him pay." "WE'LL make him pay." Marluxia added, not wanting to be left out. When they got up to the room, Roxas took off his coat and layed down on his bed, trying not to cry. "Whats wrong with them!?" he asked, his voice obviously upset.

[NozomiandOni]

"It's nothing really," Axel paused, "It's just," No truth. No truth. "They still haven't forgiven you like I have. I understood why you left. They, however, do not," Please no truth. "I missed you so much. The others just couldn't see it. But you still have me and will always have me. You do not have to worry about that. Ever."

[Kiitame]

Roxas smiled as Axel said this. Tears ran down his face, and he looked up at Axel. "This is why I care for you so, so much..." Roxas knew Axel would be disappointed that there was no 'Love' in that sentence. But Roxas was saving it for tomorrow morning, and Roxas knew the best way to do so.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel wiped away Roxas' tears, "Caring leads to loving," Axel said outloud, mainly for himself, though he wouldn't admit it. Roxas wouln't say 'love' to him. Perhaps this was Roxas playing hard to get, or perhaps Roxas was holding off saying it to him, "Roxas. Did you like anyone in Twilight Town? Like how you feel for me right now?" If he says yes, then I tell him the truth.

[Kiitame]

Roxas thought for a second. "No.... I didn't like Pence or Hayner, and Olette was dating Seifer." he snuggled Axel. Caring leads to loving.. Caring leads to loving. Roxas already loved him- it just wasn't right to say it yet. But it was going to be soon. He was head over heels. But he felt like Axel wanted to tell him something- something important.

[NozomiandOni]

"Ok," Axel kissed Roxas' cheeks and wiped away more tears, "I just wanted to know." No truth. He didn't like anyone else. Why should I tell him now that it's too soon? Axel moved from kissing Roxas' cheeks to nibbling on one of his ears, then went to his cheeks trailing to Roxas' lips. Before getting too passonate he whispered, "I love you."

[Kiitame]

The word made Roxas cry more. He didn't want to tell him he used to like Olette- he used to like a girl. That would kill him inside, and if he had a heart- he would break it. Roxas wanted to keep this very minor secret from Axel for as long as possible- but Roxas lived in the moment and moved in close to Axel's face. "I know you do." he whispered back, kissing him.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel made sure the kiss was passonate. One would say that he wanted to get carried away. Alas, Axel did not, only made body motions like he did, in pushing Roxas onto the bed. He wanted Roxas to say that he loved him before doing that to him; an understandable getsure. Just so as long as Roxas was happy, he was happy.

[Kiitame]

Roxas let Axel push him. He was rough- and Roxas kind of liked that. But he wouldn't let Axel touch him anywhere else- He hadn't said it yet. He was saving it. He wanted to ask if they had done it before, but he didn't know. It was starting to get later and later, and the two were just fixed on eachother. Roxas felt Axel, and he picked up on what he wanted to do. 'An I love you first... You have to.' he told himself. "I'll be right back." he said, ruining the moment to get up and pace the hall for a quick second before saying anything.
When he got out there, he ran down one flight of steps and came back- Only to have Marluxia and Larxene standing right here, smiling devilishly.
"Oh MARLUXIA, won't Roxas be devistated when he finds out what happens?" Marluxia pretended to be flabbergasted. "Larxene, why would you let that be know? The poor boy is in a fragile state." Roxas narrowed his eyes. "Find out what? Whats going on?" Larxene smiled. "Oh, that Axel has been going into Marluxias, Demyxs, Xigbars, Zexions, and Yours Truly's rooms every night since you've been gone, not coming out till late morning."

{} -Above was plann'd- Cx {}

[NozomiandOni]

((Oh no! Poor Axel! :(!))

"Ok...." Axel watched Roxas leave the room. He laid down on the bed and smelt Roxas' pillow. He smiled very widely. It smells so much like him. For all the shamefull things I've done to him, I'll make it all right. Assuming that I can tell hiim when I think he's read for the truth. But, Axel sat up, I cannot imagine a Roxas if someone else told him.

[Kiitame]

{} D= It makes me feel bad for him. {}

Roxas's eyes filled with tears. Larxene began laughing. "You're going to cry, are you?" he turned away, red faced, sniffling. "Is this true?" he asked, his voice shaky. Marluxia scoffed. "Yes, it is-" Larxene cut him off. "And I have the burns to prove it." the two laughed together, almost perfectly. He stormed back into the room. "IS THIS TRUE?" he yelled at Axel. He was so hurt. So crushed.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel came up and touched Roxas' face, "Is what ture love?" Don't tell me that he knows. I'll kill myself if he does. "Roxas?" Axel was, well, afraid. Roxas, his world, had come back to him and where other Orginization memebers about to take it away from him? This, unfortunately, is what Axel suspected.

[Kiitame]

Roxas hated doing this- but he had been betrayed. He hit Axels hand away from his face, putting his face in his hands. "What Larxene and Marluxia said! About you in THEIR ROOMS! Almost EVERY NIGHT! And Demyx and Xigbar and Zexion too!" he found it hard to look at Axel. "Did you do it?" Roxas was being lied to- he didn't know what was truth and what was fake. He felt worthless, hopeless, sick in his stomach. He stood there, hoping Axel would say no, and it was all just a lie. The person who he thought had loved him so much, who were meant for eachother had just betrayed him and treated him like a toy. ' Axel, I love you so much, and I hope this part is all a bad dream or a lie and you'll say no. Please, Please say no!' his chest hurt, and he grabbed, it turning his head to Axel, looking up at him, directly in the eyes. "Tell me the truth."

[NozomiandOni]

Axel seemed fixed on the ground. Tears softly rolled out his eyes as he admitted his sin, "It's true Roxas. You want the truth; it's ture. But I didn't want you to find out from someone else! I wanted to tell you, hoping that you'd take it better from me! Please Roxas, understand, I was lost without you. The others set up a refuge, but insted, I got tossed around. I still love you Roxas. I never stoped! Please just don't abandon me!"

