[Gerard Way]The Black And White Roses[Jeph Howard]

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My twin brother,Bert, was such a weirdo.......He had been embarresing me sice....BIRTH!!!He was so annoying, but what was I gonna do? He was my brother...v.v....ahhh jeez.

Anyways, it was the first day of school and I couldn't wait to get there to see all my friends again! Grabbing my GreenDay messanger bag and quickly heading out the door with Bert behind trying to catch up with me yelling and panting,"Je-sus, Vie--do--yah--have--to--be--so--god--damn--fast???"

I ingorned and ran to my best friend's house to see her on the front porch sucking face with her boyfriend....ewww.

I smirked and put my hand on my hip...waiting for them to stop. THey didnt...About 4 minutes passed until I said,"Jesus...Vem!Take a breath will yah?Hey Frankie?Aren't yah suffocating in there?"

"Nah."he said, standing up and lending his hand to his girlfriend. He locked her in his arms and kissed her cheek softly.She giggled and laced fingers with him as we began walking again.

Up came Bert, panting and sweating as we calmed down to catch his breath.

"You okay,Bertus Maximus?"I said smugly.

He looked up with a tense look on his face,"Since when do you run so god damn fast?" He still appeared tired and sweaty.

I shrugged,"Iono, just anxious to get to school, I guess."

He smirked at me,"OH!You just wanna see Gerard...God Vie,just ASK HIM OUT ALREADY!"

I looked shocked and hurt,"Bert!I DO NOT LIKE GERARD!!!He's been my best friend since Pre-K!"

"Violet, you are so blind to how Gerard likes you." Vem said, being the first thing she had said yet.

I scoffed,"Gerard?Like as in Gee?My best friend?"

"See, you guys even have like 40 nicknames for eachother!"Bert argued.

"Do not." I spat.

"Niji and sunshine? Vie Vie and Geetard? Chibi and Lovey? I don't know, Vie, but that sounds like looove to me." Frank pointed out.

I rolled my eyes as we reached the courtyard where everyone was. Waiting for friends that had been missed all summer. Chattin up the hottest topics, and what happend over Summer Vacay.

I looked around, and couldn't find a single soul that I rreally wanted to see.I hung my head..there was no way I was gonna find anyone in here! November and Frankie already set off, and Bert was gone too. Violet, all alone!Then suddenly an arm swam across my stomach and grasped me as the person pulled me closer.

I gasped and grabbed the arm, twisting it, and putting in all my strength as I flipped the person over.Martial Arts never seemed to fail me, until I looked down the person who I had just flipped onto their backs.

I cupped my mouth and gasped."OH MY GOSH!Sorry Mikey!"

I helped him up, he brushed himself off and rubbed his head. "Sorry, I forgot you could do that." someone said from behind.

I looked to see Ray and Bob laughing their asses off.It was Ray who put his arm around me, but by accident I grabbed Mikey by mistake.
Man, I felt like **** for flipping my best friend's little brother.

"**** off, *******s,"I spat, then turning my attention to Mikey in my calm tone,"I am SO sorry, Mikey!Are you okay???"

"Yeah,"He replied quietly as a smile spread over his face,"Man, you GOTTA teach me how to do that!"

I was flattered,"I would be glad to,Mikey-san."

Mikey bowed his head,"Thank you,Violet-sensei."

I patted his head,"Very welcome, young Grasshpper."

We suddenly burst out laughing when another person happend to walk up. "Hey,"he said sipping a Starbucks frappachino,"Why are we laughing?"

I gasped and embraced him in my arms as we laughed,"I see yah missed me?"

"NO ****!" I smiled, releasing Gerard, and stealing his Starbucks, and taking a gulp.

"Hog."he muttered as I gave it back.

I raised an eyebrow. "coming from the guy that could eat a Navy's worth of food?" I remarked.

He looked hurt and gave me a shove as he picked me up by my stomach and smirked.

We both laughed and laughed as I cried between laughs,"AHAHA!NO GERARD, PUT ME DOOOWN!!!HAHA!!"

He obeyed as he gave me his toothy grin,"Soooorry..Vie Vie, I juss missed you WHOLE BUNCHES MUNCHES!!!"

"Awwwwww."I smiled, seeming flattered."Dumbass."And I hugged him again.I jerked away from the feeling of someone gving me jumpercables.

I screeched and fell forward right......on top....of...Gerard......

I blushed bright red, staring into his hazal eyes as he turned bright red as well."Uh.....uh...uh-uh...uhm...s-s-sorr-rr-y."I stammered as I picked myself up.

The feeling of embarressment faded as I turned eyes full of anger. There was my brother and his friends. Quinn Allman, Branden Steineckert, and OF COURSE, the infamous Jepha......one of my best friends.........

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"Yous is a jackass, Jepha." I said in a child-like voice, as I scrunced up my nose.

He gasped sarcasticly,"OH MI GAWSH!NO WAY!?"

Gerard was frozen on the concrete, still beat red. Jeph burst out laughing and between giggles he breathed out,"How's the forecast from the friend in your pants, Gee?"

I playfully punched Jeph in the arm, he might be one of my best friends, but that was just making Gerard even more embarressed than he was. Jepha was sometimes a jerk.

"Jeph, knock it off." I said tensley, helping Gee up. I helped him brush himself off as he nervously bit down on his lower lip.

"I am so sorry, Gerard." I apologized.

Still bright red he stuttered out,"Uh-uhm...I g-got to go, Vie. Talk to ya later...bye." And he ran off before I even tried to stop him.

I was sort of lost after that. Jeph broke the silence with a,"Told ya he had a boner."

I spun around and walked off. I hated when Jeph was like this. God, sometimes he was such an *******. I needed to go find Gerard and make sure he was okay. I coudn'y find the kid anywhere, i mean, I would eventually see him in class or at lunch so I forgot about it and headed in side to class.

I didn't see Gerard anywhere, he was pretty good at avoiding people when he felt embarressed or scared. That's why he was never beaten up in his life! All Gerard did was run from his problems. Sometimes I thought he should just stand up and face it, but why was he being like this towards me? It was so strange. I didn't see him all that day!

I walked down the street with Bert, November, and Frankie. I kept silent as I observed my surroundings. Gerard didn't even walk home with us! Something was definately wrong.

"Maybe he got sick and went home early." Vem pointed out.

"Or maybe he skipped." Frank guessed.

Bert shrugged,"Or he could be being Gerard and avoiding Vie 'cause of what happend today....What a pansy" And under his breath I heard him murmer,"Why doesn't he jusss say ' I Love You' already?"

I stifled and shot a glare at my brother,"Excuse me? What's you just say?"

"Nothing!" he snapped as he continued walking.

I sighed and continued walking, why was Gerard avoiding me?

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That night I decided to get on the computer. I never was really on it, but maybe Gerard was online, so I could talk to him about today.

I signed onto AIM as XendlessdaydreamzX, and took a look at my buddy list. Skimming.....rainydaysx33(Vem), ierokid666(frank, obviously), ironmaidenman98(Mikey), gowitdafro34(ray, obviously), bigbertus77(..Bert), blondie11(Quinn), silentscreams(Jeph), and of course..Misfit4lyfeG....Gerard. I double clicked his name, but in an instance I got an IM from like everybody!

rainydaysx33: ahhh!my love!
XendlessdaydreamzX: hey, brb
rainydaysx33: aww mann!

ierokid666: hey kiddo, whats^?
XendlessdaydreamzX: cant talk, srry Frankie...
ierokid666: *sniffs* fine!..jk....bye

ironmaidenman98: so wen r u gunna teach me that whole flip thing, vie-sensei? lol
XendlessdaydreamzX: wen I can but i cant talk right now kid, ttyl

bigbertus77: hey guess what!?IM TALKIN TO U FROM DOWNSTAIRS! ahahahahhahaha
XendlessdaydreamzX: bert shut up douchbag...

blondie11: so u still pissed at jeph?
XendlessdaydreamzX: kinda why do u care?
blondie11: cuz i kno how jepha can b
XendlessdaydreamzX: well thanx to him my BF is avoiding me!
blondie11: *sigh* juss talk to gee im sure hes fine
XendlessdaydreamzX: thanx quinnie..g2g now..biee

Just as I went to click on Gerard's screenname, up came an AIM box saying;

silentscreams: hey vie, im sorry for earlier today
XendlessdaydreamzX: ur always sorry, jeph, im gettin sick of it.
silentscreams: u kno im tryin to get better at that stuff...canu forgive me?
XendlessdaydreamzX: why should i?
silentscreams: cuz u love me
XendlessdaydreamzX: yeah, ok i forgive you, now i g2g ok? biee

Then so close, yet so far away! The minute I clicked on Gerard's screenname and wrote; XendlessdaydreamzX: hey; He signed off!!!!!!He actually signed off!

I groaned, and slumped back into my chair.

This is useless, I thought to myself, what the hell am I going to do?

Just then rainydaysx33 came up again.

rainydaysx33:well if ur done attempting to talk to gee, meet me at my house so we can walk to band practice at Mikey's, so u can talk to gee, ok?
XendlessdaydreamzX: iono, vem, he seems kinda pissed at me...
rainydaysx33: juss get over here, bring bert....
Rainydaysx33 has signed off.

I groaned and trampled back downstairs, grabbed Bert by the collar of his shirt, and pulled him out the door. We met Vem and Frankie on the corner and started walking to Gerard and Mikey's house.

The minute we arrived to the guys in the garage waiting, I saw Gerard, he saw me, and the look on his face was shocked and nervous.

I saw him lean over towards Mikey who was tuning his bass guitar, he whispered something to him. Mikey shoved him and told him to do something, but I couldnt make out the words. But I know it wasn't something Gerard wanted to do.

