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Christa Ann
09-08-2009, 05:23 AM
Taken
I have lost. My body is weak and I am hurt in many, many places. I can’t shake off this coldness that takes my body even though it is not cold. I slowly pull my heavy body to my hands and knees. I look up at my attacker. He looks down at me with no emotion or mercy in his eyes.

I have been undefeated until now. I look at him for only a moment more but then my head swings down again as I cough up blood. I see one of his feet move in an instant and I dodge his sword falling back on my hand and but. I look where it almost hit but where it landing. It is right between my thighs so close to my flesh. It had caught a piece of my shirt now holding me to the ground.

I look up at him but once again my stomach urtches with pain and I fall forward leaning on the sword. I fall with my hands on either side of the sword. One of my hands falls onto another an in an instant I see a blue hand knife fall down going into both my hands and the ground as well. My eyes widen with the sudden notice and I yell out in pain. I want to cry but I will not. I will not let this man see me so utterly week as I am.

I am in so much pain and uncomforted I want to throw up or just die. But I wont die, I wont end here. I look up slowly to the man. He says in a quiet deep voice with no sorry or regret in his voice…

“im going to leave you here for a while.” he then turns and starts to walk away. I look at him as he walks. Is that really all he has to say? That means he has some kind of plan that involves me. That means he is keeping me alive for some reason.

But he is not going to use me right now. No, he is going to try to break me, to tame me. No, I shall not be tamed, I shall not fall, and I will never, ever beg to live from the man who has beaten me. He is out of sight and I drop my head. My head is fuzzy and I want to lay down so badly, but the swords blade is on my side which means I cant truly lay on it without cutting my self. I am stuck in this horrible position for only god knows how long.

Part of me wants to die but it is taken over much more by the part of me that wants to make him pay. I close my eyes and sit there. I sit there for a day with out leaning on the sword. But after a day I truly cant help it. I am so tired and it hurts to much to sit the way I am, I just don’t care. I slowly lean forward and lean against it.

I slide down as it cuts me shoulder deeply. I close my eyes in pain keeping myself to be taking by it. I stare at my feet for hours until I finally fall asleep. I wake up during the day. I feel hungry, and tired. I am starting to wish I had bled to death by now.

But no, I still live. My thirst is horrible and I feel as thought my mouth is sand. I think a little of water and want to throw up. Right away I make myself think of absolutely anything but that. I lick my dry lips to find they also taste like sand. A little later in the day I hear a noise.

My eyes open and take a while to adjust. I look up slowly to see that man. The man who had beaten me so horrible and imprisoned me to the horrible ground. He walks for a little bit then stops about 4ft from me. He looks at me with that same look. That same smug look as if he is better than me. In only a moment of this, I glare at him and yell.

“ you week bastard! I do not fear anything you can possible do to me!” I see him lift up and eye brow. He then says a little lighter than last time.

“cant I?” I see him bend down slightly and get a hand full or dry dirt. It is then enough to be sand but is not quiet the same thing. My eyes widen and he takes a step forword. I bite my bottom lip then I yell.

“don’t touch me with your filthy hands!” he takes another step forward then grabs my face with his free hand. I try to pull away but I am so tired, and so week. With that hand he uses two of his fingers to open my mouth. With the other hand he then throws the dirt at me. He lets go and I cough trying to get it out of my mouth.

Some of it has also gotten in my eyes. My eyes tear up and tears start to fall down my face filled with the dirt. The man the takes my chin pulling my face to his. His eyes are one of an animals with no feelings at all. he then says in a cold, evil voice…

“you WILL fear me” he is serious. He means it completely. I cant find any words to say. I feel a very small spark of fear hit my heart of what he meant. He is not finished with me, he is going to try to break me.

And a man like this has no limits. He then lets go of me and turns. He leaves me and it starts to get dark. My mouth hurts and is very dry. My throat is starting to crack from lack of water. Him throwing dirt in my mouth was the worst thing he could do at the time.

And now I am starting to imagine I am somewhere ells. Anywhere but where I am now. Time passes and soon it has been another day. I have been coughing so much. My stomach hurts greatly from me coughing. It is now in the middle of the day and I cant lift me head.