[Kiitame]

Roxas felt his non-existent heart break. "So.. That word." his tone was angry and hurt. "Love. You toss it around so much. I bet you loved the others, too." his face became angry, tears staining his cheeks. "I thought I loved you, Axel, and I was so close- everything was almost perfect. I'm sick of being tossed around so much." he pointed at the door, the tears drying up. "Get the hell out of my room. I don't want to see your face." Roxas felt so much rage, such anger, he was regretting everything so quickly. "This isn't your sob story, Axel. You are the bad guy, here." Roxas felt broken.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel stood, "I'll go, but before I do. I never said the word love to any of them. I saved it for you. During the times they tossed me around, I would only think of you. But you obviously don't care at this pont," Axel forced Roxas to let him hiss his hair and left the room. Any tears that shed inside the room seemed small now. Axel sat infront of Roxas' room and lost it. Tears filled his face. He would calm down first, but then he'd go to his own room and loose himself all over again. I did say love to them Roxas, but only you could fill up the hole that I was in my mind, the hole that was where my heart once was. Roxas, take me back. No Regrets, please! Just take me back!

[Kiitame]

Roxas wanted to kick something. Anything. He couldn't use that rage against anything. He just wanted to curl up into a ball and cry- so he did. He looked down at one of the small, small puddle-like drops of tears that had formed on the ground. ' Look at you. No wonder he cheated on you. Worthless.' Roxas was having a freak out, and felt so hopeless. He didn't want to be angry, though. He curled up on his bed and tried to sleep the entire day away. Roxas finally fell asleep, but for a short period of time. When he woke up, he saw shadows at the edge of his door. He threw something at it, causing a crash. Roxas burrowed his face into a pillow, not ever wanting to leave his room or see Axel again. But he was in love. His mixed emotions were killing him.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel heard the crash and got up and went to his own room. He wanted to burn everything here down. Leave not a trace of this entire world. But he would spare himself and Roxas. Roxas for love and himself, incase Roxas could find it in him to forgive Axel. Forgive me.

((Do you feel offended when peoples charcacters self injure? Becase Axel is super emo right now and I think he should start cutting or start running into walls))

[Kiitame]

{} ^_^ I don't mind it at all!
Go right ahead~
-Is insanely tolerant/accepting with everything- {}

Roxas cried in his pillow. Rash actions were not worth it. Axel could have been all he wanted, but just a wolf in sheeps clothing. Roxas remembered and image of the two snuggling somewhere- he himself was blushing, and Axel was kissing him. This brought Roxas to tears. He tried to stop himself, to stop crying over someone un-worth it... but he was lying to himself. Axel was worth it, every kiss, every cut, every burn. Roxas felt dead, unable to move, only to think. If he hadn't walked into the hall, their love would have never been slaughtered.

[NozomiandOni]

((Ok. I just know that some people super hate SIers and I wanted to make sure you weren't one of them.))

In his saddness, Axel wanted pain. He looked around. His shuriken were only good with flame, and that didn't hurt him. Razor blades were so unsanitary, so there went that option. He looked around more. Think, Axel, think. He spotted his closet door. That had handles. Handles caused bruses. Bruses hurt. Axel positioned himself and ran into the door. It wasn't the softest way to get hurt, but it helped him out a bit. He backed up and reapeated his steps and hit various parts of his body, slamming his head in a few times. Axel took off the robe and looked at the bruses. He didn't have many, but they were bad. One on his arm was even bleeding a little.

[Kiitame]

Roxas had a sinking sensation in his stomach. He wanted to forgive Axel, but he didn't want to look at him. Roxas didn't belive a word about the 'I didn't tell them I loved them!' stuff Axel had told him. With a sudden rush of anger, he rushed over to a drawer, grabbing a small hand mirror. CRASH. He broke it by slamming it onto the dresser, a corner of it. He picked up a sharp edge of glass. Something told him not to do it, but the small voice of reason was over powered by a want to escape a bad situation. He dragged the shard up his arm, drawing blood and causing a horrible sting. "Ow!" he yelled, throwing the glass. This hurt just as much as what Axel did.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel's left side was a mess of bruses and cuts from his constant running into things. He had found a sharp edge and had run into that a few times. "Roxas....." Axel whispered cleaning one of the cuts. This hurt. Just like he wanted it too. But Axel was convinced that Roxas would never forgive him now. Ever.

[Kiitame]

Roxas waded it a little while, avoiding the glass pieces, only slashing his arm once again. It hurt too much to go on- and his arm was still bleeding. The pain increased, and he couldn't bear it. Arm in hand, he ran into Axels room, tears on his face, and snuggled Axel. He was so angry at him, but Axel was the only one who could possibly comfort him, and Roxas needed this right now. "It hurts, it hurts..." he whimpered, crying into Axels coat.

[NozomiandOni]

((I'm the one who looses her balance during a couple of parts. Thank goodness performance isn't for a few more days: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gzK0RUEhfis ))

"Shhhhhhh," Axel rubbed Roxas' neck, "Carefull of my left side," love he added mentally. Axel wasn't too sure if Roxas still theorectally loved Axel, so Axel played it safe. "What hurts Roxas? What did you do to yourself?"

[Kiitame]

{} c: Awww!! Thats AWESOME! -Is a classical Ballet dancer-

Roxas sniffled. He pulled up his arm, the up and down cuts staining his coat a dark dark red. Roxas pulled up his sleeve, and showed the arm to Axel. "I don't know why I did it.." he began to cry again, snuggling Axel. He was unable to say 'I'm sorry.' because it wasn't his fault. Axel had cheated, but Roxas still wanted him and loved him.

[NozomiandOni]

((That is so awesome! That dance is a traditional Japanese Fishermen's dance from the norhtern most island))

"One sec. I'll get you something to clean it up with," Axel decided it was safe to kiss Roxas on the head and got up, avoiding hitting the bruses on his left side. Axel got a bottle of hydogen peroxide and a hand towel, "This will sting. And it'll foam, but it'll prevent infection," Axel tiped a bit of the liquid onto the towel and rubbed it on Roxas' wound and the area around, "Feel better?"