I sighed and headed in without saying a word to Gerard. I sat myself next to Vem and Bert on the old couch over against the wall where we would watch My Chemical Romance practice from the sidelines. All through it Gerard kept sharing a nervous glance with me, he could see sadness in my icy blues. He sighed as Frankie and Ray started on their guitars. Before starting my favorite song by them, Gerard gave me sad hazal eyes and began. "Without a sound, I took her down and dressed in red and blue I squeezed. Imaginary wedding gown, that you cant wearin front of me..a kiss goodbye, your twisted shell, as rice grains and roses fall at your feet. Let's say goodbye, the hunredth time, and then tomorrow we'll do it again...." I sighed again. All of Gerard's songs usually made me sad, but I loved his voice, it was beautiful, as were all the lyrics he wrote.

They played a few more songs, then took a 15 minute break. Gerard wondered off into the kitchen, that's where I followed him. There he was drinking a tall glass of water.

"Uh...Gerard?" I murmered.

He almost spit out his drink, he was so startled. He immediatly jerked around with a suprised gesture. "V-Vi-Vie?," he stammered,"God, you scared me." As he held his chest with his beating heart in it.

"You're not gonna run from me?" I asked smugly.

He took a step towards me,"No, I saw that look you gave me in the garage, I know I hurt your feelings, Vie. I'm sorry, I need to stop running when I'm afraid or embarressed."

"Yeah."I murmered again.

He gave me his "cute face","You forgive me, dont cha?"

I sighed,"Ah, of course! C'mere ya big dumbass!"

He smiled and wrapped his arms around me in a tight hug. I did the same.

"You're a great friend, Gerard,"I whispered to him,"You always tell me what's on your mind. Thanks."

He nodded his head gently, I could see the hair on the back of his neck stand up....he did tell me everything..right?

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One month later...

"Gerard Arthur Way!" I called from across the street.

His attention went towards me as he smiled, and jogged across the street over to me. When he reached me he was panting a little.

"Jesus, baby."I said smugly,"Get into shape will ya? You ok?" I put on my "angel face" and smirked cutely.

"I'm fine."he said a little tensley,"Thanks for your concern."

I wrapped my arms around his waist,"Awww, you know I'm just playing with ya, babycakes."

"Yeah..."he said in a daze as he his sad hazel eyes gazed in front of him to a group of people walking.

Oh great, I thought to myself, It's that *****, Violet, again. But not to worry, she hates my baby now. Hahh, she's just stuck in the mud cause Gee picked me over his dumbass friends.

"C'mon Gee-baby."I said innocently,"Let's get to school!" And I grabbed his forearm and pulled him down the sidewalk.

Gerard's POV

I sighed to myself as I ran along side Amanda, my new girlfriend. She was such a ***** sometimes, I can't belive I chose her over everyone else. It was really just to get Violet jelous, but when I started dating a prep and Violet's worst enemy...all my friends abandoned me. Frank, Ray, Jeph, Bert, Vem,.....Violet. Everyone. No use trying to get them back. Violet hated me, so I stuck with Amanda to keep myself with someone. So I wasn't alone.

I mean, Amanda wasn't all that bad. She gets all pissed at me, because I wont have sex with her, but that never stops her from breaking up with me. And I can't break up with her. You know me, always running from my problems, and the problem was Amanda. I didn't want to be lonely for one, but the bigger problem was her older brother, Jay. He was captian of the football team, and totally huge. He hated me all through the years, and now even more that I'm dating his sister. And he said if I ever break her heart he'll kill me. And frankly..I don't really wanna die. Somedays I do, but only for the sake that I have no one.

I sighed to myself again. I hated when Amanda called me by Gee. That was my nickname from my friends. I hated it when she called me by my full name too. That was me and Vie's thing. But I can't call Violet Vie anymore.......it's just not the same way.

It always sucked in my periods of the day. I had all of them with atleased on ex-friend. It was horrible. Gym was always the worst though.

As I ran around the gym by myself, I saw Amanda blow a kiss at me from the sidelines. I smiled faintly as my gaze drifted on over ot Violet standing there glaring at me. I kept looking at her, she kept looking at me. It was a neverending gaze, and it was the longest I had looked at her. Just then, I found myself on the floor. Face down, listening to bursts of laughter. I looked up and saw Bert and Frank run pass me, evil mugs on their faces as they continued running.

"Did ya have a nice trip, Way?"I heard Frankie joke rudely.

Bert and him snickered as I pickedm yself up. Across the way the only one not smiling was Violet. She never laughed when things like this happend to me, she just ignored it. Amanda ran to me in need.

"Awwwww, baby!"she wailed,"Are you alright!?"

"Yeah."I murmered and continued running. And as I ran pass Violet I swear she gave me a look of sympathy.....Psh, chyeah right. After what I did to her...why in the hell would she feel sorry for my ass? I sighed and ignored the snickering, and continued my running.



This was pointless, why even try living? I had no one. I lost all my friends. Amanda was a stupid over-protective *****, and of course her brother wanted to kill me anyways....Why not just kill myself? Well, baby I tried but the most unexpected thing happend.....

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Who was this? Frank? Jeph? Mikey? I laughed at myself for even thinking those silly thoughts. Yeah right, I scoffed and went to pull the trigger harder.

The gun was gone. Across the room on the floor. I felt nothing. No boom, no scream, no nothing. Nothing but arms wrapped around me from behind. My eyes widened at the sound of the crying.

I opened my mouth to choke out the name of the person I wanted to see,"V-Vie?"

The unknown person spun me around. Tears falling onto that make-up caked, spray-tanned face. Long bleached hair fell along onto her face. Long plastic pink nails dug into my shoulders. And lip gloss coated lips curled and screamed out,"No Gerard! It's me! Amanda!"

She was the complete oppisite of who I wanted to see at that moment. I sighed and pulled away from her. Turning my back on her was the only way to get out of this situation.

"What the hell, Gerard! Do you want to kill youself!?" she cursed, her lips curled and eyes slumping.

"Actually..I do." I said sternly.

"What?" she gasped,"Wh-Why? You have me!" She said it so arrogantly, as if I wanted her or needed her. And trust me, when push comes to shove. I knew I didn't need her.

My fists balled into fists. I had just about had it with her arrogance and *****iness for the last ****ing time. I spun around, and I yelled something I had been wanting to say to her practically forever. "Well, maybe I don't want you, Amanda!" I screamed.

Her eyes widened and she back away in shock from my outburst.

"All you do is hog me, and you made all my friends abandon me!" I yelled into her face.

Eyes still wide she stammered out,"Y-You don-don't mean that, Gerard." Her eyes narrowed as she reached out and smacked me across the face ragefully,"It's just that Violet ***** isn't it, Gerard!? Isn't it!?"

I scowled,"No, it isn't just Vie, it's all my other friends you stole me away from. Damn it, Amanda! You even took my own brother away from me!"

Her menacing look never left that face of hers.

"Well, hope you're ****ing happy screwing your new little **** buddy you player!" she yelled.

"Player,"I scoffed,"Player? Are you the one that caught me making out with Jacob Farly? Am I the one that flirts with every ****ing boy in my path? Tell me something Amanda, I'm not a player....you're just a whore!"

"A whore, huh?! **** you Gerard Way! We are through!" she said louder than everything she had said before.

"Happiest ****ing thing I've heard in months, *****." I said confidently and watched her slam the door shut behind her.

Finally..I was free of her.


The next day at school was horrible. I tried to play sick so Jay wouldn't kill me, but my mom didn't buy it. I had to go.

I got up and got dressed in probably the most emo clothes I had. I felt like **** and even lonleier than before. I sighed to myslef. I had no one now. When I was done, I headed downstairs to the breakfast table where mom had put waffles for both me and Mikey.

It felt like forever that I had spoken to Mikey. Sure, even though we lived in the same house, we avoided eachother a lot. This morning was way different.

Mikey looked up from beneath his thick rimmed glasses that were on the verge of falling off his nose. I was just silently picking at my waffles with my fork, looking down and hiding my face with my black bangs.

Suddenly, a quiet voice said,"Gerard?"

Suprised, but not letting it show, I looked up at him. "Hmm?" I said monotonely.

"D-Did you and Amanda break up last night?" he murmered awkwardly.

I would have loved to scream out YES! THANK GOD!, but I kept it to myself and whispered,"Why?"

"I heard a lot of yelling last night." he replied,"What happend exactly?"

"Nothing."I lied back.

A long awkward silence provoked after my little brother replied with a simple,"Oh." Mikey was so lost for words and hesitant about asking me stuff. We used to be so close and now we barely talk to eachother.

"Hey Gerard." Mikey said shyly, like he was talking to a girl at school he liked,"Ya wanna w-walk to schoo lwith me today?"

On the outside, I smiled and nodded, but on the inside I was screaming, YES!! THNAK YOU GOD!!!THANK YOU!!!!

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"Ok." Mikey said,"Let's get going. Frankie, Vem, Bert and Vi-."

He has stopped dead in his sentance. I knew what he was about to say. He was about to say Violet.

I simply ignored and him and murmered,"C'mon, we're gonna be late." And I slung my bag over my shoulder and headed out the front door with Mikey behind.

As we approached everyone, I kept my gaze toward the ground where no one could see my face. I had noticed as we talked thet he saw my briused eye. I mean, It wasn't that bad, but not at all hard to miss. HE probably felt bad for me, that's why he was walking to school with me.

We all started walking. I didn't know who we were walking with or what they were talking about. I didn't dare look up to see Jeph's arm around Violet, or to shocked faces by my black eye. So, I kept my face down at the ground.

Whenever someone said my name I just either ignored or said quietly,"Hm?"

The only one talkingto me was Mikey. I had no idea who I was even walking with.

Then, a sweet voice said,"Gerard? You okay?"

I only let my eyes move up. There I saw her. Violet. She was standing with her dark brown hair down around her pocelin face. Her icy blues seemed empty, but just as beautiful as the day I met her.