I feel the sun beating down on my and I am staring to truly wish I would die. I start to cough and blood comes from my throat. I cough again and a peace of my lung falls next to me. I look at it and close my eyes. A little time passes and I can no longer open my eyes. I can’t move at all. My eyes, and throat, and mouth burn so, so much.

I feel dizzy, I don’t feel there, I might even be dead. I hear something in front of me but I can look up to see who or what it is. I lay there like a dead corps. I feel something touch my face. I don’t know what it is but I feel soft, like silk, or very soft skin. I then feel something touch my lips.

I must see what this is. I force my eyes to slightly open. I can only see a shape at first but soon I make myself see. It is HIM. He lifts up my face and little more and puts it in my mouth. It is an opening to a leather water pouch.

Water pores in my mouth. I don’t drink the first mouth full. It happens to fast and I cough it out. I don’t couch it back into the pouch because he pulls it away just in time. He then brings it back to my lips. The water falls in my mouth and down my throat.

I drink it. I take as many mouth full’s as I can before it is brought away from me. he still holds my chin and I cough a little. a little of blood filled water falls down my mouth and onto his hand. He lets go of me putting my face back down. He stands up straight and whips the water off his hand onto his hip. I know what he is doing. He is keeping me alive so he can make me suffer. He turns to leave but I say very quietly…

“you plan to make me suffer… don’t you?” he turns slightly to me and says with a dead stone look on his face.

“I do” I drop my head and say quietly…

“it wont work.”

“we’ll see” he then turns back around and walks off leaving me under the horrible sun. my situation is horrible but I don’t lay down and die so easy. I wont break easy. I refuse to let my soul me taken by a little of pain. No I shall make it threw this pain just like all the other times.

I know a human can last about four days with out any water. He got to me on the evening of the third day. I also know a human can last about a week with no food. Is that how long I must wait? That means I have about one more day and most of the other before he decides to feed me. I sigh and close my eyes again.

Christa Ann
09-08-2009, 05:23 AM
want more?...let me know and i shall make more!

Christa Ann
09-08-2009, 05:25 AM
I am still so week and so utterly tired. I little later is starts to rain, and hard. I am scorched by huge gobs of fast moving water. Each drop hurts slightly hitting my body with great speed. I sit there looking at the ground again starting to want to die. It rains for the rest of the day.

I get drenched in cold rain at every inch of my body. I try to sustain myself but I start to shiver hard. In moments I am shaking so hard my body hurts. I have a horrible migraine from shaking so hard. It hurts like a hot needle pushed threw my head. A little later me head is down and I start to hear some sloshing.

I look up just a little. Again it is him. He walks to me slowly looking down on me and my filth. I hate the way he looks at me. That smug look as I am kneeling down in front of him like a bow. He looks down on my with those eyes for only a moment. I then see his hand go into his small leather bag hanging at his site. He pulls out a small peace of bred and I sigh dropping my head. I know why it is bred. I say quietly without looking up.

“bred… bred because it wont give my any energy, but just slightly feed me.” he says in that same cold tone…

“that’s right” I sigh quietly to my self hating being right. I hear him take a few more steps to me. I then see a knee in front of me. I see the bred in front of my face as if he is going to feed me. I don’t want to die like this but it is better than anything he has planned for me. I say quietly not liking it at all.

“I wont eat it” the hand slightly goes down and It seems likes he is going to give me mercy and just let me die. I then suddenly see his other hand on the knife attaching me to the ground. It grabs it tight and turns it to the side with a fast jerk. My eyes close tightly and I yell in pain. In that moment that man shoved the small peace of bred in my mouth.

Ah it tastes to good. I needed and wanted it so much. I cant help it at all. I pull the rest of it in my mouth with my lips and chew it. I hate myself for falling for my stupid needs. After I chew it I swallow it feeling so very low about myself. I whisper knowing he can here me.

“damn you…” he stands up and turns slightly.