[Kiitame]

{} xD I couldn't do that if I tried. My legs have broken a million times. I guess I'm super tiny or something~ But thats like, amazing! What song is playing in the background?

Plus, if I log, I will be back. My computer laggs out really, really bad. {}

Roxas cringed. "Ow..." he said, snuggling back into Axel. His tears were drying up, but his voice was still cracked and dry. Roxas looked up at Axel- He cared so much for him. Roxas was so sure he was in love, but it was so hard to tell. Roxas wanted to yell at Axel, but he was too weak and hurt. The peroxide burnt insanely, but Roxas bit his lip and bared it.

[NozomiandOni]

((Ok and one of my friends, the girl with the pink hair, as you can see she as super think legs and she thought she was going to break her legs at first as well, so don't feel too bad. The song is called Souran Bushi. But you have to make sure it's the right one, there's a few versions of it and only one of them is right))

"It'll be gone in a few moments Roxas," Axel assured him. What now? It seemed that all Axel could do at this time was cradle Roxas in his arms. A simple gesture enough. Enough to tell Roxas the he loved him. I only ever wanted you in my life, Roxas. I'm sorry that I did that to you.

((Ok, I'm odd and abstract but what if Roxas got pregnant? Your rp, your control, but just an idea that would add a bit of humor.))

[Kiitame]

{} Okay, I'll look for it.. Its so cool~~ {}

Roxas found it too hard to fall asleep. Every three seconds, the cut brushed up against his robe and hurt him. Every time Roxas thought about what he had done with the shards of glass, he felt his stomach lunge quickly, like as if dropping. "Axel.." he said, his voice very quiet and soft.


{} xD Very inventive! I'll have to think about the mechanics of that, but I'd be up to it! {}

[NozomiandOni]

"Yes Roxas?" Axel turned to Roxas. He was still carefull of his left side, but looked at Roxas. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. You are the most beautiful boy on the planet! I want to live the rest of my life with you. Even though we may not have children, life will be complete enough!

((Thanks! And some scientific experiment done to him at Twilight Town?))

[Kiitame]

Roxas looked up at him. "I love you, Axel. So much. Its hard to overstate how much." he leaned into Axel, very weak and tiered. "I'm sorry it took too long to say.." he tried his best to lean up and kiss Axel, falling just short.

{} xD Sure! This is like looking at a CrackFiction~ {}

[NozomiandOni]

Axel smied. Before getting into his part of the kiss he swooned, "I knew you'd fall for me again," And then Axel closed that small space between them. I will not get carried away, Axel thought to himself, but he figured that he'd fail; he normally did. Would Roxas beat him down? Who knew. It always did depend on Roxas' mood.

((In the good way or the bad way? Some CrackFiction is really good; combining humor and darkness. Others just try too hard.))

[Kiitame]

Roxas felt happier when Axel did this. "I'm glad you didn't take it too hard.." Roxas wasn't able to hold a grudge for long, and he couldn't keep it on Axel. He loved him. Roxas kissed him like they did earlier, even though he wasn't feeling great. He looked at Axel, and ifd he had a heart it would be racing. "Do we... Want to do... it?"


{} The good kind. I love Crackfiction to death, expecially stuff like "NO, RIKU, YOU'LL HURT THE BEBE." {}

[NozomiandOni]

"Only if you want to," Axel rubbed Roxas' neck with his own and bit on Roxas' ear a tad bit. Whatever Roxas said, went. Axel did not want to deny that and nor would he ever. Unless, of course, it was going to hurt them, then Axel was very much against it. Axel remained gentle, untill Roxas gave him the command.

((I was reading one that was a HarryXDraco and Harry got pregnant. Mme. Pomphry was the one who told Harry and was giving Harry all this stuff to do to make sure the baby was healthy. Poor Harry, didn't really catch a word of it and all he said for that entire chapter was "Wait, I'm pregnant?" That chapter was so funny ><))

[Kiitame]

Roxas nodded. "I'd like to, if thats ok.." it was very embarrassing for him, and his cheeks flushed red. "If you want to..." he looked away from Axel for a second, but looked back. He was the best~


{} XD I always take everything non-pervy really messed up, and everything that was supposed to be creepy as totally innocent. And I'm caught off-guard by hilarious sentences.

"Draco is Harrys *****"{}

[NozomiandOni]

((it got censored, and before I respond, do you want to do this whole 'love making' bit via pm or just timeskip and be all; after they finished.....))

[Kiitame]

{} Timeskip would be appreciated, I'm generally a PG-13 person~


"Draco is Harry's b!tch."
Deviant art comic with Draco looking EXTREMELY pissed with what seems to be no clothes on, and Harry writing that on his side XD{}

[NozomiandOni]

((*nods* ok))

In the afterglow of the previous events, Axel laid next to Roxas, "How was that?" He asked, still breathing hevily. Axel still could feel Roxas' sweat under his arms. He wiped some of his own sweat off of his forehead, "Just like old times, right?" Axel chuckeld.

((lolol. I saw one that it was Draco and he had Harry tied to the bed poast and had lifted Harry's shirt. He was inscribing "Property of Draco Malfoy" On Harry's upper hip))

[Kiitame]

Roxas was out of breath. "Amazing." he said, curling up next to Axel. Roxas hoped that it was better than what he had done with the others. More special. Roxas giggled. "This is why I love you." he said, smiling up at Axel. "Yeah..." "Old times."


{} xD I've seen that while skulking about Deviantart~ {}

[NozomiandOni]

"That was the best. Better than any of the others that I had. Can I tell you the truth, seeing that you wouln't hear it before," Axel squeezed Roxas slightly and examined one of the bruses on his left arm. Roxas was here now, why was Axel still in pain? Axel sighed. Love was a scary thing.