"Y-yeah." I stammered out in a whisper.

She raised a confused eyebrow and said as she lifted up my face,"Well, then stand up straight, silly."

I looked up, and cringed. No pain, just the reactions of those around me as they gazed upon my bruised face. But the most shocked, was Violet.

She cupped her hands over her mouth.

"Gerard!" she gasped,"W-What happend to you, you're all bruised!" Her hands touched my face with concern.

I pulled away,"It's nothing..."

"Nothing!?" Frank repeated loudly,"Dude, the whole side of your face is black and blue!"

"Gerard, you need some ice to put on that. How'd you get that anyways?" Vem said in her caring yet uncaring voice.

I sighed,"I got beat up..."

"Beat up!?" they all repeated.

"By who?" Bert asked madly, like he was still my friend.

Why were they all defending me, and worried about me?

"No one.."I lied again.

"Gerard, don't even try to lie to me." Bert said tendley,"Now, who the **** did this to you?"

"Why do you care?"I muttered,"You're not my friends anymore remember?"

"Gerard!" Frank said,"We are your friends. Amanda wasn't."

I stayed silent, I was too afraid to speak.

"We always avoided you cause of that stupid *****, but now that you're broke up." Vem explained to him plainly.

"Then why did you guys push me around?"I asked with anger in my tone.

"Heh heh."Frank and Bert said awkwardly.

"That was our bad, Gee. Sorry." Frank apologized.

"So, does that mean we're all friends again?" Mikey asked randomly.

"Sure does." Frank smiled,"Good to have you back, Gee."

"Good to be called Gee again." I smiled,"Well, by my real friends that is."

They all laughed as we started on our beat to school. Vie stood silent and a little behind everyone as we all caught up. Every now and again I glanced back at her staring off into space.

God, she looked so beautiful. I missed her so much.

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When we got to school, Frankie and Mikey demanded I go to the nurse's office to get ice for my black eye. I sighed and slumped my way down to the nurse. No use trying to argue with Frankie or Mikey. If I didn't Mikey would tell mom, and she'd get a coniption fit of some sort.

When I was done getting ice, the nurse gave me a late pass to 2nd period Art. At leased it was my best subject.

I entered my classroom hesitantly, keeping myself on the down low so no one noticed my eye, but no use trying to hide it. Everyone in the entire artroom went quieter, and our obnoxious teacher, Mr.Okeetz, called out loudly,"Mr. Way! What happend to you?"

I shook my head, and handed him the late pass, and sat down at a table by myself. Mr. Okeetz started his lesson about Pablo Picasso. I drowned him out. I never was into artists like Van Gough or Picasso. I just liked to draw comics and super heroes. I usually got in trouble when Mr. Okeetz asked us to draw our favorite hero, and I'd always end up drawing Wolverine or one of the X-men.

Mr. Okeetz assigned the class to draw our favorite place. I got up to go sharpen my pencil, and saw Amanda's cheerleading girlfriends, Kia and Mannie. They were whispering something to eachother. Something about me, I wasn't stupid, but Amanda was no where in sight. I guess she wasn't here today....Why did I care?

So, I sat down at my table and began drawing my favorite place. When up came Kia and Mannie.

Kia snarled at me,"So, Gerard. Any idea where Mandy is?"

I never glanced up from my drawing,"Any idea why you think I care?"

Mannie scowled at me,"Ya know, you really hurt her feelings you *******. You almost killed yourself in front of her, and she saved you. So, you repay her by breaking her heart!?"

I scoffed a little,"I was going to kill myself because of her."

I could tell Kia and Mannie were suprised by that comment. And with a simple,"**** You, Gerard Way." Kia and Mannie swaggered away.

By the end of class, I was done with my sketch. Suddenly, the bell rang, and I had to get to the 3rd floor from the bottom floor before I was late again. So, I accidently forgot my drawing and hurried myself up to Science class.

On the way by, I passed Violet. I saw her, but se didn't seem to notice I was there at all. She didn't look happy like she did this morning. What was wrong? Not to worry, I thought to myself, I'll talk to her later

Violet's POV

I saw Gerard run passed me, and I kept my gaze away and low to the floor. I think he hated me for abandoning him. It was best I just leave him alone.

I sat down beside my friend, Austa.

"So, what's the theme for today?" I asked her, concerning art class.

"Hmm..." she mused,"I think it's my favorite place."

I nodded my head and looked out into space.

"But hey, check out this drawing some kid did last period, Vie." austa said, handing me a peice of sketch pad paper with a drawing on it.

It was remarkable! It didn't take me long to realize where it was. It was....It was me and Gerard's favorite spot when we were kids. The old secret pond that we had never told anyone about. Right next to the old willow tree.

And at the bottom of the sketch it read the name "Gerard Way".

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Gerard's POV

Later that day it was time for all of us to head home. Not good, how would I explain the black eye to my mom? Hopefully, Mikey would back me up on that one. He was good at excuses.

That perticular day was different. Bert had to stay after for detention with November, and Frank got picked up from school, and that left Mikey, me, and Vie. Man, I was so nervous around her. I knew she still hated me, and the thought practically brought tears to my eyes.

Just around it was time to leave, I was standing outside the school waiting for Mikey and Vie. He never showed up, but Vie did.

Up she came ever so slowly and solemnly. She never looked happy anymore. What happend to the Violet that's eyes made me weak, or the smile that made me melt into the floor? I never saw her smile. Only keep a complete straight face. Yes, she defiately hated me.

Up she came in her black baby doll tee and dark green capris with her black high tops. She kicked at some nearby dirt. "Mikey had to stay for Math help." she murmered.

My eyes widened without hesitant knowing she was staring at the ground. Vie and I, alone? Mikey, that little bastard, I was going to kill him when he got home.

"Uh-uh-I."I stammered.

She looked up from the ground,"Look, if you don't want to walk with me it's oka-" I stopped her.

"N-no, i-it's okay." I said quickly.

Violet shrugged her shoulders and we started off onto our trail home.

We said nothing the whole half-way home. Someone had to break the silence. This question was burning in my head, but I didn't just blurt it out. I kept it blunt and simple, hoping for an off-direct answer from her.

"So...."I said as I saw her glance up at me,"Since I've been gone, uhm...has anything...changed?" I swallowed hard and bit onto my lower lip.

Her eyes wandered nervously,"N-no, not...really."

"Nothing?" I asked annoyingly.

She silently shook her head. I guess I had to make this a little more well-known.

"So, you and Jeph still friends?" I asked kind of rudely.

I saw her almost trip a little. Her gaze still staring at the sidewalk. "Uh..." she stalled,"Kind of."

"Kind of?" I repeated a little tensley,"Well, what's kind of exactly?"

She looked down with a guilty look,"H-He's kinda like my best friend ya know. We got really close after awhile."

I nodded, and the thought that was floating and stinging my mind was almost tear-jerking. It was bad when I thought Jeph had taken her first kiss, but now that I think about it, knowing he had taken my place in her life, her best friend, was even more painful than before.

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^^ OKie doke.

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We quietly continued out beat home. I dropped Vie off at her place, then started on a long walk back home. I was depressed again, and the feeling of wanting to die came over me. Hopefully, this feeling would cease.

When I arrived home it seemed as if I was alone, but I wasn't. I entered the living room where Mikey, Frank, Vem, Bert, and.....Jeph were. I didn't understand. I saw Violet and Jeph kiss, what the hell!?

They all turned and smirked at me. I just turned away and started my way upstairs.

"Hey Geeeeee!" Bert called annoyingly, "What cha doin'?"

I didn't respond and slumped my way up the stairs to my room. I collapsed on my bed and sighed.

I know they kissed, but could they just be friends? No, far worse. They were best friends.

Suddenly, in came Jepha who bounced on my bed, smiling from ear to ear. "Ga-Ga-Ga-Geetard!" he laughed, "You're back from the dark side!"

I pushed him off me in a playfull matter. I tried to hide my depression, and act like I was happy to see Jeph.

"Yepp, I was so sick of super *****." I smiled fakely.

The look on Mikey's face frowned. He knew when I wasn't happy and I was faking it. He gave me a look of sympathy and I just grimaced.

Thinking about Violet kissing Jeph gave me shivers. I shuddered at the movie playing in my head again.

Everyone made me come downstairs, and I did. We all collapsed on the couch and started talking. When Frank brought up the subject of our band.

"How about it guys!" Frank grinned, "Getting the band back together? C'mon please?"

I mused as did Mikey.

"YEAH!" Mikey agreed, "That would be great!"

It took me longer to decide. I mean, after everything, I didn't even know if I had a voice anymore. I lost my taste for singing after Amanda came along.

"C'mon, I've already talked to Ray and Bob, pleeeeeease Gerard?" Frankie begged, practically on his knees.

I shrugged, "B-But I don't know, I haven't sang in a long time. I don't know if I still can sing."

November gave me a tiny hit, "Gee, you can't lose your talent over anything. You still draw, right?"

I nodded uneasily. I was nervous, what if I couldn't sing?

"Just give it a try, Gee." Bert said gently.

I nodded, as everybody looked at me. I felt a little woozy, but sucked it up, and breathed in, and let my voice pour out. Or atleased what I had of it. It was like I couldn't hear myself. What was I singing? I couldn't tell. It was all blacking out.

I was singing alright. I was singing Vie's favorite song, Drowning Lessons. It was scary for me to be singing again, but I was. And I sounded pretty good for the first time in a month I had been singing anything.

I stopped right after "tomorrow we'll do it again...". Everyone looked at me and smiled.

"Gee, you sound as good as ya did the day I met you, whatta ya say?" Frankie asked, with puppy dog eyes.

I couldn't help my smile as I laughed, "Alright, let's get my chemical romance back together."

Suddenly, it sounded like a frat boy party. A bunch of hoots and yells. I giggled a bit, but my smile faded as I heard someone say. In their sweet voice, "What's going on?"