“ whatever you say” he then turns and leaves me once again. I hate that I cant get to him or make him mad at all. I hate that all the pain is hitting me from every direction and I can even put a little scratch on him. For two more days nothing happens. I have gotten my fill of water when it rained and now I just sit here slowly dying and rotting even though I am still alive.

My soul is week and I am getting to the point of breaking down. My back hurts to much from being stuck in this position. I really do want to die now. Now I day dream about falling asleep and not waking up. Now I want to is badly knowing that is my only escape from this horrible death of my soul. Another day passes and I just sit there during the night not being able to sleep even though I long for it.

I hear a twig break and I look up to see what it is. It is him standing but right looking down at me. I look at his face and right away I can tell he is here for a reason I wont like. He looks at me for only a moment. I then see him pull something out from behind him, it was probably in his belt. I look closely and see his had a whip.

My eyes widen and I sigh dropping my head. that’s why he is here. He is here to make me suffer. Nothing is said between us. I wont beg for mercy and he wont stop whatever he is planning. One of us will have to fall and for the moment I am the one loosing.

He pulls the whip out of its curly around his hand and whips it in front of him. I emotionally prepare myself right away for what is coming. I hear him walk behind me and I take a breath. I can take pain but I’ve have never liked it. I hear the whip fly and it his my back slapping a long cut across it. I keep my self from crying out but I want to so badly.

I can hear it swing back and the sound as it whips. I hear it whip forward and it slashes me back just like last time. This time I make a small noise of pain. The third I yell quietly in pain. The fourth I do yell out. I hate myself for letting him hear my pain. The does it about 7 times.

During the end I start to scream. He stops after 7 times. I sit there with my head down and my eyes closed. I am breathing hard and trying so hard to ignore the utter pain. After he stops he walks in front of me. I see his feet in the dirt and I can feel his gaze on my head.

He says nothing to me and turns and walks off. I sit looking at the ground. My back hurts so much and I feel a tear start to just start to make it out of my left eyes. I close my eyes tightly and force the tear back. I refuse to fall. but I feel to tired both fiscally and emotionally.

I know how utterly close I am to breaking but there is still a chance I can some how escape this and become strong again. Another day passes and my stomach yells out at me loudly. I want so badly to eat but cant. I lick my dry lips and feel there is no hope left. The next night comes and again I hear food steps, and again I look up to see him. I sigh quietly and drop my head down.

Again he walks behind me and again I am whipped. I keep my self from making any nose for the first four. But the fifth time I yell. He stops the fifth time and walks in front of me again. I know this is not it, I know he is not done. I know I have much more to fear.

I am afraid, and my soul is so week. I am so tired of this I want to cry out. I see the end on the whip next to his feet. I then see it pull back. He is going to whip the front of me. I pull my head down cutting my shoulder slightly deeper.

My hair falls over my face and I close my eyes preparing myself. I hear the sound of the whip and a huge slash goes around me arms. It hurts to much, I want to scream until my lungs rip. Another time, the sharp pain hits my chest along with my right arm. The third time I yell out. He does it over, and over. I cant take it, its to much. It is between whips and I have broken. I say quietly as he prepares for the next one…

“stop…” I hear how weak my voice is. I am sure there is no way he could have heard me. But I see the whip go down and I relies he has. I am in so much pain and I don’t want any more so badly. I look up at him and say in this quiet week child like voice…

“just kill me” his stone cold look changes into a glare. He then stomps his foot down on the blade holding onto my hands, hard digging it even farther into my hands. The pain is unbearable and I cry out in loudly. I close my eyes tightly and take big breaths trying to ignore it. I open my eyes slightly. He bends down to me with his food still one the knife. He then says coldly looking into my eyes…

“do you REALY think it is that easy? For me to kill you would be giving you mercy” I feel my eyes tear up. I look down fast as my hair falls over my face. I feel my arms and body shaking hard from the pain and the hunger. I then say in a very quiet whisper…

“I cant take it anymore” he stands up and says quietly.

“you do have a choice. You either stay here while I keep you alive and make you suffer until you die of stress, OR you swear your loyalty to me.” so that’s what he was doing. He knew I would never work for him for any reason. So he killed my soul, making me weak and small. I want to yell no. I want to be strong, But I cant. I say quietly still looking down in a whisper.