[Kiitame]

Roxas smiled. "I'm glad of that, you know?" he layed there with the one he loved. "I love you, you know that?" Roxas's breath stopped being so frantic, and he calmed down. He forgot about the pain and the lies for a while, just staying in the moment. "A lot." he added.

[NozomiandOni]

I'm suprized he hasn't noticed my brusing yet, Axel thought, "I love you so much that if I was given the chance to be whole again, I'd give it up so that i could be with you. I hear that there are small remnats of the Nobody are still in the person. But I wouldn't know for sure. Nor do I want to know for sure."

[Kiitame]

Roxas nodded. "I'd give my heart to you-- But I think I like being a nobody better..." some part of him found having no real memories better, no attachment. But this wasn't his case- he loved Axel. "But I don't think you need a heart to love... Because I love you. If I became a somebody, and I couldn't be with you, I would die."

[NozomiandOni]

"And then your Somebody would die becuase he'd be in love with whoever my somebody was and die becuase he didn't have him," Axel traced Roxas' neck in kisses. His smell. Oh, that heavenly smell raidiating off his body. He found a good place on Roxas' shoulder and turned half vampire apparently, for he began to bite and nibble at Roxas' shoulder.

[Kiitame]

Roxas smiled. "Exactly." Roxas felt much more energetic when Axel bit his neck. "Stop it," he said sweetly, giggling. He kissed Axel on his cheek with a 'Mwah!' Roxas was happy the two were together. "So... What would the others think if they found out about us, again?" Roxas remembered Demyx's disposition, and how heartbroken he would be. However, Roxas really wanted to know what was going to happen.

[NozomiandOni]

"We never told them before. They did figure it out though. Before, they didn't do anything. But once you left, that's whey they started to smack on me," Axel closed his eyes. He wanted Roxas to stay in his arms forever. Just like this, "But, they may ask us about this one time. I say we tell them the truth. That never hurt anyone."

[Kiitame]

Roxas nodded. "Okay..." he was a little afraid what would happen, and the details on their powers were shady in his memories. But as long as Axel was with him, nothing could go wrong. He snuggled into Axel, closing his eyes. "We will be fine, right?" he asked this, just to be sure of Axels confidence.

[NozomiandOni]

"You should be fine, but as for now, it's late. We should sleep," Axel tucked both him and Roxas into the sheets and blankets, pulling Roxas even closer to him. He closed his eyes and doozed off a little.

((sorry it's so short brb dinner. But it will be a while becuase I think my sis said that we are going out. Not to sure though. It's hard to hear over my fan.))

[Kiitame]

Roxas found a hard time sleeping, and just ended up resting his head on Axels chest, curled up, looking at him. he ran his arms across him, his hands landing on his left arm, which he picked up. Roxas could distinguish bruises on it, which made him drop it back into place, and looked up at Axel, worried.

{} Its okay, and have fun! ^^ {}

[NozomiandOni]

But, it wasn't just his arm. It was his legs and waist. A couple small dots on his face even. Dispite the deepness of the bruses and how much they hurt right now, Axel wrapped his arm around Roxas mumbling a small, "I love you," in his sleep. He was obviously having a good dream; every now and then, his mouth would twich upwards into a smile.

[Kiitame]

{} I'm going to be gone till at least June 14th, possibly sooner. My lost if being re-done!
Really sorry! >-< {}

[NozomiandOni]

((It's ok! And do you mean that your loft is being redone?))

[Kiitame]

{} ._. Yeah, stupid at typing. Its still almost done, and right now I'm lucky to have been able to find my computer. Also, your Ryuk signature scared the great goodness out of me. {}

Roxas smiled. "I love you, too..." he was happy that Axel was there for him... but he was finding it hard to love him after the lies.
"Tomorrow..."
"Tomorrow, I'll ask Siax to hold a small meeting with all of..."
Roxas couldn't find it in himself to say their names.
"Them. And we'll sort everything out, once and for all....."
His smile faded. "But if you lied to me again, I'll leave you."
"But I know you are telling the truth... But until then, night..."
Roxas reached up and kissed Axel on the cheek, and fell asleep.

[NozomiandOni]

((Welcome backish!!! And sorry for scaring you so much! I might change it because a lot of people are afraid of it.))

Axel sighed. He didn't think that he had lied again. But, if he had, Axel was willing to pay the price. He cuddled Roxas. I hope that you aren't hurt anymore.... I would kill myself if you left me. I just know that he would leave the Orginazation again and I dont' want him to go anywhere without me. Perhaps, if he didn't leave me, I could meet Hayner, Pence, and Ollette. That would be a nice thing. But I don't think his old friends could handle me...... That would make Roxas sad.......

[Kiitame]

Roxas smiled in his sleep. However, he had a horrible dream. It wasn't like a weird 'Axel, why is there a teapot on your head?' dream, but it was more like an impression. There was fire everywhere, and a sensation of burning. It was first person, and he tried to trudge through the fire, but he couldn't find Axel. Roxas woke up quickly, and looked around the room. It was 3:00am. He couldn't sleep the rest of the night, and instead he just snuggled Axel, waiting until he woke up. He was scared about what was going to happen today, and every time he would think about something else, his stomach would drop and he would remember about the plan. It wasn't that he didn't trust Axel... but after what he did?

[NozomiandOni]

Axel woke up at a normal 8:00 am. He was pleased to see Roxas in his arms, "How are you angel?" Axel kissed Roxas' head softly. I want to know your old world..... "I was thinking last night and I want to take you back to Twilight Town. Just for a visit. I want to come with you though. I hope you don't mind. I just think that if your friends are really your friends, then they won't mind me haning around a bit and will accept you once more."

[Kiitame]

Roxas wanted to cry. He nuzzled into Axels chest.
"They...TheyThey..."
He thought it was so sweet of Axel to want to meet everyone he was friends with, to become a part of him, but it was after the fight Roxas lost. He thought for sure Axel would have killed him, but instead he took him.
Roxas calmed down.
"Twilight town... It was a fake. It wasn't real... Or at least they all forgot about me. Everything. Olette and Pence and Hayner.... They forgot it all."
He reached up and kissed Axel on his cheek and smiled bitter-sweetly.