We all instantly stopped in silence.

"Oh, it's nothin', Vie." Jeph smiled sexily at her, "Gerard just agreed to getting my chem back together!"

She looked down from his gaze, "Oh."

Bert glanced at the clock, "Oh ****, Vie! We gotta get home before mom and dad do! They'll kill us cos' I had detention and you need to cover for me!"

Without letting his sister even answer, he grabbed her arm, and pulled her all the way home.

It seemed as if Jeph was staring at her ass on the way out, but I ignored it. It's just my imagination, I thought.

"Eh, we better get going, too. Later Gee, bye Mikey." Frank said, leading Vem out by the hand.

Now, it was just Mikey and me. I took one look at him, and went upstairs without a word. He stopped me half way up, "Gerard, I think there is something wrong."

"Something wrong with what?" I asked quietly, with an ucaring tone.

And my heart dropped as Mikey's words replied, "Something wrong with Violet."

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I spun around, "What do you mean?"

Mikey shrugged, "Well, ya know, on the way she's been acting lately, I don't think its cos' of you. Vie has been acting like this a little bit before you left us. Didn't you notice it?"

It was evident that Gerard hadn't noticed it before. And he felt like a dumb ass for it, too.

He shook his head no. He had no notice of it. "What kind of way has she been acting?" I mused, scratching my head.

"She's fine sometimes, but mostly, she acts very strange, especially around Jeph." Mikey explained modestly, "And she's been wearing a lot of black and wearing a lot of make-up, too. It's as if she's a sad little emo girl now."

I mused again and stroked my chin. Then, a horrible thought popped into my head, but maybe it was a bad idea to tell.

"Well, aren't Jeph and Vie best friends?" I asked, trying to cover up my idea.

Mikey raised an eyebrow at me. "You mean, you don't know?" he asked me.

"Know what!?" I replied loudly, and in an alarmed tone.

"They've been dating for a few weeks; Vie has been acting more strange than she was before. I mean at first I think it was you, and now...I think its Jeph."

My heart stopped and all the possible answers and questions went through me like a bullet.

What if...What if....And more importantly, why did Violet lie to me about her and Jeph dating?

"What else has she been doing!?" I shouted practically scared for my life.

"Well, I think she's taking drugs, too." he said quietly from my outburst, "Sometimes she skips school, and sometimes when she comes, she's all hazy with bloodshot eyes and stuff."

I grabbed my jacket and started heading out the door, "I have to go see her."

Mikey grabbed my arm, "Gerard, no. What if it's nothing?"

"I can't take the chance of losing her again!" I blurted out, "Jesus Mikey! She's my best friend---"

I stopped and looked at Mikey, as his grip loosened. I pulled away and ran outside over to Vie's house as quick as possible.


It was dark and about six 'o clock by the time I got there. I didn't even knock; I burst through the door, where Vie was sitting on the couch with Jeph. Safe and sound. My heart was beating faster and faster with every breath.

They both looked up at me with shocked expressions.

"Gerard?!" Violet said in alarm, "W-What are you doing?"

All my vision came in clear, Vie wasn't fine. She was sitting there as Jeph lit up a joint. He was doing weed. She stood up as I ran to her and held her in my arms unintentionally. But it felt good to hold her again. So good.

My hand on the back of her head, stroking her soft hair, "Oh my god, Vie. Are you okay?"

She pushed away gently and awkwardly, "Yesmm, I'm fine. G-Gerard, you shouldn't be here."

"Yes I should." I whispered, "I thought you were in trouble, and I want you out of here while Jeph is doing this. Please, Violet."

"N-No, Gerard. I'm fine, honestly." she said truthfully.

I smiled a little, "But I still don't want you here while Jeph is doing this. DO you think he'd mind if we talked in the kitchen?"

Vie took a quick glance at Jeph, and then back to me. He was just sitting there, sucking on the joint with a stoned smile on his face.

She shook her head, "No it's okay. C'mon." And she led me into the kitchen.

She sat herself up on her counter as I stood in front of her.

"V-Vie--"I finally said, "Why'd you lie to me about you and Jeph?"

She looked down guiltily. "I don't know." she shrugged, "It was all so early, I didn't think you wanted to know anyways."

"Honestly, I didn't Vie." I said truthfully. I just had to ask, "Vie--you've been actingodd lately."

"Odd?" she repeated, "How so?"

I hesitated and then shook my head, "Never mind." And I told her I had to go. She didn't stop m at all. Everything was just the same. I knew she hated me.

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Violet's POV

Jeph's eyes were bloodshot and burning a hole through me with the fury.

He reached and shoved me hard, as I landed up against the wall.

Wincing, I cried, "Jeph...please, stop!"

His strong grip choked my neck, and with an evil tone he hissed, "I want you to stay away from that Gerard kid. You are mine, got it?"

I gasped for air, "Y-Yes..Jeph. I-I'm s-sorry."

He let go, and let me drop to my knees on the floor. I gasped for the air to get to my lungs, and I rubbed my neck in pain.

He turned to me, and helped me up. "Here." he said, handing me his joint, "This'll help."

At first I hesitated, but I didn't want Jeph to hurt me again. So, I took it and sucked in the intoxicating smoke. Jeph smiled wickedly, and sat me down on the couch as he got on top of me.

He sucked on my neck as I whimpered to myself. He began to unzip his pants.

"J-Jeph...no." I said pushing him away lightly.

"C'mon, baby." he smirked, "It will be fun, I promise."

"Jeph, I can't." I said flatly.

He wobbled a little, and before I knew it he was passed out beside me. I sighed in relief.

Jeph had been doing this to me since Gerard left. I needed Gerard's help, but if I told him what Jeph did... Jeph would kill me himself. He hit me, and tried to have sex with me. I was afraid of him, and it was noticable. Gerard noticed it, and I bet everyone else has, too.

Now that Jeph was passed out, I had to get him home before Bert got home. So, I grabbed Jeph and tried to pull him off the couch. He landed on the floor, but didn't wake up. I started dragging him outside, that's when I saw someone. It was Frankie.

He ran up to me, and shook me by the shoulders. "Vie!? Vie!? What happened?" he shouted.

I looked down guiltily, trying to hide me tears, and my neck which was still red. I tried to cover up my arms. I was wearing a spaghetti strapped tank top, and I tried to cover the bruises from my wrists and arms.

His mouth gaped, "O-oh my god, Vie.....I knew it! He is hitting you! He is isn't he!?"

I was quick to respond. "NO!" I shouted, "It's not that at all."

He saw the lie in my eyes, he shook me harder. "Violet McCracken! He is! Don't ****ing lie to me!" he shouted.

I couldn't answer. The lump in my throat was getting bigger and bigger. Soon, I couldn't take it any longer. I broke down crying on the dew covered grass. Hiding my face from the world. It was all true. "Okay! He is! Frank, don't tell anyone, I'm begging you, please!" I wailed.

Frankie knelt down beside me, "B-But Vie, if we don't stop him now, he'll hurt you again. If you keep this up, you'll be dead before your next birthday!"

"I'll get help, Frankie...just not now, please don't tell anyone. Let me figure this out." I begged.

He helped me up and sighed, "Okay, but you better do something about it soon, or I will. Scouts honor?"

I smiled a bit, "Scouts honor, and don't tell anyone. Not even Vem."

"Got it." he promised, letting his eyes wonder down to Jeph, "Hey Vie, want me to take this moran home?"

I giggled and nodded, "Thanks Frankie."

He nodded and picked Jeph up and carried him to his car, and drove away.

I stood there watching the car drive away. Then, I went back inside, grabbed my coat, and headed down the road. Somewhere quiet, somewhere alone.

I went to the pond with the old willow tree that was me and Gerard's secret spot. Nobody knew about it. It was Gerard and I who discovered it, it was Gerard and I that hung out there everyday, and told everybody we were going for a walk. This was where.....I tried to stop myself from thinking of that night. I couldn't. This was where Gerard stole my first kiss.

Yes, it was Gerard who stole my first kiss. Seventh grade. We were 13 years old. It was un called for, but never stopped us from being best friends.

4 years earlier...

Gerard and I climbed up to the top branch of the willow tree that we always sat it. It was a sturdy branch unlike most willow trees. It was late, and everyone was at the YMCA dance, but Gerard and I hung out with eachother instead.

"Hey, Vie. Did you know that you're my best friend?" Gerard commented randomly.

I turned to him from staring at the stars and smiled, "You're my best fiend, too, Gerard."

I shivered, and rubbed my arms. It was somewhat cold out and I didn't have a jacket.

Gerard leaned back against the trunk of the tree. "C'mon." he said.

I sat between his legs, and awkwardly leaned against him. His arms swam around my waist. I was warm.

"Thanks." I blushed.

"Mhhhm." he replied sheepishly as my head managed to go back and look at him.

Before I knew it, Gerard pressed his lips to mine. He kissed me lightly and with love. It was wonderful.

We never spoke of it again, I liked Gerard for the longest time after that, but soon I realized that he didn't like me anymore. So, my love faded away and we remained the best of friends. That is, until Amanda came along.


I wandered up to the top branch, it had been so long since I had been here. Everything was getting old, and damp from rain. It was a beautiful night to be on my own.

I looked up into the dark night sky. The stars were white and shining bright. The moon in its cresent form, and few gray clouds drifted over the dark blue sky.

I smiled and closed my eyes. Smelling the intoxicating aroma of the night. It was cool and fresh. The wind blew in my hair, and I opened my eyes. A shooting star flew across the night sky.

I closed my eyes once more to make a wish. As tears filled my eyes I whispered, "I wish everything would go away." With that, falling felt like flying as I fell from the branches of the willow tree.

I didn't hit a single branch on my way down, it all felt like flying until I hit the ground, and I was out cold.

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Austa's POV

It was later that night and I was at November's house spending the night, when Frank came over late.