“fine”

Christa Ann
09-08-2009, 05:32 AM
“beg me” my eyes open shocked and I look up at him. His face is stern. He is very serious. I see him put his foot back on the blade threatening to stomp down on it once again. He then says in the same tone as I look at my hands…

“beg me” I feel the tears start to fall down my face. I am so hungry, and so tired, and so week, and my soul is burning. I am hit from every angle. But, I want to beg. I want to be freed from this bondage and he is the only one who can stop this pain. I bit my lip open my mouth says quietly….

“please… give me mercy”

“what ells? The only way to get away is to belong to me.” he was saying I have to ask, he wants me to beg to him to be my master. I don’t want to say this, I don’t want to do this, but I want to be free. I hear the sound of him leaving. My head shoots up and I yell…

“wait!” he turns slightly, looking down at me. I must do it. I have broken down and cant take anything ells.

“please…take me”

“that…. Will do” he then looks back a little where he was going to walk off.

“now… you will stay here a little longer as punishment for trying to kill me”

“but!” his sword it then at my neck pointed out almost touches it. My head I pulled back as far is it can go so the blade does no reach. He then says in a cold voice…

“do not talk back to me, or I shall make it longer… understand?” I look down. I hate myself for how pathetic I am.

“fine”

“I am not ‘fine’ I am your master. Now say yes master like a good little dog” he has done it. This man has single handedly put me to the low of the low. I look at his eyes and say quietly as tears till fall down my face.

“yes… master” he pulls the blade away from neck and says…

“well… until I feel like coming back” he then turns and leaves me. He has won, I am week and to pathetic to even move. He killed my soul and I am nothing but a shell of some one who was once a powerful and strong man. As soon as he is out of sight I let it all go. I cry out loudly and my whales take over I’m sure at least a block from me.

I cry four about 20 until its soon hurts to cry. I am still so hungry, and so thirsty, and so tired, and my body hurts so much I cant take it any longer. I want to be taken away from here so badly. I want to be freed of this horrible bondage with everything I have. I sit there for another day. I truly hope I might die before he comes back for me.

I know my death is close. I can taste the utter sweetness of always being able to sleep. It is night again and I cant move in anyway. I stay here like some kind of animal just looking down. I hear something but I am too weak to look up. My head burns with a sharp pain.

Im not sure what the pain is. Weather is lake of water or food or loss of blood or the head I know the pain only mocks me with dead as it swings in front of me but not yet hits. I hear the noise stop in front of me and I know who it is. My eyes look up as much as they can. I can only really catch a glimpse of the upper part of his body. I cant see his face at all.

He bends down a little and I see his eyes looking at me. He only looks at me for a moment then puts his hand on the top of the sword that is in front of my body. His hands goes on my face and pushes is back enough for the sword to no longer be touching me. With the other hand he then swings the sword out of the ground and as soon as it is out of the way he lets go of me letting me fall forward into the hard ground. I cough out a little of blood and try to get up. I cant get my arms to move and my back hurts a lot.

I turn over slightly too see both my hands. I see him bent to his knees next to my hands. I watch as he puts his hand slowly on the knife. I know the pain that is to come next. I take a breath and close my eyes lightly trying not to think about it. In an instant I feel the hank of the knife as it flings from my hand.

I keep myself from yelling in pain but I want to so badly. I make some small noises out of pain but I keep them as quiet as I can. I hate being under him, I hate being so weak. But, I made an oath, a promise, so now I belong to him. Now he is my master. He takes my shoulders pulls my upper body back, slightly on his lap. He holds my upper body in his arms and the bend of my back hurts so much.

“ah…eh” I say as I move out of place where I have been for longer than a weak. He says quietly looking down at my pathetic appearance.…

“you weak dog” I know he is right, I know I am. I say nothing but look away from him wanting to cry from the pain of my soul. He picks up my knees and stands up still holding me. He then turns like he has every time he met me for a week, but this time I am going with him. He starts to walk and says quietly…

“is there anything this dog wants to say for his master giving him mercy, and letting him live?” I look at the ground not liking how much I have sunk. I close my eyes and say quietly.