[NozomiandOni]

"I'm sure there's a way to get back to your Twilight Town," Axel whispered. If it existed in the first place, then it would have some opperation somehow. If it didn't, then whoopdie-doo. It would just mean rain on the parade.
Axel kissed Roxas on his cheek and lips softly, "You're still real at least," He said lovingly. And ment it lovingly as well.

[Kiitame]

Roxas smiled.
"I'll be right back, okay?"
He got up, and leaving Axels warmth made him hesitate, but he pulled on a pair of pants (Which were at last 2 sizes to big and looked goofy.) and Axels t-shirt.
Roxas went around, looking for Siax. He wanted to ask about his idea for all the people Axel had.. seen... while he was gone. He finally found him hanging around the Superiors room.
"Siax... can.. I ask you a favor?"
He didn't wait for Siax to say anything.
"I wanted you to get all of the guys Axel had slept with while I was gone and crowd them into one room, so I can ask a couple questions.... I really need to get stuff straightened out."
"Pleaaase?"

{} >_< Not to be a joykill of "OMG KIIT IS ONLINE, LIKE, FINALLY." BUT I gotta go visit my friend in the hospital! I'll be back! {}

[NozomiandOni]

((Ok. Tell him or her that I hope he or she feels better/recovers quickly. And not to kill the mood of the nice and long poasts but I don't have a way to draw this one out))

Axel sat there and blinked. He wondered what caused Roxas to leave in such a rush to leave at that moment. Axel sighed. At least he thought that Roxas could be happy with him, so as long as the Orginzation didn't screw up.

[Kiitame]

{} Sorry I haven't been online in forever~ I'll probably be barely online for a while~ {}

Siax lifted an eyebrow.
"Fine. I'll get the others, and you just get Axel."
Roxas beamed, and ran as fast as he could back to Axels room.
He peeked his head in. "Axel, I know you are telling the truth, but I just want to get this sorted out. Siax is doing a favor for me, and so... Would you be willing to go down into the grand hall with me to get this out of our way?"

[NozomiandOni]

((It's ok! I'm patient, aslo nihongo wo hanashimasu ka?))

Axel nodded and gave him a kiss on the forehead, "I will come with you," He followed Roxas to the grand hall. He wondered exatcly how they would sort through things; obviously something that he'd have to wait and find out for himself.

[Kiitame]

{} Watashi no namae wa Kitame~ {}

Roxas smiled and held Axels hand, walking with him. They made it to the grand hall, where Xigbar, Demyx, Zexion, Larxene, Marluxia, and Siax stood. They all stood away from eachother, shooting mean glances.
"Alright." said Siax, rolling his eyes.
"Everyone close your eyes."
The room slowly did so, and Roxas did also.
"Axel, keep your open- Okay. If Axel has slept with you in he time Roxas was not around, raise your hand."
Everyones hands rose up.
Roxas wasn't surprised at the results.
"Lower them. If Axel told you that he loved you, or that you were the only one for him, ect-ect, raise your hand."

[NozomiandOni]

((Don't forget the verbs! Watashi wa Reecheru desu. nemui desu. Oyasuminasai. Jaa ne. Getsuyoubi de konpyutaa wo shimasu. Demo, ash.ita de *word for might.* conpyutaa wo shimasu.))

Axel felt the sudden urge to find a corner, a gun, and a reason to die. He knew that he had Roxas' trust, in a way, but he still didn't want to feel like he had cheated. But he had cheated, and that's why he stood there now. The internal conflict was frustrating to Axel.

[Kiitame]

{} ^^; I haven't spoke Japanese to anyone in some while! English is still my first language, much to my mothers discontent. {}

Roxas held his hand high, and a smile on his face. He knew Axel wouldn't lie again.
As he opened his eyes, to his sheer horror, the entire room had their hands up.
Larxene smirked. "Well Well Well. Looks like Axel is a liar, still." she and Marluxia high-fived.
Roxas wanted to cry.
"You LIED TO ME! You PROMISED!"
Without giving Axel any time to explain, he ran from the hall, and into his room, locking the door.

[NozomiandOni]

((Oh. ^.^' Were you able to understand me? I've been looking for someone to practice with, seeing that i'm taking Japanese in school and I want to remember it. >.< but thanks for speaking Japanese a little with me))

Axel sighed and looked at the room, "Thanks a lot," He mummbled. He returned to his room and looked around once more. The bruses from the last time were still there, so he pushsed on them again. The pain was much better.

[Kiitame]

{} ;x.x I grew up in Japan, although I wasn't born there~ {}

Roxas curled up into a ball. No Axel.
He let himself fall asleep, but woke up when he heard a knock at the door. He hoped it was Axel, to beg for forgiveness.
Nope.
"Aye, uhm... Its Demyx... Roxas are you okay? You haven't come out of your room in a while..."
Roxas threw a shoe in response.
"Okay..."

He eventually got up, and grabbed a piece of mirror. No one had swept it up, thank god.
He pep-talked himself, and dragged the piece sideways. It didn't break skin, so he tried again. He didn't have enough courage.
Finally, he bit his lip and dragged. Too deep.
Roxas laid back down on his bed, staring at the ceiling. He couldn't take it anymore.

[NozomiandOni]

((That's so cool!!!! >< I'm going to try and get a scholarship to go next summer or the summer after with an exchange program.))

Axel had stripped down to her undergarments. He faced his dresser, walked up to it. With one of his pretty fingers, he traced the desired edge. His mission; to physically feel the emotional pain; afterall, physical pain goes away after a while. He took a few steps back. A deep breath. He was talking himself into his goal. Then, he ran into the edge and hit it as hard as he could. Repeat.