"Where've you been, Franklin?" I joked as I looked at him strangely.

He shook his head, "Nowhere."

Vem sat him down next to her as they started the movie. Man, was it entertaining! All Vem and Frank did was make out, make out, make out! For the whole entire movie. I had to deal with it all until my cel rang. I left the room into the kitchen and picked it up with a plain, "Hello?"

It was Bert, sounding awfully worried. "Hey Aust, have you seen Vie anywhere. I got home and she was gone." he said solemnly.

I shook my head, "Nope, but want me to ask Frankie or Vem? They might know."

I walked in on them still sucking face. "YO FRANKIE!" I yelled in a fake Brooklyn accent, making Frank jump out of his skin.

Then I put on my innocent face and asked fakely, "Have you seen Vie?"

He shook his head, "Earlier, isn't she home?"

"Bert says she isn't." I said with a bit of panic in my voice. "O-Oh my god, guys. Where do you think she is?"

Vem shrugged and pulled out her celphone and dialed in a number. "Hey Quinn, do ya know where Vie is by any chance?" she asked in her worried tone of voice.
"Oh, ok, bye."

She closed her phone, "Quinn doesn't know. Here. Lemme try Branden."

Well, we tried everyone. Branden, Quinn, Mikey, even Vie's celphone, but no one picked up. By now, we were worried. Suddenly, a thought popped into my head. I grabbed my cel and dialed the number.


There were a few rings, and then a groggy voice murmured out, "He-Hello?"

"Jeph, wake up, we can't fi-" but I stopped. Frankie had snatched my cell phone away and hung up on Jeph.

"Frank!" I snapped, "Maybe she was at Jeph's house you 'tard!"

"No." Frankie said, turning away, "She wouldn't be, trust me."

I groaned and sighed, "Where the hell could she be?"

"Well....she seemed a little upset earlier. Maybe she wanted to be alone." Frankie murmured.

Suddenly, another thought popped into my head. I jumped up, "A-HA! I GOT IT BY ****!"


"What!? What!? What!?" Vem shouted in excitement.

"The thing with the tree and the pond!" I was tongue tied. I knew what I wanted to say, but couldn't find words to explain to them.

"T-the art project! Gerard's art thing!" I yelled.

"Gerard!?" Vem yelled.

"NO!" I replied quickly. The old pond and willow tree! Vie was talking about it in Art class the other day. Gerard and her only knew about it! I think she's there!"

"B-but are you sure?" Vem asked awkwardly.

"I just have this feeling that she's there, c'mon we need Gerard!" I exclaimed.

"B-but he's not home, Mikey said that earlier." Vem pointed out.

"Well, we'll just have to find it ourselves." I said confidently.

With that, we all piled into Frankie's car and drove as fast as we could to the nearest woods. Dark Springs Forest.

We started rummaging around the dead forest with our flash lights. This was totally ridiculous, as Vem repeated many times to me, but I just knew she was here.

"Okay, we'll find better ground if we split up." I said.

Vem instantly snatched Frank's arm in fear.

I groaned, "You guys go together that way, I'll go this way. Meet here in 10 minutes." And we all headed out.

I searched alone for the remaining 5 minutes, then decided to try Vie's cell again. Maybe she would pick up.

I dialed it and waited for a few dial tones. And in the distance, but not that far away, I heard a noise. I dropped my phone into the dead leaves. It was Vie's ring tone.

I gasped and ran through the tangles branches into a clearing. It was the pond! And the willow tree! I ran and found Vie's cell, but no Vie. I looked around me, and soon over into the dead fall leaves found something.

I approached it slowly, too dark to see what it was. Suddenly, I fel myself step in something. Somewhat like a puddle. I had a bad feeling it wasn't rain.

I shined my flash light onto the ground. I backed away from it, too shaken to say a word. It was a stream of blood leading somewhere.

I followed the stream to the opposite side of the tree. There was Vie. She was lying in dirt, eyes shut, and head bleeding.

I screamed for help, but I was so scared it was as if no one could hear me. Not even myself.

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Ooooooooh mkay ^^.

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"O-Oh my god!" I screamed as tears flowed down my face, "Frank! Vem...Oh my god, hurry!"

They were calling my name in the distance. There was Violet, was she dead?

My chest tightened as my heart beated faster and faster.

Suddenly, I heard Vem scream as I just sat there at my knees, petrified. I couldn't move.

I found Frank shaking me by the shoulders and yelling my name, "Austa! Austa! What the hell happened!?"

"I-I I don't know." I murmured out in my breathless tone. There was a long pause before I yelled out, "We have to get her to the hospital!" I went to grab her, but Frank pulled me back from going to her.

"NO! Austa she's in a coma, if we move her, she might die!" Frank yelled.

My muscles loosened, and Frank let go of me. I dropped to my knees again as I went back as fast as I could, grabbed my cell phone and dialed 911 emergency.

"Hello, 911 emergencies. What is your emergency?" said the girl on the other end of the line.

Between tears and my mental breakdown I cried, "Please w-we need an ambulance directed to Dark Springs Forest. M-My friend...she-she's in a coma and her head is bleeding!"

"Where is your location?" said the voice.

"I JUST TOLD YOU!" I screamed, I was so upset, I couldn't talk anymore.

Frank took the phone from me, "Hello, we're near the old Ranger Station about a half mile west. Near the old pond." With that, he hung up.

Vem sat at her knees by Vie's side, a horrific expression on her blanched face.

I would have been, but I was so scared I couldn't even move. I the distance we heard the sirens coming as red and blue lights flashed within the tangled insides of the forest.

Next thing I knew, we were at the hospital. Since Frank was older that both of us, he got to ride in the ambulance. I took the wheel of Frank's car, and drove to the hospital as fats as I could.

I sat in the waiting room with Frank and Vem, I managed to hide my tears inside as I looked down. My head in my hands. Vem was crying still as Frank comforted her in his arms. Was Vie going to be okay? All I could do at this point was think.

"I called Bert." Frank said, breaking the silence, "He should be here in a minute."

"Ah...****." I groaned, "W-What happened in the ambulance?"

I looked up to look at Frank's solemn face. "She was breathing, but her head was bleeding all over."

I cringed and looked down again. Just then, I heard it. Someone screaming, "****! Get the **** away from me! My sister's in a coma!" It was Bert.

In he came shoving everyone out of his way as he ran over and grabbed Frank by the shirt, "What the **** happened!?"

"Frank!" someone called, "What happened!?" Up came the person. It was Gerard.

Gerard's POV

I was confused, scared, and lost for words. All I repeated over and over again were the words "what happened".

"We have no idea." Frank said sadly, "We went out looking for her, and we just found her in the forest. Dark Springs."

My eyes widened, "W-Where?!"

"Over by the pond, and the willow tree." Austa said sadly, still hiding her face.

I fell to my knees. I broke down. If I just stayed with her, she'd be okay right now.

Up came Ray, Quinn, Bob, Branden, and Mikey.

"Do you think she was attacked?" asked Mikey.

"No...I don't think so." said Frank, "I think I know what happened."

"WHAT!? Tell me dammit!" Bert demanded.

"I-I can't." Frank said quietly.

"It's his sister, Frank. He deserves to know." Vem said in a stuffy, mouse-like voice.

He sighed, "I think she tried to kill herself."

Everyone in the room's eyes went huge.

"B-But why?" Quinn asked in disbelief.

Frank breathed out a stressful sigh. "Cos' Of Jeph, guys....He's hitting her."

"I KNEW IT!" I yelled, "I ****ING KNEW IT!" Tears fell down my face onto the floor, "No, no, no. This is all my fault!"

Mikey came to my side and patted my back. He came down to my ear and murmured to me, "Look, Gerard I know you still love her, but dont jump to conclusions. She'll probably be fine."

"B-but what if she's not?" I cried in a whisper, "W-What if she...dies?"

Just then an older voice interrupted. "Ahem."

I turned to see the doctor with a clipboard.

There Bert went screaming in his face. "WHERE IS SHE!?"

The doctor sighed and flipped the page, "Your sister, Violet McCracken. She has a hemorrhage in her cerebrum brain stem."

"In English please?!?!?" Bert yelled.

The doctor bowed his head, "Ms. McCracken has a hemorrhage in her brain. It's too deep to identify where, though. We're not sure if it's affected her hearing, speech, memory, any of her nerves, even her heart."

Everyone's heart dropped, especially mine. "C-Can we see her?" Mikey asked in his shaken voice.

"She's in a coma." said the doctor glumly.

"Will she wake up!?" yelled Bert, almost at the top of his lungs.

The doctor shook his head, "We're not sure. It might be a day or two, a week, a month, a year, even forever. But if we can't wake her up...."

Bert reached out and shoved the doctor, "DONT EVER ****ING SAY THAT! SHE'LL WAKE UP! SHE WILL DAMMIT!"

Frank held Bert back as he dropped to his knees in tears. He punched the floor as he screamed and cried. He yelled about how Violet was going to wake up, and how she would be fine, and back to normal, and also how he was going to kick Jeph's ass.

"How could he do this to her..." I heard Austa murmur, "He said he loved her."

I looked away from shrieking Bert, towards the doctor. "I still want to see her." I said defiantly, "Some say talking to patients helps them wake up."

The doctor nodded in agreement, "It's logical. Very well, I'll send each of you in at a time."

Bert went first.

Bert's POV

I walked into my sisters hospital room. I just about broke down into tears to see her lying there in her hospital bed. Her skin was whiter than normal, and an IV stuck in her arm as her life support beeped slowly. The face mask over her face was making a muffled noise as she breathed in and out. I sat beside her and started talking. I felt so stupid, like I was talking to an empty shell. That's what I was talking to you. I had to face it, my sister couldn't hear me, and so I stopped talking. She couldn't feel me, so I didn't touch her. She couldn't talk to me, so I left. I couldn't take seeing her like that.