“thank you… master” he then says in that same cold tone still looking forward…

“good dog” the way he talks to me is so degrading. Not just the words he uses but how he says then. He knows just how to treat him to make him feel low. He knew exactly what to do to put him in his place. i look down at the ground and feel odd and even week enough to not be able to hold my head up.

He holds the my head against his chest to keep it from just hanging back limp. I look ahead as neither of us talk at all. I soon see blackness. I have never felt this good but I am worm and comfortable. Not one that but I feel as though I am shutting down like a sweet yet non painful death. I move over a little and feel warmth, something I have almost completely forgotten about. I role over and feel fur under my face. I relies I am laying down on a bed.

I hear my self groan and I relies I am alive. My eyes slightly open. I see something bright in front of me but it is to fuzzy for me to see. My eyes adjust and I see it is a fire. I sit up and rub my aching head. I look over and see I am in a house.

Not just any house, but HIS house. I then looks over and see him sitting next to the fire, it is night. His eyes are on me and I instantly feel nervous. He stands up says…

“you were asleep for a day” a day? I look at my body and I am very, skinny. I then notice my wounds have been bandaged. I hear my stomach growl and I feel sick instantly. He then says to me…

“I have food. right now… your body might reject it at first and you may throw up. But, you will eat at lest four bulls of stoo today and you have to drink lots of water.”


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please some one comment><

asharasahara
09-08-2009, 05:40 AM
That's a lot of writing. ^_^ I'll read it tomorrow. I don't have time tonight.

Fluffypuppy77
09-08-2009, 05:41 AM
GO CHRISTA!!!!!!!!!!!!
~please keep it up!~

Christa Ann
09-08-2009, 05:43 AM
you dont have to read it tonight..lol


and thank you!! i already have more!!! MWAHAHAHA!!!





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“w…why” he slightly glares at me.

“ do you really think I did all that work just to have you die?” I relies how stupid my question was. I look down in shame and he says…

“now hurry up and come here” I look at my body and I don’t like the idea of moving at all. But I turn my feet off the bed and stand up slowly. I am very wobbly and my legs don’t feel like they are really under my body. I take a step forward and almost fall to the side. My right hand shoots out and catches myself right before I go any farther.

I look at my feet and take a breath feeling stupid with myself. I then take a few more steps and stumble down to a sit where we eat. He takes a bull and says quietly while poring sup in it….

“that was pitiful” I look down. I know he is right. He hands it to me and I take it slowly. He then says poring himself some…

“you need to learn to be grateful… or ill put you back there for a few days.” the utter fear that hits my body is impossible. I cant believe my soul has already been greatly scared from it. I cant seem to breath or move at all. I know what he wants. I bite m lip and say quietly very much not wanting to go back to that horrible place…

“thank you… master” he says softly as he puts his bowl on his lap…

“your welcome” I look and relies I don’t have a spoon. I look at him and say quietly…

“may I have a spoon?”

“dogs don’t use spoons” I cant believe how cold he is. How much he really doesn’t care putting me down. In fact I think he is trying to put me in my place. I look at my hands feeling stupid no longer sure of how I should act or what I should do. I pull the bull up to my lips and start to sip it. It is very, very good. I start to eat I faster. With in only a moment he says…

“eat slowly… you might throw up either way but I’d rather you not” I look at him and do as told eating it slowly. I finish it and hold it out to him.

“can I have more?”

“no” he says calmly

“b…but why?” he glares at me and says…

“because your master told you… not stop talking, your annoying me.” I look down feeling ashamed. He then says…

“if you don’t throw it up in an hour then ill let you have more. Until then just drink water, and sleep” I look down.

“fine” in an instant I have been slapped across the face. He is standing over me with his hand still at the ready.

“I have told you once already… I am your master not ‘fine’ you will say “yes master” like a good dog or I will punish you” I say nothing at first then he says.

“I can put you back in your little spot.” the thought of the fear jumped up my spine and I say quietly looking down.