[Kiitame]

{} Japan is amazing. I never got tiered of it. {}

Roxas tried to fall asleep.
The cut wouldn't stop bleeding.
He closed his eyes, and thought about Axel. He loved him too much to let go of him.
THUNK.
THUNK.
THUNK.
It was coming from a few doors down.
"AXEL, STOP WHATEVER THE HELL YOU ARE DOING." screamed Siax, who was next door to him.
Roxas had had it.
He sprung up, and stormed out of his room, hoping to catch Axel in the midsts of cheating on him. He smacked the door repeatedly.
"You cheating bastard! I know EXACTLY what you are doing in there, and if you want any way to salvage our relationship, I suggest you STOP IT. God, you are SUCH A SELF CENTERED ASS. And its probably Demyx you're in there with, because he checked up on me earlier. You know what? I'm going to let you degrade yourself. Screw his BRAINS out, you dick."
Roxas bitterly turned around- Demyx was standing right behind him, wide-eyed.
"Oh."

[NozomiandOni]

((i'm actually thinking that I might go as a college student insted of High School because I have a chance of getting elected into a state office with my group and I really want that to happen.))

Now that he could hear Roxas' voice, he went in harder and harder. How dare he think that I'm cheating on him now that he's back. I love him more than he could ever guess and I screwed up when he left. I didn't know he was coming back though. Who could blame me? A gash opened on his left thigh, "Crap," He muttered, trying to find some gause in his drawrs.

[Kiitame]

{} Wow! I wish you luck with that! ^^ {}

Roxas became worried.
He laid out in front of Axels door, resting his head on the side of it. "Axel... I know you can hear me... Please. I'm sorry. Its not your fault... I know how lonely it gets, sometimes... and I really don't blame you." He began to cry, laying near his door with his ear pressed to it.
"Please come out, or let me come in..."

[NozomiandOni]

((Thanks :) ))

Axel opened the door and peered out a bit, "Come in," He left the door ajar and continued to hunt for gause in his draws, moving on to the closet, "I have to have some around her someplace; I just have to. I know I had some when I didn't need it," He continued to mumble to himself as he searched the room.

[Kiitame]

Roxas stood up, slowly creeping into the room. I twas dark, and it took a while for his eyes to adjust. There was blood on the floor- His stomach sunk. He had forgotten all about his wrist, which was now drying but the wound itself was seeping with dark matter- Or whatever you were supposed to call it. He sat on Axels bed, staring at his wrist. The upward gash from the other night was healing, but there was still an overscar.
"Axel....." he said, looking at a particular amount of Axels blood on the floor.
"Whatever you are doing.. You need to stop. We..." he hesitated saying the next part. "We may not always be together, but... I couldn't live without you. I'd sooner cut my own wrists than have you go and die...."

[NozomiandOni]

Axel found the gause in the dresser and sat on his bed. He started to tend to his wound, "I would rather cause so much shock to my body than have you die first. But I hurt you. And I can't get over that, love," He swore at himself as he hit a small point of infection with an alchohol swab, "I'm sorry I have such bad habbits. Sometimes I wish I could die; but you're not in heven. So I would suffer even in death. A doubble loss."

[Kiitame]

Roxas wanted to cry.
"Don't talk like that, dammit! You.. You know that we just fall into nothing if we die. None of that somebody stuff..."
He held Axels hand, and squeezed it.
"You're killing me. You keep hurting yourself in debt to me- But you are just making me sadder and sadder that you do that."
He snuggled up next to Axel, leaning his head on his shoulder.
"I love you...." he said behind tears.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel winced as Roxas laid his head in the bruises, "There has to be some kind of heven for Nobodies as well though, right?" He inquired. Axel finished wrapping his leg up and hugged Roxas, "I love you too," He hummed a soft tune to relax himself.

[Kiitame]

Roxas shook his head.
"No... We are nothing. We don't have hearts- We already had our chance as somebodies."

He smiled sickly.
"I know you do... And I know you never meant to hurt me.."

[NozomiandOni]

Axel sighed. I want to die. I can't hold on anymore. Just leave Roxas. He felt a lump in his throat form, "I'm sorry love," He cried, "I'm so sorry I did that to you......." He sighed once more and held Roxas tighter than he had ever before.

[Kiitame]

Roxas smiled at him, and leaned onto his shoulder.
"Please," he said, nuzzling his neck.
"Never, ever leave me."
"Promise me, you never will..."
He kissed Axels cheek, a sadly sweet smile across his face.
' I love you Axel, and I know sometimes I don't act like it, but I always will... And I'll never forgive you if you die on me.'

[NozomiandOni]

Axel laid down, taking Roxas with him. He held his love close to him and showered him in small kisses, "I will never leave you again; ever," He promised, "Because life without you is empty and pointless," Axel inhaled some of Roxas' sent and relaxed.

[Kiitame]

Roxas smiled and kissed Axel back.
"Good. I could never really love you if you did that." he snuggled into Axel, and wrapped his arms around him.
His stomach rumbled.
"This may be out of the moment," he said, giggling, "But I'd kill for sea salt ice cream..."

{} Cravings! =o {}

[NozomiandOni]

((*gasps*))

"Do yuo want me to see if we have any in the freezer?" Axel offered. Anything to make his lover moer confrotable would be most good to him. "It's nothing to do that, really. Espesally because it's for you." Axel laid a few small kisses on Roxas' head.

[Kiitame]

{} XD Yaaaay! {}


Roxas smiled, and laughed a little. "See, this is why I love you." he nuzzled his head into Axels chest. "And yes, I would love for you to check if we have any." Roxas felt overwhelmingly secure with Axel, and happy that he would go out of his way for him.
"Bring, like, seven, because I will eat as many as possible." he said, half laughing.

[NozomiandOni]

((Lol))

Axel smiled and kissed Roxas on the head, "I'll be right back then," He stood up, got dressed, and left the room. How odd for Roxas to crave things. It's very strange and bazar. Oh well. I guess that if it's a one time deal, I can live with it. Axel dug through the freezer and found some sea salt ice cream. However, there was only two left. So, Axel grabbed those two and took them to Roxas.