Austa's POV

I stayed there as long as I could. I talked to her about random stuff. I had to stay with her, I couldnt leave her. But the doctor said my time was up, but I wouldn't leave. I refused, so Frank and Vem had to help me out. All the while I was in tears.

Frank's POV

I went in with Vem, she was quiet the whole time. She didn't and couldn't talk to her. It was awkward and too painful for her to see her like that, so I sent her out. Before my time was up I murmured out, "Vie you'll be okay."

Everyone went in one at a time, when finally, it came to Gerard.

Gerard's POV

I walked in slowly. There was Violet. Her hair flowing over her white pillows, her eyes shut. She looked peaceful, but I could tell she was in pain.

I sighed coldly, and took and seat next to her. I reached, and held her cold hand gently.

"Vie." I whispered, "You were always a good friend to me, thank you for trusting me. I'm sorry for messing all this up for us. It's all my fault you hate me. Everything's my fault. I wish I was there to protect you, but I ****ed everything up. I-I'm sorry. I really am, Vie. Please wake up."

With those last words in came the doctor, "Visiting hours are almost up, Mr. Way. Wrap it up."

I sighed to myself choking back tears. I lifted up her hand and kissed the back of it, then put my other hand over it.

And with my last words I whispered," I love you so much..."

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((Its so sad...))

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Austas POV

It had been a week since Violet hit her head. Everyone has been visiting her while she was in her coma. Her parents were here all the time.

People from school left gifts for her, flowers, fruit baskets, small stuffed bears.

Everyone was taking this hard, but the person taking this the hardest was Gerard. We hardly ever saw him; he was always at the hospital, by her side, just waiting for her to wake up. Of course his mom let him skip school every once in a while so he could stay with her. Yes, everyone was visiting her, everyone but Jeph. That damn bastard. One day, I was sick of keeping the rage of finding out about him abusing Violet inside of me. I drove over to his house to give him **** for what he did.

I knocked on his door. There he was. His eyes were blood shot as he stared into my eyes.

Oh...hey Austa. He said casually.

Hey. I grimaced, I need to talk to you.

Alright. He smiled as he let me in.

I sat down on his torn, used couch. He sat beside me, his shirt off, and looking like he hadnt taken a shower for a while.

Why havent you been visiting the hospital or going to school? I asked, containing the urge to punch him in the face.

Oh, Ive just been so sad. I cant stand to see her like that. You know because I love her. He said in the most obvious fake voice ever.

Then, you should stop thinking about yourself, and go see her. I snapped.

She knows I love her, Austa. Jeph replied tensely.

Really? I said in a cheeky tone, Obviously not.

What the **** is that supposed to mean? Jeph said in an angry voice.

I stood up and glowered down upon him, You know damn right what Im talking about.

No. he said, standing up, Not really.

I shoved him, Might as well stop pretending, Jeph! We all know, we all know about what youve been doing!

Jeph went to open his mouth, but I shoved him to the ground, and punch him in the stomach. He let out a gasp, and held his stomach as he rolled helplessly on the floor. Now, if you ever touch Violet Rose McCracken again, I swear to god, youll pay. I snarled, Ill ****ing kill you, Jeph Howard. Do you understand me? And if I dont youll go to jail for sure.

Youll have no proof. He choked.

I stepped on his chest, Whatd you just say!?

He smirked, Violets in a coma, you have no proof of what Ive been doing. Youre screwed, Austa.

I stepped on him hard, Shut up! I told you, punk, you touch her, and Ill kill you. The police dont need to get involved with this. Its simple English, Jeph. You touch her, I kill you. I stepped off him, and headed out the door. And with my last words I snapped, Dont **** with me, Jeph. You hurt her, I wont back down. And I left his house to let him roll on the floor in pain.

Authors POV

Its been exactly 1 month, and theres no hope of Vie waking up. Nobody can stand going to see her like that anymore. No one except Gerard. He still goes every single day. Either before school, at lunch or after school. Gerard might have had doubts before, but now, we all think he was losing hope.

Gerard slumped onto the garages couch next to Mikey.

Gee, we all have to talk to you about something. Vem said to him gently, We already talked to Violets parents about it and

What is it? he snapped.

Well, nobody thinks Vie is going to wake up andwell were all thinking about pulling the plug. Frankie explained.

What!? Gerard snapped as he came to his feet, You-Youre joking right? Bert! Are you hearing this!? Gerard looked over to Bert who was silently looking away.

Gerard, even the doctors are thinking about it. Said Austa, Look, I dont want this as much as you, but shes suffering.

Well, and we want you to do it. Frank said solemnly.

Gerards eyes widened, What? Like pull out her life support!? No! No way, I wont do it! I-I cant!

Mikey placed a gentle hand on him, Gerard

NO! he snapped, I wont do it, and I wont let any of you do it either! Damn it, I love her guys, I cant do it! With the notice of the words that just came from his mouth, Gerard stormed out of the silent room.

Gerards POV

I got into my car, and started driving. I had to get to Violet. I needed to keep everyone out of her room, everyone. So nobody would touch her.

I ran into the lobby of the hospital, and ran upstairs into Violets room. There she was, peaceful, alone, quiet, in her coma. Why did it have to come to this? I ran over to her side, and grasped her hand tightly in mine.

Vie. I cried as tears welled up in my eyes, I wont let them take you away from me. I wont.

Hey! said someone from behind me. I turned to see the doctor glowering at me, Youre not supposed to be in here!

Gerard! another voice said. I turned to see Frankie, Mikey, Austa, Bert, and Vem. Bert and Frankie grabbed me by the arms and started dragging me out of the room.

Oh my god, dont hurt her, please! Dont pull the plug! PLEASE! I screamed at the doctor.

Bert and Frankie kept lugging me out of there, and I didnt fight back. I was too weak to try.

When we reached the lobby, and I had finally calmed down, Frankie came over beside me. Cmon. he said gently, Were all going to get some food.

Im not hungry. I snarled.

Gerard. You have to eat. Youve been losing a lot of weight, and you need to eat. Frankie encouraged.

How can I eat when the girl I love is in there, helpless and in pain? I said, choking back the lump in my throat.

Well go see her later. For now, lets go get some food, and well talk about it, okay? he asked.

I didnt respond, I just got up and headed towards the cafeteria.




That night, Frank sent me home with Mikey. Frankie told me to catch some sleep, but I couldnt sleep. I was too worried, what if they let her go while I wasnt there? I was scared to death.

Wheres Austa and Vem? I asked as Mikey came in and handed me some coffee.

He sat down beside me, and blew on the cup. At the hospital. He said flatly.

Oh. I said sadly, as I took a long sip of my hot coffee.

Just then, the phone rang. Ill get it. I said as I picked up the phone before Mikey got it.

Hello? I said in my quiet tone.

GERARD! Youre never gonna believe what happened! yelled Austa on the other side if the line.

I cringed, What?

Its Vie! She woke up!

My heart dropped, as did the phone from my hands. A smile spread across my face. Violet, she was awake.

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As soon as I arrived at the hospital, I made my way upstairs and burst into Violets hospital room. There she was.

Her slimmed down frame was sitting up with her icy blues scared and confused. Her face was giving Austa and Vem strange looks as they hugged her. I ran to her and embraced her as hard as I could. I was so happy to see her, I never wanted to let her go.

Oh my god, Vie. I sniffed as tears streamed down my face, You-Youre alrightoh my god, youre okay!

I let go of her but kept my firm grip on her shoulders. I needed to see her face. Her eyes were dimmer, she wasnt smiling. She was confused, I could tell.

Yeah... She murmured out as she examined the room and everybody who was in it. It was as if she was lost for words.

I gave her a reassuring smile, Babewhats wrong? Arent you glad to see me?

Sure? she said awkwardly, looking as if I was out of my mind. Then, those words escaped her mouth. Were they real? All I know that was when she said those words, my smile faded and many hearts dropped, and tears began to flow again. Those words she whispered out so confusingly, UhmI think I would be happier to see you if I had any idea who you were.

What?! Austa exclaimed, fully appalled, Vie, its Gerard. Dont you recognize him?

Violet gave me a long glance then turned back to Austa and shook her head. I dont even know who any of you people are. Howd I get here anyways? Why am I in a hospital?

Bert rushed to her side and held her pale thin face frame, Vieyou dont recognize anyone here?

She pulled away, No. Who are you people?

Berts hands shook with fear and his eyes stayed fully widened as he backed away from his sibling as if she were a monster. Han-nice try, Vie. He stammered out as if everything was okay, You really had me for a secondnow really

What are you talking about!? Violet snapped, Who are you people?

What seems to be the problem? said the doctor as he entered the room.

Violets awake, but she doesnt recognize us. Frank explained, trying to stay as calm as possible. We all knew it was hard for all of us to maintain control. I was just standing back against the hospital room wall staring at Violet. No. It wasnt Violet. She was gone.
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The doctor went around the room trying to give Violet a test. Every time the doctor pointed to one of us, she had no clue who we were, or what our names were. The most painful is when se came to me. Just seeing her shake her head no when he asked if she knew my name ripped me apart. I had to squeeze in all my tears the best I could. I was trying to stay strong like all the other guys, except for Bert, who just sat towards the back staring at the floor in disbelief.

Well then, it seems as if Ms. McCracken has a bruised memory brain stem, or she simply has traumic amnesia. Concluded the doctor.

What does that mean? Austa snapped.

She cannot remember anything before her accident which includes how she got here, what happened, and all her friends and family. He replied.

Will she be back to normal soon? Bert said in his mouse-like tone.

The doctor looked down, Im not sure. No one really ever knows. Sometimes the patient will eventually slowly begin to remember everything, or shell just remember like that. But sometimes, the patient is never able to remember her past again. It might result in depression, loneliness, signs of bipolar disorder, even maybe enough to drive her mad. He said this quietly, he didnt want Violet to hear all of this that was going on.