“please…don’t…”

“then you’d better remember. I am your master and you will respect me.” I look at my right hand and say quietly…

“yes… mater”

“good… now do as I say and go sleep some more. You also still need to drink water”

“yes master” I say in a whisper.

“humph” he turns and walks back where he was sitting pouring himself some more stew. I walk back where I was sleeping and he says.

“wait” I stop and look at him.

“I put you there just for the time being… you sleep there.” he points to the ground where there is some leather over the dirt and the some fur over it.

“you will sleep on the ground like a good little dog” I nod.

“ok…”

“good boy.” I sigh and lay down on it looking at the fire. I am so, so tired and I want to sleep, so, so bad. The fire fades away and I soon fall asleep again. I wake up a little later with the fire mostly gone. I sit up and look over seeing that HE is asleep.

I sit up slowly and notice I my body feels better. I stand up slowly and feel the power in my legs to maybe even run. I look back at him and whisper to see if he is really asleep.

“you’re a stupid fool and shall not live long at all” he does not stir a muscle and I give a bit of an evil smile to myself seeing I have a great chance of freedom. I walk to the door and take the handle looking back at him again, And again nothing happened. I then walk out and close it quietly behind me. I would have killed the man while he slept but if he were to awaken before I had the chance with me in action I would surly regret it. I walk for only a little bit when I start to get tired. I have not gone far and I feel completely drained of energy.

Fluffypuppy77
09-08-2009, 03:40 PM
(nice! moremore!!)
(can we suggest anything or bring in anybody?- even if its not an rp)

Christa Ann
09-08-2009, 08:01 PM
yea you can suggest it^^

Fluffypuppy77
09-08-2009, 08:03 PM
its a guy who escaped from someone right?..... so bring in a girl to go bring him back

Christa Ann
09-08-2009, 08:06 PM
Eh.. i made it go go between these two guys

Fluffypuppy77
09-08-2009, 08:09 PM
ok just an idea!!^^

Christa Ann
09-08-2009, 08:14 PM
its cool..thanks though^,^

Fluffypuppy77
09-08-2009, 08:19 PM
(wait so the kid has holes in his hands??)

Christa Ann
09-08-2009, 08:21 PM
he is about 20, and yes he does, they will heal soon though

Fluffypuppy77
09-08-2009, 08:30 PM
(ok then....)

Christa Ann
09-08-2009, 08:36 PM
lol..that all?

Fluffypuppy77
09-08-2009, 08:42 PM
um...... the hunter has double blades??

Christa Ann
09-08-2009, 08:43 PM
yups^,^...

Fluffypuppy77
09-08-2009, 08:47 PM
straw hats, they need straw hats

Christa Ann
09-08-2009, 08:55 PM
....huh?>,<

Fluffypuppy77
09-08-2009, 08:56 PM
they should have straw hats!

Christa Ann
09-08-2009, 09:01 PM
why do you say that?

Fluffypuppy77
09-08-2009, 09:03 PM
I dont know.... straw hats are cool

Christa Ann
09-08-2009, 09:08 PM
....*takes step back*

Fluffypuppy77
09-08-2009, 09:10 PM
*write already!^^*

Christa Ann
09-08-2009, 09:12 PM
you still want more?

Fluffypuppy77
09-08-2009, 09:16 PM
doi! good story!

Christa Ann
09-08-2009, 09:24 PM
but im not so sure what i should do,..gr..give me a moment ill put something together.

Fluffypuppy77
09-23-2009, 06:00 PM
(taps fingers on belt)

Christa Ann
09-26-2009, 07:18 AM
>< i have no idea what that means..

Fluffypuppy77
09-27-2009, 04:00 PM
((I'm just waiting for more^^)

Christa Ann
09-30-2009, 08:16 PM
ok i have my cpmputer back so i can try and make more><

Fluffypuppy77
09-30-2009, 08:41 PM
YEAH!!!!! *does victory/ new years cheer*

Christa Ann
09-30-2009, 11:19 PM
lol...wow....

Fluffypuppy77
09-30-2009, 11:28 PM
....... did your siggy change... the picture? it looks different