[Kiitame]

{} XD Your Sokka signature made me giggle~~ {}

Roxas smiled and snuggled up on Axels pillow, awaiting his return. 'Whats with me?' he thought, regarding the ice cream craving. ' I usually don't crave- Ever....' when Axel got back, Roxas grabbed the ice cream from his hand and began wolfing it down. "Werethesetheonlyones?" he said, his mouth full of ice cream.

[Kiitame]

{} :c I- I hope you aren't dead!! {}

[NozomiandOni]

((No, I'm not dead. But my laptop is. :( konpyutaa wo shinimashi.ta. I snuck on to my mom's. Sorry that I made you worry.))

Axel blinked a few times, "No..... We only had those two...." He's been acting so oddly. I just hope that he's ok..... "Are you feeling ok?" Axel asked sitting down next to him, "I'm just a tad worried about you. With how you are acting and all," He gave Roxas a small hug, "But I love you no matter what."

[Kiitame]

{} D= I'm so sorry to hear that! >_< I've also been not on as much- I dislike College very much! {}
Roxas smiled.
"Ah, no.. I feel just fine.. I have stomach cramps like some kind of girl- But other than that, I'm.. Doing fine."
He snuggled Axel, very happy the other one was around him.
"I love you, too..."
He kept feeling rushes of sad, and of happy, then he got really irritable, and then he wanted more ice cream, and then he'd be fine again.
A little while later, Roxas had been tossing and turning.
"Ah, maybe.. I might need to go see Vexen soon. I don't feel so great."

[NozomiandOni]

Axel nodded, "Perhaps you do. If you don't feel well, then seeing him would be best."

((sorry it's so short, I just got yelled at to do some work. I hate being bossed around so much.))

[Kiitame]

{} ^^ Its alright! :3 I'm just glad I can get to my computer and wade through my college work to post! {}
Roxas layed on top of him, and gave him a kiss.
"Alright... Do you want to go with me? If you'd rather stay here, that would be fine. I mean, Xemnas probably needs you for a mission or something..." Roxas laughed, kissing Axel on the cheek.
"I don't know why I'm getting worked up. Its probably nothing."

[NozomiandOni]

Axel shook his head, "I'll come with you. It could be something more than we would like it to be. I would like to be there, just in case," Axel cuddled his love and rubbed his back, "I just don't want you to feel alone if it's something worse than what we think it might be." His tone was sencere. He wanted the best for his love.

((Every he that it up there was at one pint a she. talk about typos.))

[Kiitame]

{} o_0 Jeeze. Oh! I'm happy you logged on! ^-^ {}

Roxas nuzzled into Axel, a smile on his face for once. "Okay, whatever makes you happy, love..."
Roxas got up, stretching like a cat. "Uhg. I feel really drained of energy. Its probably a cold or the flu. Or something."
He pulled on a pair of jeans and a shirt, and put his coat on over it- The Superior would have his head if he wasn't wearing it.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel smiled at the notion of putting the jacket on. He understood the thought process, "Yeah just the flu," Axel muttereed to himself, "It could be swine flu," Axel joked, "You can never be to sure."

((sorry I gotta go. It's super short, but I think I gave you SOMETHING to work with))

[Kiitame]

{} Its alright! ^^ No pressure! Just log on when you can~ Shinpai shinaide :3 {}

Roxas frowned, grabbing the others hand and holding it tightly.
"I don't think its that.... Lets just hope for flu?"
He got his smile back, nuzzling the other.
"Hey, whatever is wrong, I love you always."
They made their way to Vexens 'office' and Roxas just kind of burst in, dragging in Axel behind him.
"What do you want?" Vexen asked, his eyes narrowed.
Roxas went on to characterize his problems, and Vexen looked a little shocked.
He went to his desk, rummaged around, and grabbed what looked like a pregnancy test and handed it to Roxas.
"Bathroom is over there. You know what to do."
Roxas awkwardly left the room- A pregnancy test? Really?

Vexen waited a moment to be sure Roxas was gone.

"So. How did you knock him up?" he asked the other, quite frank about it.

[NozomiandOni]

((Jaa, arigatoo gozaimasu senpai))

"The normal way," Axel replied. He didn't know how else to word it, "Besides, it's not like we can have test-tube babies on this world. You know for a fact that it's been tried here. My only question is that how does the baby work if the mother/father thing has no heart to get blood and nutrients to the baby," Axel hated to admit it in this way that Nobodies had no heart. A nurvous flutter came into Axel's stomach as his mind rushed with a confusion that came with such rare events. Just let him not fall into fetige. Axel prayed.

[Kiitame]

{} :3 Its generally "ou" instead of "oo"" ~ {}

"Axel, thats absurd- I've never seen or read anything like this! Roxas is a male last anyone checked. I had a haunch- But lets just hope it comes back negat-"
Vexen was cut off by the sound of something breaking in the hallways.
"No! Larxene, give it back!" came a yell from the halls - Roxas.
"Ooh, lets see here- A pregnancy test? Haha! I guess I'm not the only woman here."
Roxas struggled at attempting to grab the pregnancy test from Larxene, hoping it was all just a setup from Vexen or something.
But Larxene got a look of horror on her face and dropped the test, backing away from it like it was going to attack her.
"You- You- You're..."
Roxas grabbed the test and got the same look on his face.
He felt his face get hot, and he felt like crying- The little sign on the test was a tiny pink plus.
Roxas burst back into the room and immediately began freaking out.
"How could you!?" he yelled, staring at Axel with intent.

[NozomiandOni]

((Yeah. when it's written in Hiragana it does end in "u". You're right. But, it can still be oo, for pronounciation reasons. Making me right as well.))

Axel had a facepalm moment. Really? REALLY? Why must this always happen to me? Do I speak at this, or do I shut up at these moments? Who's the dumb-but here? Oh you better believe I am, seeing that ROXAS IS FREAKIN' CARRYING!!!!