Ahem. Violet interrupted vehemently, Anyone mind getting me out of here? Do I have to go somewhere with one of these people?

We all turned our attention to her as she spoke. Ill be taking you home to mom and dad, Vie. Bert stepped in.

Why you? she asked, raising an eyebrow in confusion.

Hes your brother, Violet. Frank replied for him.

HmViolet? Is that my name or something? she replied dumbly.

I sighed depressively. I waited so damn long just to see hr smiling face say my name again and maybe hold me tightly in her arms. I was praying for her to say how happy she was to see me and how much she loved me too. And all that waiting for what? An empty shell? A stranger? What the hell was worth wishing for anymore? Violet didnt remember me, which meant she couldnt have missed me. Which meant she could never love me.

Berts POV

It seemed like the car drive was a road trip to eternity. It was like corpses were the damn passengers. Everything was awkward and silent, and I couldnt cry right there on the spot.

My confused sister of who I had always loved, trusted, and cared for was taken from me. I felt like I had taken our friendship for granted, and now Im paying the price. Its ridiculous, I thought, I bet shell be fine by tomorrow.

Violet just sat in the passenger seat of my old car staring out the spring leaves and beauty of warm New Jersey. Everything we had built, all the trust, and love had came tumbling down like the twin towers.

I opened up the house door to let her in. Mom and dad were out of town so we were all by ourselves. We would have a hell of a time explaining her condition to them.

UhmD-Do you want anything to drink, Vie? I blurted out randomly as she sat on our living room couch.

She silently replied with a shake of her head. I sighed and headed into the kitchen to gather myself. I was so close to the verge of tear they almost started falling while I stared into my sisters beautiful confused eyes.

When I came out, she was staring at a photo on the wall. I came up beside her to see what picture it was.

Oh god. It was our picture from summer camp when we were 13. Most of our friends were there, and it was the last day. So, obviously mom had to take pictures as always. The picture was when Vie and I looked the most alike then we had since we were babies. I had just started growing out my hair, and it was dyed black, it was just about to my shoulders and Vies hair was the same length. Our faces were tanned from the sun and we both wore our camp outfits. In the picture with us were Vem, Frankie, Mikey, Gerard, Quinn, and Branden. Gerard and Vie looked the happiest in the picture. Vie was hopped up on Gerards back and I was hanging off of Gerard which eventually sent all of us crashing down. Good times. Good memories. All that Vie couldnt remember anymore.

She just stood there string blankly at the picture. Then suddenly as she turned her head towards me, W-Who am I? Her tears were streaming down her face as I squeezed her in my arms trying to shush her down.

I was on the verge of tears as well as I whispered to her, You are Violet McCracken, a beautiful 16-year-old girl, with a ton of friends, and a brother that loves you very much.

But how is it supposed to be alright again if I cant even remember my friends or you?! she bawled into my shoulder blade.

Everythings going to be okay. I murmured to her, even though I had the worst feeling that everything wasnt ok. I was right. Nothing was okay for a very, very long time.





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Gerards POV

It's been too damn long; I havent spoken to Violet since the day at the hospital. She didnt come to school; she just rotted away at home all day. Bert stayed with her. He wasnt about to leave her. I wanted nothing more as to just see her smile and say my name. And say it like she knew me.

I just moped around the house all the time. I was in a depressive state, and hardly ever went to school.

"Hey, Gee." Mikey said, handing me the phone, "Its Bert, he wants to talk to you."

"Hello?" I groaned as I barely held the phone to my ear.

"Gerard, the doctor has a suggestion, but you need to get over here with Mikey as fast as possible." Bert said.

I perked up and replied with a simple "okay", and Mikey and I ran over to Bert's as fast as we could. Of course I was excited; it would be the first time in a month since I had seen her. Yes...a month.

We walked into the house without knocking. It was being rude, but I was too excited to be polite. I ran up to Bert panting, with panting Mikey behind me trying to catch his breath.

"Whats-going-on?" I breathed in and out heavily.

"The doctor is trying a new method. He wants to send Vie to each of our houses for a little while, and let us each talk to her alone about stuff. Were going to try everything. Now, shes been to everyones house, and shes at Austa's right now. We want Mikey to talk to her, and then he can come over here for a while, so you and she can talk." Bert explained to me in a tone of voice I had never heard before. He sounded sad, and not like normal Bert at all.

I sighed and nodded my head, "I imagine that Jeph tried to get in on this?"

"Yeah." He replied solemnly, looking to the side, "but hes still on probation for the whole weed thing."

I snarled at the thought. I cant believe all that he did to that poor, beautiful, innocent girl. He hit her, made her do drugs, and all in all he said he loved her, and didnt mean **** by it. God, he made me sick. Just the thought of him disgusted me. Just then, we heard a car pull up.

That's Austa right now. Bert said turning his head towards the door.

In the 2 girls came. Violet, she looked just as beautiful as ever. Her hair had grown longer as it swept over her dainty shoulders. Her flawless body was dressed in a dark maroon tank top and a black sweatshirt over it. She wore her favorite pair of wrecked jeans, and her checkered vans. It looked like my Violet, but it wasnt. Not at all.

She didnt look at me with the love and caring eyes that she looked at me with before. Her facial expression was sad, confused, and she just looked like a lost little girl. I could barely restrain myself from just running to her and locking her in my arms to hold her as tight as possible. But no, I couldnt do that.

Bert looked at us stare at each other for a moment and then broke the silence, "Uhm, Violet, this is Gerard, and this is Mikey."

Her next words never sounded so good. "I know," she murmured, "They were the boys from the picture."

I looked down morosely at my feet.

"Yeah, Violet, youre going with Mikey first, and then you'll come back, and go over with Gerard, okay?" Bert explained to her gently.


She nodded gently and followed Mikey out the door.

I flopped myself down on the couch and looked around the room glumly. All the pictures of Violet around me made me even sadder than I already was. Austa and Bert sat down beside me on the couch.

"You miss her dont ya, Gee?" Austa said softly to me.

I nodded my head and breathed in shakily, "Yeah, I do. All I want is for her to remember me. It hurts to see her look at me with confusion in her eyes, and to know that Im like a stranger with candy to her."

"We all feel the same, Gee, but we cant seem depressed around her." Bert pointed out, "She had a mental breakdown a couple of times, because she felt like no one knew her or loved her. She'd wake up and be crying cos shed have dreams about stuff and memories but it upset her, cos she didn't remember them. She said most of them had you in them, Gerard."

I looked down, and chewed on my bottom lip to try and stop the tears, "Well, tonight Ill try my best and talk to her without crying."

Bert patted me on the back, "Thats all we ask is for you to try, Gerard. And Mikey told me before he left that you've been waiting so long for this."

"Yes, I have." I murmured sadly.

Just then, Austa went to talk on her phone with someone.

"WHAT!?" we heard. Bert and I glanced at each other dumbly and ran into the kitchen.

"No! Mikey go back to the house! You cant just leave Violet there alone!" Austa shrieked.

There was a pause, and then Austa said it. Something I didnt know. My heart dropped to my knees as she shouted, "Jeph was taken off probation! What if he goes there to find her!?"

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My heart dropped to my knees and my pupils went small. Before I knew it I was rushing my way out of Bert's house, almost running into Mikey as he entered the house as he closed his cell phone.

Bert grabbed me by the arms and pulled me back away from the door.

"NO!" I yelled, "Vie's in trouble, I have to go help her! What if Jeph goes out to get her!?"

"Gerard! Jeph is dangerous. He's a ****ing drunk, he could have a gun!" Bert scolded me as he held me away from the door.

Like that statement helped any; I just pulled away more and more. I couldn't let it end this way. Even if Jeph wasn't out to get her, she could get hurt somehow. I needed to get to her to make sure she was okay. I had a bad, sour feeling in the pit of my stomach that she wasn't okay.

There was so much shouting, and screaming among us, but it all seemed silent to me as I thrashed around like a fish out of water, yelling at Bert to let me go. Every time he answered with a no, and told me to stay away, and he'll call the police. I couldn't take the chance of losing her again. With one great amount of strength, I pulled away, and ran out the door as fast as I could. Bert, Mikey and Austa at the door screaming profanities. I didnt care; I had to get to her.

I ran through the pouring rain passed every street, every block, all the way to Maple Avenue. That's where Mikey and I lived. The rain soaked my skin, and clothes as I ran up to our lawn, and looked up at our house that seemed gloomy in the darkness of the thunderstorm. And from inside the house I heard screams.

Blood curdling screams.

So scary that the hair on the back of my neck stood up.

It was Violet screaming.

I ran into the house without even shutting the door behind me. My mom and dad werent home or else they would've stopped Jeph. And I ran upstairs to where the screams hurdled from. I ran into the closest room, the guest bed room.

There was Jeph.

And Violet.

He was pressing her between the mattress and his body as he started taking off her shirt. Violet was screaming and crying for help as Jeph continued to undress her, and himself. He was about to rape her.

My eyes burned with anger, and my teeth clenched. My hands balled into fists as I ran up behind Jeph, pulled his nasty ass off her, turned him around, and punched his ass right to the floor.

Jeph's stoned eyes looked up at me in shock. I ran to Violet and helped her up.

"Violet, run! Go downstairs as fast as you can! Run to your house!" I screamed at her as she gave me scared, confused icy blues. "GO!"

She finally ran from my arms downstairs. I didn't have enough time to turn around until Jeph punched me in my nose. I fell back into a nearby wall. I cringed and stood back up straight. I tackled him to the floor and there we wrestled each other. We threw punches and kicked. He was on top of me, punching the **** out of me. Finally, I found the strength in my legs, and kicked him off me. He fell back, hitting his back on the box spring of the bed.

He winced as I grabbed him by the shirt and threw him down on his back. I climbed on top of him, and punched him over and over.