[Kiitame]

{} For pronunciation, yes, thats how you would put it. But it really doesn't matter if you say it aloud, it makes the same general noise. {}


"Well, Axel? Do you have any single way of explaining this?"
Vexen wrote something down, not even listening to Roxas yell at Axel mercilessly.
"It seems..." hissed Vexen, trying to be loud enough to get over Roxas' yelling.
"That the baby is producing more rapid than a normal woman would have, but tis not all that rapid. The signs about the pregnancy will increase, so be prepared for cramps from hell."

Roxas, already totally shaken by the news of pregnancy, reluctantly stated walking back to Axel-- The only person who was definitely going to give him comfort. He felt horribly sad because he was going to have to go through with the pregnancy, angry that Axel would do something like this to him-- Get him pregnant, which he pinned all on Axel-, and afraid to tell anyone else. But he wasn't going to have to break the news to everyone- Larxene was probably already talking about it.

[NozomiandOni]

((yuup))

Axel reluctently wrapped his arms around Roxas, "It'll be ok. I will try to keep whispers as silent as possible. However, rumors are rumors. Tales are tales. We can do this." Not necisarrily the truth, but words make him feel better. So as long as we are not harrassed by EVERYONE I'm good. A thought of getting rid of the baby flashed in his mind, but he decided not to speak.

[Kiitame]

Roxas sighed, nuzzling into Axels' chest. The familiar touch of Axel and his smell comforted him enough to make his heart stop pounding out of his chest, though he was still horribly afraid. Part of Roxas really believed that he would wake up any moment now, back in Twilight Town, greeted by the sound of Olette, Hayner, and Pence throwing ice cream sticks at his window to make him wake up.
"If I am correct, the signs of the baby will start showing soon. The physical changes, I mean. Not just the hormonal."
Roxas just shut his eyes tighter, not even wanting to think about having a child.

[NozomiandOni]

"We'll do fine, Roxas," Axel was horrified. He did not sign up for this. As a matter of fact, he chose this sexuallity so that he wouldn't have kids. However, now that he and Roxas faced this trial, he couldn't help but to stay with him. This was his fault just as much-or even more so-as it was Roxas'. Needless to say, he held Roxas tightly, as if to surpress the emotions that might be flowing through Roxas' head.

[Kiitame]

{} . + . I'm so horribly sorry I haven't been online in so long! I'm just so terribly busy. {}

Roxas looked up at Axel, his face as serious as it had been when he first arrived in the castle.
"No, we won't." he said back to him, in response to the reassuring words- Which really did nothing for Roxas, as he was still as upset as ever.
"Take me home, Axel. I want you to take me home so that I can never see your face again. I really don't care."
Roxas immidiately broke down crying, his eyes welling with tears, and he just wanted to kill Axel and tell him he loved him too much to let go again.

[NozomiandOni]

Axel sighed, "I will," He didn't want to think about loosing Roxas again. But, it would be the only thing to make him happy, "We'll go in the morning," He really didn't want to do this.

((It's ok. I haven't been on in a while. But school's about to start, so I have to go. Sorry it's so short.))

[Kiitame]

"Stay with me.. Just a little while.." he whined, wrapping his arms around the other, holding him as if he were going to be vacuumed to the ceiling.
Vexen gave a tilt of his head and coughed slightly, and Roxas picked up the message. He grabbed Axels arm and tugged him harshly back to his own room, drying his eyes on the way.
He slammed the door behind him, and his eyes adjusted to the dim lighting. The room was still a wreck and the glass shards from his mirror were everywhere.

{} ^-^ Its okay~ I just actually started teaching ballet, so I'm never online in the weekdays. {}

[NozomiandOni]

"Stay with me.. Just a little while.." he whined, wrapping his arms around the other, holding him as if he were going to be vacuumed to the ceiling.
Vexen gave a tilt of his head and coughed slightly, and Roxas picked up the message. He grabbed Axels arm and tugged him harshly back to his own room, drying his eyes on the way.
He slammed the door behind him, and his eyes adjusted to the dim lighting. The room was still a wreck and the glass shards from his mirror were everywhere.

{} ^-^ Its okay~ I just actually started teaching ballet, so I'm never online in the weekdays. {}

"Do you need help cleaning?" Axel asked dutifully, but then persuted on to a much more important matter, "Why'd you drag me here?" It was odd that Roxas would move so hastily to his room.

((Ureshii desu nee! Ii desu nee! ganbatte oshiette kudasai!))

[Kiitame]

"I-" he started, his grip tightening on Axel's hand.
"I don't know. I just wanted to get out of that other room. I want it all just to be a dream, Axel... But I want you to stay with me. I can't let you go.. I love you too much."
His eyes began welling with tears, but he tried to blink them back.
[^-^ Glad to see you--- I don't recognise 'ganbatte' or 'oshiette'.. It kind of looks like 'feel free to call me'? XD Maybe my brain isn't working 'cause its 12:30 AM~ By the way- Happy Christmas c: ]

[NozomiandOni]

"I-" he started, his grip tightening on Axel's hand.
"I don't know. I just wanted to get out of that other room. I want it all just to be a dream, Axel... But I want you to stay with me. I can't let you go.. I love you too much."
His eyes began welling with tears, but he tried to blink them back.
[^-^ Glad to see you--- I don't recognise 'ganbatte' or 'oshiette'.. It kind of looks like 'feel free to call me'? XD Maybe my brain isn't working 'cause its 12:30 AM~ By the way- Happy Christmas c: ]

((Ganbatte is the te form of ganbarimasu, meaning to do one's best. Oshiette is the te form of oshietrimasu meaning to teach. So I'm saying "Please do your best at teaching."))

Axel soothed Roxas, "I'll be with you everystep of the way," He repeated over and over again. I'm scared, He repeated over and over again in his head. Wich, was also true. This was one of his greatest fears; parenthood. At least it was with Roxas and no one else.