With each and every punch I screamed at him.

"Why did you do this Jeph?! You led her to attempt suicide! How dare you say you love Violet McCracken! You dont love her! You ****ing liar! You'll pay Jeph Howard, you'll ****ing pay! I hate your guts, and so does everyone else, you will ****ing rot in jail if I dont ****ing kill you first! You were her friend Jeph! I loved her so much, more than you ever did! And I will love her forever! Why!? Just tell me the **** why!?"

Tears were streaming out of my fiery eyes as I hit him with every thing I had. Every strength I had never used before was being used on this sick excuse for existence.

"**** you, Jeph! **** you and every ****ing bastard that does this!" I screamed as blood flowed out Jephs half-dead face.

Soon I found warm arms wrapping around me as I let go of Jeph, and let his unconscious body hit the hard-wood floor.

I fell back and onto the floor as a calm voice whispered out, "G-Gerard, did you mean everything you just said?"

I placed my chilled hand over the hand that was placed over my chest. My wet bangs hung in my eyes as the unknown person swept them from my face to my crying hazel eyes.

My eyes detonated into icy blues. It was her. Violet, and she was smiling at me, too.

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I pulled her body to mine and hugged her tightly as I cried into her chest. This was probably the first time anyone has seen me cry. Especially Violet.

She still didnt remember me, but she held me close still. I sobbed into her chest like a baby as she brushed my wet hair with her fingers.

"C'mon Gerard, we better call the police, and get him out of here." She whispered to me.

I looked up into those gorgeous blue eyes, and nodded in agreement. I pulled out my cell, and dialed 911.

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It was scary for all of us.

We had to tell the police exactly what happened.

The attempted raping.

Me beating the **** out of Jeph.

Even the **** beforehand that went on with the abuse and drugs.

Jeph was sentenced to 18 years in prison. And afterwards, probation for a long, long time. Violet was safe.

At the end of the night Bert smiled warmly at his sister, "C'mon Violet, you've had a rough day."

She gently pulled away and gave me sympathetic eyes, "No, Gerard still needs to help me jog my memory."

"Are you sure? I mean, you almost got raped." Mikey said unsurely.

Violet didnt shoot a dirty look at him, she just chuckled and nodded, "Im fine, I think Gerard and I will be okay."

Bert and Mikey looked at each other, then at me.

"Do ya want to go to Gerards?" Bert asked.

Violet smiled and nodded her head as if she was an excited 4-year-old.

"I'll stay at Berts until you guys are done." Mikey said as he, Bert, and Austa all headed out of our house.

The police were done inspecting it, cleaning it up, and arresting Jeph so, we were all alone.

With a reassuring smile, I led her upstairs into my room.

She sat down on my bed up against the head board. "Gerard?" she murmured quietly.

I went beside her, and sat down close. I put my arm behind her, and looked down upon her. "Hmm?" I said quietly.

"Before we start trying to jog my memory and such, I wanted to thank you for saving me." Violet said in a nervous tone as she looked down at her feet.

"It was nothing, Vie." It was the first time in 2 months that I had called her Vie. It felt good to talk to her, and touch her again.

"Who was that? Why was he attacking me?"

I sighed with a disgusted look, "That was Jeph your boyfriend. Before you hit your head, he was abusing you and putting you on drugs. After you hit your head you were in a coma for a long time. I missed you a lot, and then soon Jeph got put on probation for doing illegal drugs. We tried to keep you safe, but we didnt know he was taken off. So, he went to find you, and get what he wanted."

Her icy blues filled up, "Gerard. Tell me about myself."

I chuckled a bit, "Ha, where do I begin? Well, we met in pre- school...."

And we went on and on and on all through the night as I read her own little goodnight story about her life to her. I started from as early as I could, to now. She ended up falling asleep on my shoulder, and I eventually fell asleep, too.

"Goodnight, Violet." I murmured into her ear as I went to turn off the lamp. I kissed her soft, still lips, "I love you."

The room went dark.

At about 10 in the morning I got up and headed downstairs quietly. I tried not to make so much movement as I slid out from underneath Violet who was lying on me. She didn't stir nor move, just breathed softly as she cuddled up to the mattress as I covered up her body with my blankets. I smiled tiredly and went downstairs to make myself some coffee.

Later on in the day, about a half an hour later, down came Violet. Her black hair was messily mopped in her face as se rubbed her eyes. She came and sat down beside me on the couch.

"Morning, Gerard." She croaked happily, "Uhm, don't mind me asking, but did I get drunk last night?"

I gave her a strange look and laughed, "No, you were here with me, and fell asleep."

"Why was I here? Last thing I remembered was that I went to our secret spot." She said, raising an eyebrow, "Well, when we were friends."

At first I just ignored, but as soon as I remembered last night, my eyes shot open.

"WAIT!" I shouted, "I didnt tell you about our secret spot!"

Violet gave me the most puzzled look ever.

I grabbed her by the shoulders and shook her, "Violet! What's our nicknames? What's my middle name!?"

"Uhm, Chibi and Lovey? Your middle name is Arthur, now what are you on?" she asked awkwardly.

I gaped and hugged her in my arms tightly, "Oh my god, Vie! You're back! You remember me!"

"Gerard, are you okay? I mean, you hate me, and you're hugging me." She pointed out.

"Oh my god, Vie! You hit your head 2 months ago, and had amnesia! And now you remember me!" I cried happily, "I never hated you, Vie! I thought you hated me!"

"What!? Amnesia? And no! Gerard, I thought you hated me for the whole Jeph thing."

"No! Never. And now Jeph is gone. Hes in jail for everything he ever did to you, and now youre safe, Vie! Oh my god, I missed you!" I wailed as I held her tighter.

Her mouth was gaping, but all in all I was never so happy to see her smile at me. Even though she looked at me like I was crazy, it was the look MY Violet gave me. I wasn't a stranger anymore. I was Gerard-****ing-Way, and Violet knew me my face, again.

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THE BLACK AND WHITE ROSES:END![[about time]]

A year was never so sweet.

Violet went back to school with us, and finished up her final year of high school with us. She had to stay a little bit of the summer to make-up all the tests she missed in those 2 months of "vacation" as Vie and I call it.

Yes, Im calling her Vie again, and it was never felt so good.

I had never been so happy until the day I was Violet Rose McCracken's boyfriend.

We had been dating ever since her memory came back. We were both happy, and in love, and showing it, too.

Summer love, would never sound the same, again.

It was a warm summer day, and all of us were hanging out at Frank's place. The whole gang was back together.

Bert, Mikey, Frank, Austa, Vem, Gerard, and Vie. All of us were back together.

We all sat in the living room watching movies like old times. It was Nightmare of Elm Street 3 that we were watching.

Austa and Mikey began going out, so Austa and Mikey sat hand in hand on the couch as Austa cuddled up into Mikey's chest, pretending to be scared.

Bert was mindlessly stuffing popcorn into his big mouth as he sat right in front of the TV like a 10-year-old. But hey! Its Bert; he IS a 10-year-old.

Vem and Frankie of course were still dating as Vem sat on Frankie's lap in his dad's recliner. They barely paid attention to the movie; they kept staring into each other's eyes and smooching.

Even if Vie and I were dating, we still acted like kids, and grimaced at Vem and Frankie as they kissed. We snickered, or giggled, and had a tendency to go, OOOOOH! We were such good friends, and so in love.

We sat on the couch next to Mikey and Austa. Violet sat between my legs as she leaned back onto me as I wrapped my arms around her waist. She smiled and looked down with an embarrassed face.

"I love you." I whispered playfully into her ear as she giggled.

She looked back at me and kissed me. I loved her kisses so much. "I love you, too." She murmured back as we turned our attention back to the movie.

It was a couple minutes before I murmured, "Babe, we need to talk."

She looked up at me and smiled dimly, "In the kitchen?"

I nodded and let her get up first, then I got up, and we headed into the kitchen.

She sat herself up on the kitchen counter as I slid between her legs to look her directly in her gorgeous blue eyes that I seemed to drown in. My arms snaked around her as I smiled at her, "You're so beautiful, Vie."

A small blush swam up her neck, and over her cheeks, "Awwww, no matter how many times you say that to me, Gerard, you always make me blush."

"Thats my job, baby." I whispered as I kissed her gently.

As I broke the kiss she asked, "So, whatd you want to talk about, Gerard?"

My face became solemn, and I took her hands into mine. I stared her in the eyes, and said, "Vie? Do you love me as much as you say you do?"

Seeming appalled she said back, "Of course! Gerard, youre the best thing that happened to me ever. I want to be with you forever."

She pressed her forehead to mine so our lips were almost touching. As they brushed each other I whispered out, "Really?"

"Really." She smiled amongst my lips.

"Then answer me a question." I smiled as I took her by the hips, and picked her up off the counter and placed her on the floor. She stood before me, looking up into my eyes.

"Yeah?" she smiled, looking a little scared at first.

I smirked and suddenly pulled out a diamond ring. Her expression changed immediately. She gaped at me as her eyes widened.

"Violet Rose McCracken, I love you so much. You're my best friend in the world, and you've always been by my side, now dont ever leave my side." I murmured to her, "Violet..please, Marry me?"

I held out the ring as her tears reflected the diamonds rays.

She covered her mouth and then smiled, Of course Ill marry you, Gerard!

I smiled from ear to ear as I slid the ring on her finger. As I stood up she attacked me in a hug as I spun her around happily.

When I put her down she smiled and kissed me long, and passionately. Violet McCracken was mine forever, and this time, nobody was getting in our way. Especially Jeph.

"I ****ing love you Violet McCracken." I smiled at her.

"That's Violet WAY." She smirked as I hugged her tightly and in that moment of time it never sounded the best to me as Violet whispered, "I ****ing love you, too, Gerard Way."


END B.I.T.C.H.E.S

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